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The sky is already cool, I am alone in the sea, the raging wind is coming, and the whole person is messed up. I am used to turning around and waiting for your ridicule. However, this habit has expired, so the wind with your departure penetrates my entire body.

I know that the beginning of silence stems from my abandonment.

I remember that it was very dark that day. It seemed to be the eve of the storm. I looked up at the sky and thought about the feelings between us. I suddenly returned to the girl who was inferior in the first day. I felt that we were in the middle of the world and felt that we were four. I was ignored. So, I arbitrarily sent a message to give up, you hurriedly glared at my unfamiliar child, I laughed, enjoyed the care you gave me, smiled so embarrassed. Then call her and tell her, I will give up on you. She laughed and said she didn't give up. I laughed, this is the answer I want most. Finally, she called to say that she should not give up all her life, I am full of joy. I only use this game as a game, playing a game of friendship. I thought this is the end of the game, but I don’t know if it is an unsightly ambush.

It didn't rain that day, but it was darker the next day, it was so suffocating, I was afraid, inexplicably afraid, maybe it was the guilt of playing with friends. So I quickly walked to the classroom and saw you. You didn't talk to anyone as usual, but you ran on the table and tried hard to write. Every word was so hard, I wanted to know what you were writing, but I want Concealing, because I never stopped the game halfway, so I pretended to walk to the seat melancholy. She was only separated from me by a table. She gave me a faint look, and the corner of her mouth outlined a small, imperceptible arc. With tolerance for my childish behavior, I have always been able to get such tolerance in the past, so this time the same is true, but I don't know how to cherish it. She can see her back, she laughs loudly, forever 45° mouth, no one can bear to destroy the beautiful scenery of this world, maybe, except me. She, really simple, simple and still trying to maintain my relationship with her.

I went to noon, I went to another group of people, you have been apologizing, I don’t know why you apologize, but I think it helps the game, so I think I’m so angry, you rush to take A stack of paper, I have seen this paper! Isn't that the paper I saw this morning? I am happy, but I am still free to throw it to the people next to me, because I want to get more greedily. The paper is full of your sorry, full of your true heart to your friends. So, you are so angry, tearing up all the feelings one by one, saying that you should stop worrying about me for a lifetime. From that moment on, I realized the seriousness of the matter. I want to save it, but I can’t find an excuse, so it It began to get out of hand.

You will stop paying attention to me from the afternoon, and they will begin to silence me exclusively. The four of us began to be filled with strange atmosphere, but we did not say anything but smashed all the connections between us. This continues until school. So I walked alone on the road that once had you.

I naively thought that like the past, I could solve it with three phones. Unfortunately, I was too wrong. The first one is for you. You still use the same tone of tempering as before. It’s just a little less familiar. Ask them with an understatement. I am more and more afraid. I took the call with her luck, but unfortunately, Instantly being frozen by her words, all my luck - I feel that the feeling between us has changed, and I feel that you are too good, why not accept her apology, since you want to let go, I don't care. After listening to it, I really want to hit my body and bruises, and my heart is like falling into the bottomless pit, and I have been falling down. Calling her like a white paper, she smiled, still so distressed me, still take care of me, saying that she will try to maintain, will not break.

Hang up the phone, I desperately ask myself, what exactly do you think of this relationship! Just give up this relationship three times because of the disparity in performance? Just give up because of occasional mistakes? Is it because you are afraid of losing, do you have a lot of things to come out and let go of the hands that have been tightly held by each other?

I can't give an answer...

In fact, I know that I rely on their tolerance for me. I think I don’t think they will give up. Unfortunately, it’s a self-righteous thing that makes me lose my feelings that I don’t want to lose all my life. . In fact, I am not qualified to say this. After all, I personally buried the relationship between us.

At the end of the day, I finally realized that friendship is a flower that I am not allowed to play with. Once I die, I will never turn back to life. It is a pity that when it comes to understanding, there is no room for improvement.