You Saisi

On the day when An Xiaoqing was admitted to C, the city had the first rain in a few months. After a long time, she realized that maybe everything was already doomed when she first met. So even if she has exhausted all the energy she can use in her youth, she still can't catch Su Yun.

Written before the story

[The year of the cardamom, who promises who is old]

The first time she saw Su Yunmo was the time of the country. Cardamom years. At that time, An Xiaoqing was not good at all, and could even be described as an ugly duckling. There are hardly any good things on a young face except that the eyes can be considered beautiful. The boys of that era were all fun to tease girls. Every time there is a class outside the classroom, there will always be a lot of boys laughing. She could hear the words mixed in the laughter, but it was ugly and acne-faced.

Ann Xiaoqing ignored it. Every girl in her heart will silently like a prince in her heart. Maybe not necessarily talking to the prince, but the one in my heart really does exist. The prince of An Xiaoqing, called Su Yun Mo. It is a boy of class A. Excellent grades, not happy to talk. This is the view of the average girl, but Ann Xiaoqing knows. Know her prince, like white, like architecture. She had seen him painting a variety of houses on paper. Although she didn't know what style they were, she saw the words he wrote below. The writing is clear and beautiful. Gothic. Going home to search online, it turned out to be European architecture. Her prince is different from those who hate. He always stood quietly in the corridor, with a faint expression. Like to wear a white shirt. Even if she sees her strange, she will show a little smile, although it is still faint.

At that time, she was silently in love with Su Yun. She didn't dare to say anything to him directly. She could only treat him as a prince. Every day, he wrote his name in a diary, or occasionally saw his smiling expression, and he could make Xiao Xiao sneer. All day long. Only then, she did not understand. The prince in the fairy tale will kiss the princess and live a happy life. This is just a fairy tale. The reality is that the prince and the princess grow up slowly, meet more people, and finally drift away. Moreover, between her and Su Yunmo, the prince, Cinderella. The most impossible story in reality. She didn't know that the calmer the calmer smile, the more deadly water.

In An Xiaoqing's Cardamom Year, the only thing worth mentioning is actually Su Yun.

[Who is lonely, covering my heart]

From the middle of the country to the high school, An Xiaoqing began to slowly and dazzlingly change. The face of the white cockroach, the acne has completely disappeared. The pointed face of the melon seeds, with the big eyes of the flashing eyes, when passing through the door of the classroom, will let those 16-year-old teenagers see their eyes.

An Xiaoqing is aware of his own transformation. The girl's heart is always sensitive. Many boys confessed to her, she always said softly, sorry, then turned and left. Others don't know, her heart is still hiding a dream of a young age. That dream is about architecture. About the like, about the prince, about the most beautiful things in the young, Su Yun.

In such a long and slow growth, she has slowly grown into a girl who can stand by him. It’s just waiting, it’s lonely. The more lonely, the more stubborn in my heart. An Xiaoqing prince, Su Yunmo, still the same white shirt, a faint smile. It’s just that the boy who has already had a jade tree in the wind is no longer a gentleman in his childhood. When is the depth of the pupil, it is the deeper and deeper eyebrows.

An Xiaoqing only had his own one-man show in this year, and finally waited until today. At this moment, she stood at the door of C, and could not see other scenery in her eyes, but she continued to have crystal tears falling down. She does not remember how those years of loneliness have been rejoicing in the unreachable Su Yun Mo. She doesn't remember how to make herself forget the embarrassing ridicules just to work hard to compare with him. She couldn't remember how humble she was standing in the corner waiting for his smile. She couldn't remember the anecdote that she fell down in the middle of the night in order to know which university he was taking. She doesn't remember a lot, she only knows that he came to C. At the moment, she stood at the door of C, holding a notice from C.

[Wan Shui Qianshan, rushing to my love]

The C campus is beautiful.

