Fall in love with loneliness

When I liked the hot market, I changed to a quiet and sweet country; from a warm day to a lonely night; by counting stars together and changing to watching the moonlight alone, loneliness has been inseparable from me.

Remember the hour: Mom, why do you hate being alone at home?

Because that would be very lonely.

What does loneliness mean?

Mom hopes that you will never understand.

Since then, the word loneliness has been ingrained in my memory, and it is closely tied to the terrible adjectives.

What I don't understand is: After many years, let me understand the word, let me deeply like this feeling, it is also a mother.

Mom, you don't go out to play cards, ok? You said that a person will be very lonely at home.

Don't worry, mom will only come back for a while, okay?

Hey! With this noise, the door ruthlessly shut me alone in the house, only to hear you. Boom. Boom. The rushing downstairs disappeared into the depths of the darkness. I suddenly didn't know what to do, just kept walking around the house.

Nine o'clock: Why haven't you come back yet?

Ten o'clock: I should all sleep.

Eleven: It’s so sleepy.

Later, somehow, I entered a dreamland. In my sleep, I understood what it means to be lonely.

I hated this feeling at that time until one day.

Mom, don’t you go out to play cards today?

Yes, I am with you at home. Look at your father, will he be with you at home? It’s your mother, I am accompanying you at home every time.

The endless cockroaches plunged into my ears and rushed to my brain. I realized that it is still lonely. It turns out that loneliness is not a pain, but a kind of happiness.

Now, our word has almost disappeared in my dictionary, and everything is left with me.

So, I am sure that I am in love with loneliness.