I am indifferent

On the next rainy day, I will be transformed into a demon, with God's black eyeballs, blood sacrifices to you...

I remember when I was very young, look at me and look up at the sky. It is that I feel that you are very far away when you look at me. When you look at the clouds, they are very close. Before I met you, in my world, the sky was gray, the road was gray, and the building was gray. However, in this piece of ash, you are radiant and slowly coming, and hurried away. I have been chasing your steps since then, and you have slowly noticed the insignificant me. You start telling me stories, play with me, tell me your troubles. At this time, when you look at me, it is very close, and when you look at the clouds, it is very far away.

Such a clear sky has been covered with rain because of your frowns. This should be a sign of brokenness. I am silly to regard it as my dispelling hot nectar. Your footsteps are getting more and more messy and weak. It is more and more elusive. Quietly, I can't keep up with your pace, lose your world, and cast a dead gray... I am running wildly on the street, you are struggling in the white ward. I am here, you are gone, I am crazy, you are sleeping. You are tired, I am hurting. You are the angel of the devil, bringing me endless happiness and laughter, and ruthlessly giving me pain and sorrow. I cut off my tiny nerves again and again, feeling the pain of tearing my heart when I cut my nerves, and enjoying the peace of mind after cutting my nerves...

You said that the rainy day is the most beautiful, so I will hold your card in the next rainy day, turn into a demon, find the cold, ruthless, selfish, God who fools the feelings of mortal people, ask him why Take you away, why do you fall into the abyss of pain? Then I will use your hair card to dig out his black eyeball and put it at your grave. The blood sacrifices to you - my dear sister.

After doing all this, I will take off my devil's coat and go back to your side to guard you, just like when you were a child, you guarded me like you...

The third day of Qiyi Middle School, Zhongjiang County, Deyang, Sichuan, China: Hu Jinghui