Inexplicable annoyance

In the twilight, all the lights are lit up in the bustling city. The land covered in moonlight is no longer lonely, and the night of the city is going on.

At this point, sitting on the knees alone sitting in front of the window.

I saw a lot of high-rise buildings, I saw a lot of cars on the road, but I didn't see the dark blue sky, the shining star. The gray sky makes me have a kind of trouble and depression that can't be said.

Quietly, I am thinking about the long-lost, irritating problem.

What is my life goal?

Do the same thing every day, learn the knowledgeless knowledge; every day is so mechanically alive, awkward to live! I don't know what I should do now, how should I go in the future, just like a boat lost its way in the fog, and I lost myself.

For a moment, I suddenly felt that life has no meaning, and life has many troubles.

Today, I am just a walking dead with no soul, living in numbness. Once, for my parents, I worked hard, but their indifference has made me chill; for my loved ones and those who love myself, I work hard, but there is too much joy between them, too much hurt, let me Choose to escape. I used to work hard for my own happiness, but I know that life is always more than happiness. In order to achieve my goals, I work hard, but I know that I am not that great. I have worked hard for everything that has been given to me by the world, but I also understand that I am only a small piece of sand in the vast world.

I lost my life goal and it is meaningless to live. I can only be annoyed and degraded.

So, I was in a daze; let the time pass, I hope that it can dilute the helplessness of life, and wash away all the troubles. However, I ask myself, I also know clearly: I have to face it and cheer up! Whether the world chooses me or I choose the world, since I already exist, I should live well.

If the trouble still stirs the calm water of my heart, and it will burst into troubles, then I think I will not be depressed anymore, I will not worry any more, and I will not evade. Because I know that the coming will come, the scattered will be scattered, after the storm of trouble, the joy of spring-like moisture will come.

Looking up at the sky, although the sky is not clear, the stars have not appeared, but I am already calm. Try to face and talk to yourself, life is not meaningless. In the beautiful tomorrow, facing the splendid sun, the goal of life, the meaning of life waiting for you to explore!

First day: Ye Yingdan