15 years old sky, only belongs to me

Sometimes, I like to look at the sky, look at the flowerless white clouds, I am very envious, why are they not troubled, not lost, not sad, I have imagined that I am very smart, very beautiful, just That kind of self has lost a special, I have to face reality, not beautiful, not smart, I only have to fight hard to heal the wounds of the past, to make myself happier, I don't want to give up, because I am afraid to give up There is no chance, so I can only choose to study hard. The 15-year-old sky is romantic, happy, sad~~~ but also full of sadness.

Sometimes, I want to cry a lot, to vent some uncomfortable feelings, but my tears can't change my life and destiny, so I treasure it, I want to make myself stronger, but my heart The uncomfortableness still exists, telling me not to cry, not to cry, but the tears are not obedient, or fall down, helpless, or crying, why I am not a good student like others, why my Hard work has not been harvested, why is it always me who is injured, so uncomfortable.

I, I am used to crying alone, laughing alone, alone looking at the sky, silly, dazzling, one person fantasizing, running when a person is not happy, forgetting trouble, in fact, this is full, at least I think I am also very happy, although sometimes It’s also very sad, but I’m used to it, just one person. I don't like to go out to play, I think it's boring, I hate to go out to play, I am very introverted, I don't like to talk, I like to write my own ideas into my article, very diary, where is the most real me.

- I want to tell myself, silly boy, from today, learn to be unrequited, the roll will roll, and the stay will stay. Learn to be serious, serious about people, and serious about things. Learn to be lonely, no one will protect you as a treasure, the world is always alone. Learn to be strong, in fact, a person can live beautifully, laugh at yourself and cry to yourself. Learn to be patient, shut up and shut up, the silence will be silent and learn to cherish, there are not many friends who know each other. If you go, you will really only have yourself. Learn to turn a blind eye, disgusting things to choose to ignore, disgusting things to choose to ban, no one will make me unhappy. Learn to meet, the so-called contenters are also happy. Learn to be independent, can no longer bother others, do their own things, and the so-called asking for help is not as good as asking for yourself. Learning to grow up, can't be so capricious, so childish, so childish. Learn to be cautious, people who shouldn't know don't know, don't interfere with things that shouldn't be involved. Learn to forget, can't live in the past, memories have passed away, continue to live now. Learn to give up, some people will never belong to themselves, then let go of it, don't drag the water, so that not only the others, but also cumbersome. Learn to be cold-blooded, only good for people who are good to me. Learn to be happy than before, even if you are sad, you have to face it with a smile. Learn to be cruel, leave when you leave.

Silly boy. I pulled all the thorns on my body like a hedgehog, and finally I was covered with scars.

Silly boy. Life is actually a LIARGAME, no betrayal, only deception.

Silly boy. There is no fairness in the world. At least, I can't expect the fairness I want.

When I was doing a bus, I always liked to look out the window and watch the fleeting lights. Used to hide all emotions. This will feel like you have a hard shell. Quiet night, watching the sky on the balcony, as always, clean and transparent. I like to look up at the sun, and at the moment when the tears flow out, I always feel that the siltation in my heart has disappeared. I like to look up at the moonlight, and I forgot my troubles in the faint moonlight. If I am not strong, who will I look for?

My occasional memories of the past made me feel that my life is regressing. I like to bring my headphones and walk on the road of no one. The world’s embarrassment has nothing to do with me. I just want to be quiet for a while. I understand that the past is no longer coming back, and the return is no longer perfect. Now I take a complicated mood, look at complicated life, and take a complicated road. I don't want to admit defeat like this at all, because I don't want to regret it. I don't know what the future is like, but I will insist that I want to make myself happy. Memories, just a stupid idiot's attachment, some lessons, once is enough. Don't be stupid to wait, waiting for a result that is inconclusive. If you want to wait, just wait, anyway, you are desperate.

Hidden, don't let those things affect your emotions. Learning is all of you, and everything about you. It’s not just that you are working hard, so don’t give up. Not that you are not doing well, so don't be sad. If you are not sad, you must cry, so don't cry. Not all expressions should be written on the face, so learn to cover up your unhappiness, don't let others feel sorry for you, even if you are uncomfortable. --

Hidden, remember, the next time you protect yourself, you obviously feel bad, but still comforting others, don't want them to be unhappy, so even if you are not happy, you will not say to your friends, don't want them to worry. I would rather not be happy.

Hey, think about it, I don’t have much time to study and live with my classmates in class 8 or 6 and I don’t want to leave them at all. I can’t bear it. After all, I have been studying together for so long, my little pigs, grandchildren, and cute. Heavy, always remember you. Of course, there are classes and teachers.

Hidden, be sure to be happy, believe in yourself, one day, you have your own season, forget it, you will be happy, no one will care about your tears, so you can't cry, don't cry, you know? Please don't let yourself be so tired, ok? I have to know how to choose, learn to give up, endure loneliness, and stand the temptation. One person thinks that the memories are unforgettable, and others have already forgotten it. Inexplicable sadness, although it has become a memory, can still remember...

In the good, I can't help but forget, and in sadness, I can't resist memories.

No longer relying on, learning to release

This is the most authentic I am 15 years old. We like to play cool, bring headphones, listen to non-mainstream music that seems to understand and understand, and jump their own signature moves. That is my personality, it is only my special. Taste, but we also have dreams. My dream is to be a post-90s online writer. Our name is youth. Our characteristic is called hard work.

I told myself that I have to smile and make myself happy! point!

Silence, carrying this inexplicable sadness, looked at it so deeply, but did not know what was looking at it, rational thoughts, I should start to quietly cheer.

Zhao Xingyin, in order to be a dream of an online writer, you must refuel, and for your own future, you must work hard and don't give up. In order to make yourself happier, you can't cry even if you work hard.

Zhao Xingyin, you always have your own season!

Shanghai Yuxiu School, the first day: Zhao Xingyin