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A year ago, I always like to turn on the lights when I sleep. Because when I turn off the lights, I feel very lonely. Just like the whole world is dark, I am left alone.

After a year, I have to turn off the lights when I sleep. Because of the glimpse of turning off the lights, there was a lot of silence in my mind. The troubles on weekdays are gone. Turning on the lights, lying in front of the bed will always show some good things that happen in peacetime. Often insomnia until midnight.

A year ago, I was so happy.

After a year, I am always careful in my life. I am afraid that if I don’t like it, I will be irritated by my classmates and friends. There are always many things in my heart. Lying in bed every night, I always feel tired. There have been extreme thoughts and they were finally rejected.

My parents never listened to me and said that every time I want to say something, whether I am right or wrong, whether it is caused by me or not, there is always a word, how many small children come. Or is it a meal? Never thought about what I thought in my heart. Slowly, I no longer tell them, no matter how much grievances, always one person. They won't understand what happened to me during these times, and I didn't find out what changed me because of what. I always think that I know very well, but I don’t know my heart at all.

It seems to return to the past, purely innocent and happy life.

Third day: Qingzi