How I hope to be understood

The school in the middle school is almost over, the students are starting to sprint, work overtime, and the parents are busy, giving gifts, in order to let their children get to the high school! My parents are just like them, they are going around, and they are giving gifts, so that I can get into the school they like, and I think I like the school, but I don't want to go to the school they chose for me. The nurse is not my feeling. Interested career! But my father’s rushing away, my mother’s intention to enlighten me, I really can’t refuse them. I really can’t bear to say “no” to them. There are too many helplessness in the world, and there are too many decisions that I can't choose. When I face these 'helpless', the only thing I can do to face these 'decisions' is to escape, not my weakness, not even I don't have a opinion, because I know that even if I am persistent, how can I be embarrassed, and how to protect my dreams, I am doomed to be the ultimate loser. I am silent against them, no language, no action, maybe this bet has not started, I am doomed to fail; maybe I should not do anything to struggle, should accept the arrangements they gave me silently, after all, they are I love my most... I really hope that Mom and Dad can understand me and respect my decision. Even if the road I choose is hard and hard, I will be happy to the end...

Third day: Tong Defang