How to choose?

I don't know who said it: "The way of life is up to you." At first I was full of sorrow. Now, I am completely desperate. My life is not my own, probably from the moment I was born, Mom - love my mother, has begun to plan my life, isn't it?

Yu Xin asked: "I was studying painting at the age of 5, and I have been 11 years old. I have been in the middle school. When I have been studying painting for 6 years, can it be a coincidence? I can't deceive myself, because it is no coincidence. Everything is cut out by my mother who loves me!!" No, the life route that my mother designed for me is nothing more than: first learn painting, then go to the Academy of Fine Arts, and finally become a designer. Although it is good, it is not my intention. I have my own pursuit. It belongs to my own pink dream. My mother’s dream of building my dream seems to be too flat, although there will be no difficulty, no obstacles. I can't deny that my mother made this decision because she loved me. She wants me to have a bright future, all out of love, a mother's mother's love for her daughter! But I am not a puppet who is a mother, I have my own pursuit, my dream, I am a thoughtful person, and still her daughter, her favorite daughter!

I hope that all this is a dream, but no, I have to make a choice. On the one hand, my own pursuit, and on the other hand, my mother’s hope for me. How can I make a choice? I have made a choice and cannot escape. I have escaped the first day and can't hide fifteen. But my mind is so chaotic, no matter which side I choose, there will be a price. I am going to collapse. What should I do? tell me?

What should I do, what should I do?

How to choose?

How to choose?