Lonely days are often the days when you grow up quickly.

On the first day after I went to work after a holiday, I chatted with the tits. She said that I was very unhappy and felt uneasy and lonely as never before. I don't particularly like this state.

I asked, what's wrong with you, got the holiday syndrome?

No, Lao Deng will go to sea tomorrow, this time is the Pacific route, about ten months. She is unhappy.

The tits are my girlfriend, and we can share all kinds of little secrets. She is an optimistic, independent, courageous girl. Old Deng is her boyfriend, and in theory should be a fiancé. Lao Deng is a seaman, 365 days a year, almost 200 days in the sea.

Last summer, Lao Deng took a long vacation and said that he would like to take a break and stay with the birds. The birds are happy for many days. When the weather is fine, go to the lake to sunbathe, fish, and then drink a large glass of wild chrysanthemums; watch the movie hand in hand, go to the flower market to buy a pot of green radish, spider plant, placed in the balcony of the warm winter and cool summer Go to the supermarket to buy the ingredients, do the leek egg stuffing cake and the hazelnut egg tart that Lao Deng likes to eat...

When Lao Deng was there, the birds usually didn't come out to accompany me to tea and chat. She accompanied him wholeheartedly. She is used to his existence, but he is leaving again. People are social animals, and they are afraid of sudden loneliness. The bird said that after Lao Deng left, she would have a kitten or a puppy to accompany herself.

At the end, the birds said that the talents left behind are actually the most lonely, and they still have to stand quietly waiting. Then, I gave a smile to me hard, and the smile was like the slumbering sun hiding in the mist of the winter. Suddenly, I was very distressed. This girl with a thin figure is so courageous that she can face the long-term separation again and again, and it is an exotic love that is not guaranteed for three days. Also stay in an elegant and uplifting posture while waiting.

At one noon on the weekend, I had a dream. My mother dreamed of cooking in the kitchen. My sister chatted with her father about the results of her final exam in the courtyard. She only heard the sound of knocking on the door. My mother called me, Moh, Comrade Xiao Wang. Come on, get up and get up. I am looking for a thick sweet smell. I wonder if I should wear a long black dress or a beige cotton shirt and jeans? Then I woke up. The sun shines through the glass window on the sheets of white flowers and hits the red sweater scattered on the bedside. I have been lying there for a long time before I suddenly realized that, oh, there are people in the house. In this house, there is only myself in this city. Maybe this is loneliness, and suddenly I woke up in the afternoon and found that there were no more people talking around.

Honestly, what I hate most every year is the day when the Spring Festival holiday has just come to work. Because I am a person who has been alone for a long time, except for working hours, almost everyone. But when I am alone, I will try my best to adjust my status. I can watch movies, read books, write, exercise, draw.... Find all kinds of things to do. Therefore, loneliness does not often come to my house. But the Spring Festival holiday broke the rhythm of my life. I am with my family and friends every day, and I am so busy. I don’t feel lonely. When I got to work, I began to feel very lost and my heart was empty.

The powerful courage that has accumulated for a long time, like a balloon, explodes after a rush of beautiful time. Lonely and silently drowned me, then I needed to breathe in and regain my strength to fill another balloon. People like me who are introverted, slow-heated, and accustomed to expressing their inner feelings in words often need to hide in their own safe space for a few days before they can organize their moods and start again.

Yesterday on QQ, the finch told me that she had found a part-time job. She had a friend who went to 翡 翠 ,, half-work and half-read, did not have time to look after the online store, so she took over to help manage the online store. It is a website for fabric curtains. The bird said that there are installation masters and customer service in the store, she is responsible for the replacement, color matching and design layout of the usual main page. I said that your camera technology is very good, but can you design web pages? She said, it doesn't matter, I can still do it in Photoshop. I have always been interested in design-related elements, so I have decided to follow Dreamweave and Flash with the film. I want to make my life more fun and colorful.

The last time Deng went out to sea, the bird followed David to study photography. She was smart and eager to learn, and she was very careful. She often captured some touching shots and later participated in the company's photography exhibition. At that time, her entry was "Stay", which was taken by her to the seaside. The endless sea and the light blue sky are connected one after another. The waves happily pat the vicissitudes of the reef, a red and blue striped boat is tied to the shore, the boat quietly looks at the raging sea, tireless, the paint on the ship Peeling off and mottled. The photo won the second prize. From this photo, I read the loneliness of the boat and the thoughts of the bird.

After the last time Deng went out to sea, the birds reported to the dance class and followed the teacher to learn the exact dance and the Latin dance. After half a year, I lost five kilograms. Looking at her slender waist, I was once again gnashing my teeth and determined to lose weight. During the period, she also reported an adult elective course in advertising design, familiar with the PS and AI. And from a media company clerk successfully quit to a listed real estate company as a planner, mainly responsible for advertising promotion work, the annual salary has more than doubled.

The tits have said that people like me who are not enterprising are always in my most lonely time when I am determined to change myself. I hate this lonely state. Loneliness is accompanied by uneasiness and hurts my heart, so I am eager to change this state through my own strength. Every time Lao Deng went out to sea, no one was accompanying me, I quickly found something to do, not too deserted. I want to fill my life so full, so that every day is colorful.

I am a late-stage patient with lazy cancer. When Mr. Wang is with me, I only need to go to work every day, and I don’t have to worry about everything else. I don't learn to cook, anybody does it anyway; I don't learn to drive, anyway, someone sends it; I don't organize the room, anyway, someone sorts it out; I don't carry heavy things, anyway, someone moves; I don't pay property fees, water fees, electricity bills, Anyway, someone pays; I don't pick up the courier, anyway, someone takes it...

However, Mr. Wang works in another city, and at least two hundred days a year belongs to me alone. Well, always have to live by yourself. Therefore, whenever you are not willing to eat some dinner outside after work, then do it yourself, you know your stomach best. After eating, and no one chats with me, I will find some books I like. People are ugly to read more, people are stupid to read more, and people are lazy to read more. Well, I am ugly, stupid and lazy, and there is no reason not to read more.

I still have an interest in writing. Since I wrote the text online in May last year, I have received some positive comments and likes, I am very happy. I found writing to be a happy thing, and then found that loneliness has gradually gone away, and being alone can be a happy thing.

This year is the third year that Mr. Wang went to work in another city. Gradually, I found that I learned how to cook, grow my own plants, drive to a strange place to take a vacation, learn to manage time, and gradually treat my lazy cancer. Think about it this way, I also have the harvest and growth.

Some people say that companionship is the best gift, but those of us who have no gifts must learn to give gifts to themselves. I am grateful for every lonely time, thank you for being embarrassed in these times.

Loneliness is to give us time to think about ourselves. In a person's day, there is only one thing we have to do to make ourselves better.