Grandma, I miss you.

It’s strange, I’m always unpredictable: Why do I always cherish it when I lose it? Am I really a fool? Still a child who will never grow up?

Grandma, are you okay? Are you okay in the distance? I miss you, I gave you a greeting card on your birthday, have you received it? That, but I did it for you personally, then look at it when you think about me? I can't go see you, but I really miss you, really, Grandma, you lied to me, you said that I will come back after you have finished the exam, but you are still not coming back, no you, mom and dad noisy me too. No one helped me to talk, no one stopped me, I want to know, Grandma, when you are back, they beat me, you said them, but now...

Grandma, do you still miss me? Whenever I see someone else's grandmother picking up the child, I feel so uncomfortable. Then I will think: Grandma, why don't you ignore me? You can't come back, I don't blame you, really, but you ignore me, I am so angry, Grandma, do you know? How many times have I cried for you? Every time I didn't let Mom and Dad see it, I was afraid that they would be sad. Grandma, Mom and Dad, although they looked strong, were a weak person in their hearts...

Grandma, I heard a song, it seems to describe my mood, you listen:

How beautiful the stars in the sky are,

But without you everything is not angry.

Every lonely night,

Do you know that I miss you silently?

I don't want to see you only in my dreams.

Because I love you, I won’t cry again.

I don't want to miss you only at night,

Have your love, believe me to create a miracle.

Heaven and earth have dissolved in my heart!

Grandma, I am not as strong as the song. When I am alone, I will still cry, but I miss you so silently in the song. Without your days, I am really lonely, although I am good in front of others. I want to be very strong, but who knows, that is pretending, I am not afraid of anything, but I am afraid, I am afraid that you will ignore me, probably because the most fearful has been achieved, what? I am not afraid, but I have no way to forget this pain. No day, one moment, one minute, one second, I forgot it. It has carved a mark on my heart, forever...