Complexity and contradiction

At school, I have a best friend. She has big eyes with water and a short hair with a black hair, a cute baby face, and it is so sweet and cute. As if you saw her smile when you are sad, your mood will become more cheerful. She is like my pistachio. Whenever I am happy, I will be with me when I am sad. When frustration, ask her to help; share something with her when she is happy; when she is bullied, ask her to cry... She is so important in my heart, I feel that I can't leave her all the time. However, I and she did not know why it is getting more and more alienated now, and she feels that she is far away from me in front of me. So I had a big fight with her in the fifth grade. I haven't reconciled yet. I really don't know what language to use to describe my relationship with her now! We are now seeing each other and flashing. I have to think about it for a long time. I really want to reconcile with her, but I don’t know if she wants to reconcile with me. I know maybe I am not myself. Ok, make her angry, let her hate me.

I really want to let us return to the good times of the 5th grade. But it seems that I apologize to her and she will not accept it. The words of apologizing with her seem to be like a heavy stone in my heart, and I can’t say it.

Today, I am urging all my courage, and I no longer think about your answer. In short, I am very sincere to say to you: Sorry, please forgive my impulse at that time, forgive my ignorance at that time, forgive my selfishness at that time, give me another chance! I will treat you sincerely this time.

I know that I used to be very selfish and never worried about your feelings, but I have completely changed it now!

I am brave enough to apologize to you this time, I hope you don't reject me, don't let my heart cast a shadow. People always have time to do wrong things, but it is worthy of forgiveness if you make mistakes!

Baizhang Center National Small 601 Hong Sai