When An Xiaoqing found Su Yunmo, he slept on the lawn. The good-looking face of the boy falls in the silhouette of the treetop, and the eyelashes tremble slightly and breathe evenly. She has never seen male eyelashes so beautiful, and has never seen Su Yunmo in such a close distance, and the breathing of each other seems to be entangled.

Ann Xiaoqing fell down, staring at Su Yun. She really likes this person. From middle school to high school, then to university, it was six years. For six years, she was no longer an ugly duckling and finally became a white swan. He is still the same prince. Su Yun Mo, you know, I chased you for six years, and now I am here. Thousands of mountains and thousands of mountains, come to my love.

When Su Yun opened his eyes, the girl who saw it squinted, her face was trapped in the fluffy long hair, and the afterglow of the setting sun shined on her, and everything seemed to be harmonious and incredible.

He stood up and looked at the dark days, and the quieter campus, finally bending his knees and gently shaking the girl. Seeing her seemingly a little awake, she smiled faintly. It was this laugh that made Ann Xiaoqing wake up all at once. This is the smile of the prince.

I hurriedly stood up, patted the clothes, smiled apologetically at the boys, and kept repeating my mouth, I was asleep. Su Yun Mo is just quiet, not talking. An Xiaoqing has never been so close to her prince, and her nervous fingers are twisted together and she does not dare to look up.

Su Yun looked at this strange girl, obviously didn't know, why he still said sorry. Obviously, I have not done anything wrong. I asked: "Do we know." The tone is faint. I don’t remember that this girl is actually in the same high school with him, and is also a university. Asking this sentence, he seems to feel that the girl is a little unbelievable, although she did not look up. But he did feel it.

An Xiaoqing stood in front of Su Yunmo, bowed his head and looked at the sunset, burying her shadow a little bit into his shadow until she crossed her and ran to a farther place. It turned out to be like this, I don't remember. But there is no way, I have long liked it, how can I give up?

She looked up and fixedly looked at him. She suddenly smiled briskly and said to the boys: "No, we don't know. But now I know it. My name is An Xiaoqing, a freshman. Architecture Department. You What?"

Su Yunmo raised his eyes slightly and saw the bright smile of the girl. He suddenly felt the sorrow that had just emanated from her. However, she still showed a consistent smile, holding the girl’s extended hand and said: “Su Yun Mo. Freshman. Architecture.”

[Like the flow of water, this life does not change]

Su Yun Mo was in the seat, watching the girl standing at the door, because of the late appearance of a slightly sullen face, after walking into the almost empty classroom, the eyes were almost desperate. Raise your hand to signal the girl to come over.

Ann Xiaoqing sat down and gasped. I didn't expect to be late on the first day, but I had a seat, otherwise it would be big. Turning around and thinking about thanking the classmates who beckoned to themselves, but when they saw Su Yunmo, the expression changed quickly. If you haven’t exported yet, you can’t say it anymore.

"It is you."

"It's me. Who do you think it is?" Hearing the girl seems to be a bit of a blame, Su Yunmo has raised the idea of ​​teasing her.

At this moment, An Xiaoqing is still immersed in the sorrow that always appeared in front of the prince. Naturally, he did not see his blink of an eye. In fact, even Su Yunmo himself did not realize that this girl he thought he had not known before seemed to have started to influence his emotions.

"No, I will know you one here." I want to clarify.

This time, Su Yunmo did not continue to laugh, because the teacher has been here several times. He does not want to become a "celebrity" when he starts school.

The same school, the same class. Ann Xiaoqing feels that it is the happiest time now. He could see his smiling face every day, and he could hear him call him a little love. Although Su Yunmo's explanation is that calling the name directly is too much trouble. However, she is still rejoicing in the name of the person she is liked.

The architecture department is like Su Yunmo. It was originally because I knew that he liked it and tried to understand this knowledge. Sitting in a classroom with him now, her right hand is next to his right hand, and I want to laugh out loud when I think about it. It's just why he hasn't been in class lately.

