I am poor.

I am a poor student, a very poor student, but it is optional. Poor students are the most annoying thing for teachers. The homework is full of red and wrong numbers. When the exam is smashed, I don’t want others to think that I am nothing, so I try to change myself. So, I kept quietly paying attention to everything, and sometimes I went to help my classmates clean, sometimes I was pleased to help the teacher wipe the blackboard, sometimes I accidentally dropped a book on the ground. Disturbing others is uneasy. I thought that the classmates would realize that I was good, and the teacher would not hate me any more. But I was wrong. I gradually felt that I was forgotten by others. It was like air. Others could not see it. Only I could feel it. When I realized this, I started to get worse. I hope to attract the attention of others, so I began to disturb the classroom discipline: I am a girl, I am a mischief, I am a curse, but at this time, no one cares about me, just looking at me with the kind of eyes I can’t stand, is Poor? No, who wants their pity. I tried to let others remember me. Finally, one day, someone said to me: "You are really hateful, I will always hate you." After listening to this sentence, I burst into laughter, I know that I am "successful", though I hate me. I turned and a crystal clear liquid slipped from my cheek. Is it tears? No, I am a poor student, and I have no tears. I continue to do bad things. My goal is to make everyone forget me. Whenever I succeed, I am proud of myself and cheer for myself. However, when I was about to succeed, I suddenly felt that there was a sense of loss in my heart, and the crystal clear liquid continued to flow, which was a feeling of embarrassment. In fact, I am not bad. I just don't want others to forget me. I don't want to be alone. I want to have friendship. I like the teacher's praise. I only choose this way to win the "value", because no one has ever understood me and helped me. All I have is to enjoy the indifference. All of this is because I am poor. I am a poor student, I am only eager to understand.