The person I am missing, must change for him.

Dad, this year is already 50.
I can't see his smiling face anymore. I can't hear him yelling at me. I can't see how he beat me. I am sad. I feel bad. I am jealous that others can be happy now, but I am leaving now, I want to see him at a glance, it is difficult to take a look at his photo.
He has been away from me for three years. In the past three years, I want to spend the same time. Whenever I see my old photos of my father, I have already fallen into my heart. I can’t say a lot of pain. Maybe I can only bear it. Maybe I should grow up. I think about myself for my own future, and I think about his family’s departure. Not everyone wants to get the father. It seems that the age is already over 60 years old. I can’t be myself. Dad is doing anything. The person who makes me sad is him. What I miss is what he is now. Don’t think about the current society. Isn’t it what we want? The world today, or the darkness is more for future thoughts. Although he left, I still have to be strong and not so weak. I must do better than others. I am not optimistic. I must believe that I am ok because others say that I am not so easy to defeat. I am a small heart, a strong self.
No one can understand, so I have to understand the deep thoughts, the untouchable network silently miss him, in fact, he has never left. I have to be energetic and motivated in my heart forever. I can do it.

Third day: Lai Yanzhen