Letter of thanks to a friend

A thank you letter to a friend has always been a lot of friends who care about me, encourage me, but I have not brought you happiness and happiness, even I feel very indifferent, in fact, I also know that between myself and my friends. There are very few contacts and few contacts, but this does not mean that I forgot my friends and forgot the people who care about me. I have been working hard to get out of the shadows, although it is very difficult. Some people say that I am hypocritical. Others say that I am taking sorrow to attract the attention of others... Although these words are very hurtful, I will not explain it, because after all, people are different and their thoughts are different. I have no way to ask others to agree with my thoughts, my way of life, everyone has everyone's life, not behind the halo is not happiness, sadness and poverty are not necessarily sad, each has its own bitterness and happiness, I will not force anyone to understand me, because I don't have the ability. I can only understand myself. Everything will change my mind, change my angle, change my mood, and think about it from the perspective of the other side. You will understand why there is a lot of opinions on one thing, and you understand why others can't understand you because they have different angles, different moods, and different lives.
I know that I have left my friends cold. I also feel that I am very reluctant to communicate now, especially if I don’t like to talk. It seems that I have lost the ability to speak. It seems that only words can express my feelings. I know that this is not possible, I know. This is a dangerous signal. In fact, I also understand that I just want to escape, avoid some problems that I dare not face up to, and evade the consequences of facing this problem. I have no courage to accept the unpredictable consequences. In my heart, I don't want to lose my friends. I don't want to hurt anyone. I just want everyone around me to be happy. I didn't mean to leave you alone. Please forgive me! I will learn to communicate. I don't care about you, but I am temporarily lost. Please ask my friends for a little time.
Thank you again, I always care about encouraging my friends! thank you all! Thank you very much!