Bitter and happy

In August 2019, I enrolled in the Ancient Shuyuan Mine Middle School and officially became a freshman.

On August 31, I came to the first class of 170 to report. As soon as I entered the first grade teacher, I felt a sense of oppression. Looking at the strangers in the house, there is a kind of feeling in my heart that I can't say.

In the days when I officially entered the country, I was very uncomfortable. Since the beginning of the country, all the teachers have had high expectations for me, and the students are also centered on me. But now, suddenly changed to a new environment, everything has changed. The teachers here don't know me. The students here are no longer centered on me, and no one even talks to me. This made my heart full of a sense of loss, like a princess who has been held in the palm of my hand. I was thrown to the ground and lost my pet. I am a psychologically vulnerable person and cannot afford such a blow. So, looking at strange classrooms, teachers, and classmates every day during class, I can't help but shed tears. When the tears slipped out of the eyes, I rushed to wipe them out, for fear of being seen by others.

When I got home, I told my mother about this feeling. