Jealous, hello!

I was born in a scholarly family, but the longer I grow up, the more I am no longer satisfied with my current life and now.

I worked hard to find out that I didn't like the teacher to like it; I can only say that it is moderate, and I don't have more than one. Later, I tried to make everyone like myself. I found out in the constant chase that I lost my true self.

I am in a school with a tuition fee of 70,000, but I will not be satisfied again. Girls have a heart of beauty, but I am not as good as I am. Every day, I can only watch my companions beautiful and unreal photos. I never believed that there would be such a beautiful girl on the computer in the world, but one classmate overthrew my thoughts. She doesn't like me wearing only dark blue school uniforms. She doesn't like me to just sing in a corner of the classroom to listen to songs. All of this makes me more and more inferior.

Later, her beauty became apparent, and too much of everything made me somewhat depressed. However, I also know clearly that no one will listen to me quietly, because from the beginning to the end, I only have me.

Later, the girl who was simply stupid was lost by me, and I couldn’t find it anymore.

I don't know how to go forward, everything has to be explored by myself, and I have to solve it myself.

Gradually, I can't tell, I am envious, or - jealous!

I was tortured by my own minds, and I felt like a puppet without a soul.

I am jealous that the teacher is better for her, her beauty is making me crazy, I am jealous of everything she has.

My heart is no longer balanced, and I stubbornly think that she is a natural darling.

Dad seems to have found something. One morning he pulled me and said that he was traveling to Shanghai. I know that he is going to take me to Shanghai to see a psychiatrist, which I heard occasionally from my mother's mouth.

I didn't show much resentment. I was a little nervous when I sat in front of a psychiatrist.

The doctor has been talking for a long time, I only remember the following words: "I don't know if you noticed it. From the time you entered the door, you kept your head down. You didn't look up and see what I looked like. From this reaction, you have deep heart. It is, inferiority."

When the doctor saw me, I continued to say: "Actually, in combination with your previous performance, you have fears, embarrassment, inferiority, etc. in your heart. It is better to go back to learn the same thing, learn, and come to me."

When he left, the doctor handed his father an envelope. On the plane, Dad handed the envelope to me. I opened the envelope and there was only one sentence in the letter: "Learn to cheer for others."

Perhaps this is the key.

When I started my study career, my status seemed to be much better. I am no longer in the corner after class, I started to play and play with everyone.

After a long time, after the sunset, my heart disappeared completely.

I began to respond to life with a confident smile until one day.

"Do you know? Actually... you make me jealous." The words at the same table made me react a little. I laughed for a long time, and slowly said at the same table, like telling an old story: "Dad is a professor, mother is a teacher, you have a room, you have a car, you don't have to spend money, actually. You are very happy. At least, I think so." The words at the same table made me shock for a little while.

In fact, when I am jealous or envious of others, others are envious of me. This is what I have never seen before.

When I put down my jealousy, I found the girl that I lost. She was still so naive and simple.

I engraved a small four words on the table - jealous, hello!

Third day: Axia