My dear thirteen years old

My dear thirteen years old

I am thirteen years old, are you leaving? Why are you not going back when you go? My thirteen years old, the precious cardamom in my life, can you stay a little longer? My thirteen years old, your deeds are like a story book. I haven’t been able to savor it yet? Forget it, let's go. Thank you, my thirteen years old. It is you who let me see how fascinating the world is. It is you who let me learn to let go, learn to be quiet, and learn to relieve. It is you who let me know that 'coming to be happy, losing indifference', let me learn how to insist on what I have identified - not to control what others say, people are alive, not to please others. I am thirteen years old. Do you remember which part of Mywish "Window" I like most? You said, I am most like the little poem "When I am quiet" - sad like a kitten, light-handed. Guess, "If you are well, it’s sunny." What page is my most awkward? I know, you know. I am thirteen years old. When you leave, will you miss me from time to time? I will miss you again? I am thirteen years old. Do you like me when I say fourteen? And will I want to like you like her? My thirteen years old, if you give our memories to fourteen, then you will remember me? Will you go to be someone else's thirteen years old? I admit that I am selfish, my thirteen years old, don't leave, I change my mind, don't leave, okay? I am thirteen years old, you are gone, what if I don’t like me when I am fourteen? Bullying me, what should I do? I know, you won't let her bully me, so, wait for me to go with the 14-year-old and get along, will you? By the way, do you remember January 4, 2019? I bowed my head, folded my hands together, and made three wishes to the sky silently. You haven't done it for me yet, you have to go "Do you want to be an honest and trustworthy person" This is what you said to me, do you want to be a liar that I hate? I know, you won't, but you will. Unfortunately, I am not Aladdin's lamp, there is no magic, and there is no such luck as Aladdin, encountering a magic lamp with magic. You, my thirteen years old, you can rest assured, I will be fine, and I will cherish the bits and pieces that accompany you. I want to be a better, stronger and happier person than now. What I miss - my thirteen years old. Everything is about to pass.

Third day: Zhang Yaodan