This scum

The class bell just rang, and the students stepped out of the classroom to cycle their lives. Only I am sitting in the corner of the classroom! Because I can't walk around in all directions.

The campus in early spring always presents a vibrant atmosphere! Football field, basketball court. The active figure of the students played with joy, cheers, laughter, and echoes in the campus spread to the sky to cover up the pain of the campus to make this scene set off. Take a look at these young groups, take a look at this cheerful scene and see every youthful face here. I am lost! Is everyone so carefree? How much sadness is hidden behind this confusing scene? How many scums like me are hidden in this learning opportunity maintained by blood and sweat? I stood on the 5th floor to see all this, and then I looked at myself and I felt regret.

I haven't eaten rice today. I only ate a pack of instant noodles at noon yesterday. I still don't have a grain of rice. I have no money. Unexpectedly, in the 21st century, there are still people who are famine in China's more developed areas. I have lost all the courage because I am used to using courage for starvation. Maybe no one knows how embarrassing it is to say how hungry!

A year ago, I came here from my hometown to study - a technical school in Dongguan. The major I have studied is the mold design. I remember that on the way I went on the road, I took a lot of tuition and miscellaneous fees from my father's old hands. This is our family's savings for many years. I secretly vowed to study hard and repay my parents in the future. Both the father and the mother are rural people. It is a typical peasant who has not attended many studies, and there is not much to say. The simple expression of his father only explained some popular words. I can see from his melancholy eyes that he has endless expectations for me, and the mother’s red eyes are more of a "children’s worry, and I am in a heavy mood in this heavy farewell. Like a heavy-duty soldier to complete a difficult task, he went to school. I have never been to the door since I was so big. After I got on the bus, I saw a lot of companions, and my heart was calm. It’s the same as me, the third-year graduates are going there to study. Although they are from different schools, because we are peers, there are many common topics. The long road does not make me feel tired but excitement never goes. After so far, my heart is imagined and curious. The ship is going to drive away. I am looking at the other side of the road. There is a feeling of leaving home in the heart, and there is a novelty in the direction of another forward. Where is it right? I didn’t fall asleep along the way, just a non-stop and contradictory crank.

The car stopped at the Dongguan terminus. The classmates were excited to get out of the car and they all rushed to explore this fresh world like an explorer. This is Guangdong! This is Dongguan! People from all corners of the country are in a hurry. Roads with endless traffic, elegant architecture, and avant-garde wear, all run through a well-developed message. The first feeling for me in this strange place is that this is the world outside! Colorful colors decorate the city. A wide variety of people show that the status of people in this city varies greatly, and the rich and wealthy have the coolies to sleep on the streets. I am still a student. Why do I think of this? It is this developed city that has caused my restless heart to start turmoil. I grew up eating fireworks from the world and I was overwhelmed by this amazing prosperity! Since then, my heart has undergone subtle changes. I no longer have that sturdy heart of learning, but gradually began to gradually enter the world of flowers and flowers, and gradually gradually degenerate. After I signed up, I still have more than 2,000 yuan on my body. That is my food expenses. Because there are no cafeterias in the school, the students go out to eat. Every day after class, we go out of the campus and go outside to "enjoy" life. Everything here has internet cafes, bars, song bars, tea houses, massages. Anyway, many, many at the beginning, I just like the classmates, what do they do, I remember that one day our two classmates went to dinner and went to a restaurant to order more than 200 yuan of food.

Slowly, I am used to squandering. The other classmates are also likely to be rich in their family. I don’t want these things just to be happy. I learned to smoke. Go online. drink. I forgot the fine tradition of diligence and thrift. My money will be spent soon. The classmates who often go with me say that unity is strength. When I don't have money, I go out to eat with them. If you have money, spend the family together and send them a living fee of at least five or six hundred a month. My parents also bring me a belt at home. Later, when they knew that I could not get the same number as they did, I slowly alienated me. 300 pieces are not enough for me now because every month must be; smoke is one hundred. One hundred online. One hundred left. It costs at least 10 yuan a day to eat. Later, I borrowed from the classmate who gave me the money. Then I really owe too much, and I can't afford it if I can't afford it. I learned not to eat breakfast. Later I learned to eat a meal a day, and then I can only eat a pack of instant noodles every day. When I first came, I was still working hard. When I couldn’t solve my own food and clothing, my studies had already been put on the other side. All I want to think about is to find something to eat to sustain my life. Slowly, I am afraid that I will be at noon. I am afraid that night will come because it was when my classmates went out to eat. And I only have to look for the East to see if anyone can contribute generously to me. However, whenever I arrived at the beginning of the month, I had 300 yuan. After I paid the money, I would go online and take it. After more than 10 days, I started the law of one meal a day. I remember that one month my father could only send 250 yuan to save me a province because there was no money at home. When I left the money for more than 100 to 10, I was already penniless. I didn't have the food to go to class. Just eat boiled water every day. This is real! I have been lying in bed for three days. It is not that no one else, I am just a family, and it is difficult to protect myself. In this place where consumption is so high, most students have had the same experience as me. It’s just that they won’t fall to my level. Later, the class teacher knew that he had borrowed money to eat for me. Save me a life! Sometimes I think about the tears of my parents at home. I think they know that my situation here will definitely be heartbroken. I am not self-respecting! I haven't learned the technology since I came here for a long time. I want to give up and go home, but every time I hear the unwitting parents who are full of expectations, why do I have a heart? I don't want to; does the bitter sea go back to the shore? But now my ruined school can't make up, because I don't understand anything so far. I am disheartened. To this day, I have owed thousands of tuition fees to the school. And you don’t have to get a deduction from a group of foods every month. So I often go hungry. Sometimes I want to die because I can get rid of it. Get rid of everything, but imagine my parents, I can't get it. I am unable to save everything. I can only watch this life like a pool of stagnant water every day. This is my student life. I doubt that even if I know that I am wrong there, I can't save it? . I doubt if I am the most sorrowful student? . I wonder if there are many scums like me here? What should I do? Please tell me who can save me from the collapsed mind? When he spoke several times, he was incoherent. I can see that he has lost his way. He needs to have a strong man to guide. I have made an effort to make him escape the demons. In the face of him, I am even more sigh and helpless! If friends read this article, please respond to us to discuss the rescue of this "lost lamb". Life is off the sky! After all, saving lives is better than burning 9 tons.

Anyuan County, Jiangxi Province, Anyuan County, the third day of junior high school: the cover brother