After 80, how long can we mix?

After 80, how long can we mix?

Mixed, can also be described as a kind of life, but the real life is not mixed for a lifetime. Now I’m starting to mix my days. When I’m old, there’s no day to mix, no life to enjoy, and I regret it, regretting my life.
More and more used to ease, more and more afraid of risk, more and more evade responsibility, more and more dilute the ideal, start the so-called calm life, calm mind, but the fact is just self-deception. When a monk hits a day, day after day, year after year, it seems that there is no desire and no desire, but in fact it is heart-wrenching; it seems to be in peace with the situation, but in fact it is lost; it seems calm and elegant, but it is in crisis. Since ancient times, there have been clouds and peace of mind, but now I have gradually forgotten my dreams and gradually integrated into the ease. I have turned a blind eye to the hidden crisis in ease, until the crisis is overwhelming, and I am deeply regretted, but regret it. I often reflect on myself now, occasionally thinking about myself in the future, and savoring and discovering that it is just an empty dream. I can’t hope for it. I can’t wait for it. If I continue to move forward in the current state, no matter what time. It is possible to achieve the goal that I expected, look at the present, think about the future, the uncontrollable fluster, the irritability of irritability, the contradiction between ideal and reality, the entanglement in sensibility and rationality, the helplessness in selflessness and self. I want to change my self-improvement, but I have no way to start; I want to change my former, but I am powerless.

Now I am like a frog in warm water. I am waiting for the moment of death. I live the same day every day. Although there are small waves, it is difficult to cause enough fighting spirit. Every day, I will do nothing, although I am busy, but just idle. Busy and less; looking forward to work after work, looking forward to his own little world after work, throwing away troubles, indulgence of thoughts, the happiest moment of the day may only sleep, forget the reality, detach from the self, occasionally a dream, will The soul is soaring in the abyss of dreams. And I am very clear that this is just escaping, escaping from reality, avoiding responsibility, and for a long time, it must be inaction, mediocrity, want to end, but it is unreasonable, knowing is wrong, but not repenting, knowing failure, However, he is bent on his own heart, but he is painful and helpless, but he does not know how to save himself.
In reality, there may be many people like me. Chaos has lived through the days, has passed and blindly followed the target, but can't see the road ahead, mixed with the days, but has a daydream, and a generous promise. I am living with my own life, expressing my passionate determination, continuing the day of my only respect, not thinking about repentance, not seeking progress, and occasionally meditating, only to know that I have moved away from the goal, and that I have already walked into the night. Mistaken. It is clear that it is not too late, but it is always too much. When is the day of chaos, when is it? When is the mediocrity, when will it end?
There is a saying in the old saying: people have their own knowledge. And the fact that we often know ourselves and not make it, what is the use? Ordinary people are all over the land, but the real talents are few and far between, and there are only a few people in the body. The only thing that is lacking is thinking. Because people have the ability to think independently, they are advanced. So mysterious, that is, the division of human beings because of thinking. Everyone has more or less pressure, and several people can turn stress into a sense of urgency, which creates motivation and stimulates the instinct to survive. Everyone has a unique environment around them, and several people can Seek breakthroughs in the environment and get out of your own path. People have self-knowledge, and talents have the ability to make self-control. No one wants to live forever, no one wants to be chaotic, wants to save themselves only by introspection, introspection is self-aware, self-knowledge will have self-control, can not Winning the heart, An Neng wins the sky?