Standing in the boys' dormitory downstairs and so on. Because his phone was not answered. From afternoon to dusk, the light rain turned into heavy rain, and he still did not appear. Ann Xiaoqing’s heart began to panic. I don’t know why, she always felt that if she couldn’t see Su Yunmo again, maybe everything would be different.

[Returned to the past, can not return to the original]

It’s been a week after I saw Su Yunmo again. Still the same white shirt, but there is a clear change. It was the original feeling of faintness that was gone. Now Su Yunmo, his eyes are as deep as a pool, and his eyes are always mixed with things that cannot be seen clearly.

Ann Xiaoqing looked at the white shirt next to it. At your fingertips, you feel more distant. He no longer greets himself with a faint voice, and no longer reveals the faint smile of the prince she is used to. As if he had known him before, he was a dream. Now he woke up and found that nothing had happened.

Su Yun Mo, he is not too noisy, just becoming more and more quiet, converging all the publicity and persistence that this age should have, quiet people can not detect his existence.

"Su Yun Mo, you told me what happened?"

Ann Xiaoqing still could not help but ask him. It’s just that the boy’s expression is slightly frowning. Going back and drawing on paper. When Su Yun was painting a picture, An Xiaoqing felt that his expression was gentle at that time, like watching his beloved woman. Nowadays, the same embarrassing method, the design of the house, how to see it shows an indescribable reluctance or unwilling to come. Drawing seems to be his only vent.

An Xiaoqing does not know what happened to Su Yunmo, but in the bottom of his heart, the pain will accumulate day after day. She likes Su Yunmo for so many years, and now she has not known her favorite, she is already far away from her. What is it because of it?

Until that day, the girl appeared. Mo Yan.

She only understood that she was just as distressed as herself. Mo Yan, she also heard about it. The flower of the foreign language department is the same as the girl of the hibiscus. Anyone who is already beautiful enough will not be self-defeating. Ah. It turned out that everything was just a misunderstanding. Those who had not remembered by the year, the prince-style smile, who would listen to her whispering. But just a smile, she let her pour out the whole youth. Those self-righteous expressions of relatives have already dissipated in this desperate waiting.

She didn't want Su Yun to know that Mo Yan had actually heard all of his conversations with him. It was not intentional, but it just happened to pass through and fell into a dilemma. I found out that things are like this. I am very happy to go to college together and agree to design the future house with each other. Just before the appointment arrived, there was a person who didn't want to continue.

In fact, An Xiaoqing always thought that Su Yunmo loved architecture. I only know now, but I love the house and the Ukrainian. Now Mo Yan said that the agreement is not counted, so the building that has been loved for many years has become a kind of venting overnight. Then yourself. He didn't even know that he liked it for so many years. He chased Mo Yan, and he chased him Su Yun.

[This end of the world, the other side of the cape]

Su Yun is quiet. An Xiaoqing also learned to silence.

The so-called silence is actually not willing to say anything. I can't bear to be sad, so I never mention Mo Yan. I can't bear to guilty, so I don't like words. I can only sit quietly beside you, occasionally looking up, seeing your white shirt, seeing my right hand next to my right hand.

I don't know if we can no longer be like you used to, and you call me a little love. I don't know if you, or me, can never use it as much as I used to, until I lose all the courage to go to youth.

We are two, the only ones different. It’s just that we like it and we don’t care about each other.

You like Mo Yan, it is your business. I like Su Yunmo, it is my business. All of this, in fact, really, is irrelevant. Who said that, like a person may only take a second, but forget a person, but it takes a lifetime. From the time of childhood, the dream of the prince was finally stranded by you.

Su Yun Mo. I have to wait until I can tell you that I have wanted to say something from many years ago. Su Yun Mo, if you are happy, I can give up everything, including you. Just hope, you are happy. You can't be Mo Yan, but can you give me a chance if you have a chance?

in case. This has been silent.

It is the way you choose and like it.

Ok then.

Please let me stay with you.

I like it for a long time. Su Yun Mo.

End

Sixth grade: Zhang. . .