I am twenty years later

The gentle sun rises slowly to the Shanghai plane, and the blushing clouds are drifting aimlessly. Is the wine last night still not awake? The whispering sea breeze also faintly exudes a burst of wine. I put on my coat and drilled out of the cabin. Several petrels hovered over my head. Sometimes, I often wonder why seagulls are so attached to the sea. I believe that Haiyan is the soul of the sailor. The sea is all his dreams, all love. In the near future, I will be one of them? I am looking forward to the moment. When I close my eyes forever, I can fly and fly.

A few steps along the beach, my boat is placed in a small bay. Although he needs more than a dozen people to drive, I prefer to take him to the sea.

"Hey, old man, didn't sleep well last night?" I crouched down, immersed my face in the sea, only heard the snoring of the ship's board, the rolling waves and the long-winged Haiyan, and the long boat came from afar. Flute.

Looking in the direction of the flute, the town shrouded in the morning mist just opened his eyes. Stepping into the town, everything is so beautiful, a maple leaf licks from my cheeks, bringing a scent of fragrance. I often sit on a stone bench under the maple tree until the maple leaves completely cover me. This weather-beaten tree often causes My thoughts, especially when the sea breeze blows, the maple leaves creak, every time we go out to sea, we will gather under this tree, of course, today is a rest day. My crew often tell me about the trivialities in their lives, and I always listen very seriously. I always laugh, sometimes for understanding, sometimes for sympathy, and more. Because I enjoy everything from the perspective of a bystander. I will stay under this tree every rest day. The couple in the town will almost walk through here. Whenever I see them look at each other and hear their true vows, I once again inexplicably smile, except for envy. There is a sense of vicissitudes. I caressed the rough trunk—for me, this is one of my closest dreams.

In the distant student era, I had a period of love, and I am convinced of this relationship. My happy time lasted until ten years ago, just under this maple tree, we met the last side. I have lost her forever. The reason is simple: my dream is at sea, I will become a seaman to ride the wind and waves. Love is so beautiful, but in the face of her dreams, she has become an obstacle. I have been out of danger all the year round. If I really love her, I must let go. I am not the happiness she is looking for. Looking at the back of my heart, the soul is falling away, and I am full of tears, but I laugh with a bohemian smile. - I am a step further from my dreams. Let the pain of loss flow into my heart like a rapids! If this rapids can break through all the shackles.

I began to recall the experience of that time, just on the beach in front of my cabin, I cut off the last glimpse of the past. There, I lost a friendship I valued the most. In the distant student era, I have a friend who I really regard as a confidant. His name is Chen Da. We have been speculative. We used to be accordionists in the band. It didn't take long before we learned the Western sword. I was able to end this friendship smoothly. It was totally out of my expectation. Since I became a sailor, I started to end all my connections with other things around me. I have to be careless and focusless. My dream, but this is my most valued friendship, but I can't keep my heart down.

Until one day, Chen Da came to my cabin with a sword. He seemed to have seen through my mind—I didn't want to be disturbed by anyone. I was only interested in sailing, not swordsmanship.

Although his arrival made me somewhat surprised, I still broke the silence first: "Do you still remember the mouth of swordsmanship?--"Free and move, solve with the blade" Now my will has merged with the sea, I hope you I understand that this is what you taught me."

Chen Da pulled out the sword: "Because I understand that I don't want you to be controlled by the fanaticism of dreams! Wake up! See your dreams, you will lose everything! Just use a sword to force you, I also I want to take you back!"

"Thank you very much for coming to see me. You know me. You should understand how important your dreams are to me. Yes, I have lost everything. I will not look back. Let us use the sword to decide everything." I roared and disguised. With your own pain, disappear from me!

As a result, the two swords came and went together, and the storm came quietly, hitting the swords and screaming, let the scene end as soon as possible! I can't stand it anymore! Looking at the Jianfeng who was stabbing in the face, I greeted my chest. Blood ran along the beach and was constantly splashed by the storm. I calmly pulled out the sword that pierced my chest: "You lost, please leave, leave my life and let me be with my dream!"

The heavy rain gradually blurred my sight. I leaned back on the beach and meditated to let the two swords take my memory together! ———Now should I get what I want? My tears have dried up. From then on, I no longer have it, and I don’t dare to own it again. I don’t need to interpret anything with tears. Shouldn’t I laugh? Shouldn't I enjoy the process of chasing my dreams?

From now on, I am just a dream catcher and a bystander, let me enjoy everything that my choice brings to me! Let me enjoy my loneliness!

Unconsciously it was dusk, I came to the cabin, holding the accordion and pulling a tune that was low back. Actually, I have not let go, otherwise how can I go under the maple tree? I realized that I just cut off all the connections with the past, and I still exist. It was late at night, I stared at the distant lighthouse for a long time, and laughed again. The sound of the piano still echoed in the deep sea, and the ship gradually drifted away from the view of the lighthouse, becoming a virtual point at the intersection of the sea and the sky. I am sleeping with my accordion, just like holding my past, a tear that has been difficult to dry for a long time.

It seems that I can only surpass everything when I am Haiyan. Before that, I don’t know how many days and nights I have to spend this way...

The third day: Yihe