I am tired, can I learn bad?

I want to be a bad boy, so I don't have to wear a smile every day, obviously not happy, but also smile. When do you feel that you are quiet and don't like to talk. In the face of some things, it is a helpless face. When do you feel that you are so useless, you have to do what you don't want to do, but you can't do anything about it. When I felt that I was so useless, I wanted to change everything around me but I had to bow to the cruel reality of society. Have to bow to others. When I feel that I have become irrelevant to everything around me, I am unable to care. When I feel that I am so hard to live, then fall. Other people's eyes. Whether it is good or bad, I can’t tell. The sunshine of youth is no longer bright, only because of its inability to change. I wanted to change my life, and I thought about it. . . But it was ruined by all the cruel reality around him. The wounds in your heart can never be understood by others. Even if you have a strong face and a smile, you don’t care. But at night, I have lost a lot of tears. When our dreams become no longer like us, we do what our hearts and minds dislike with the expectations of family and friends. I thought we were rebellious, but we thought about the family around us again and again. Do you feel that it is bad for them? ? I want to be a bad boy. I copied it yesterday and I don’t want to force myself. I want to be a bad boy. Is it easy to talk about it? How much courage? It can be realistic to show how incompetent I am. I thought I was still a good one, but the unprepared injury has been raided again and again, letting you suffocate once and for all. I thought that I could live as happy as others, and I wanted to make myself happy, but it was counterproductive. Let you be disappointed once and for all, maybe this is the fate of teasing. Don't think that I am strong and very happy. Now indifference is just armed and not hurt. I don't like the fragility that others see me, and I don't like others to think that I am very unhappy. Like text, what is the sky of a bad boy? Fallen? confused? decadent? Or is it beautiful that outsiders can't appreciate? I am yearning... I am afraid that I will become a bad boy! I am afraid that you who love me the most will no longer love me. If you don't want me, you will leave me. I am afraid of your departure, so I have not gone bad, but I try my best to make myself what you expect. In fact, everyone does not want to learn bad, but the reality is too cruel to them. Bad boy? Become a family, a friend who does not like it? Do you still love that bad boy? But I can say that all this is directly or indirectly caused by you, and you are personally pulling a good child into the wrong edge. Why don’t you want to be a good boy that everyone loves, just do it yourself? The longer you grow up, the more you grow up, the more you grow up, the more you feel uneasy, the more you have to look at the wings of your dreams, you have to take back the words you once asked yourself, is your youth like this? Is this your life? Do you accept your life like this? In fact, our essence is not bad, but the pressure is too big to bear, but we can't bear some bad things around us. Some unsatisfactory things will want to be bad, become rebellious, and make yourself farther and farther away from others' expectations, thinking that you can escape the pressure you have given us. Now your expectations for us are greater and the disappointment is even greater. If I say that I am tired for the next second, please let me go and this second makes me live for my pride! Be a good boy, we are really working hard!

First day: winter temperature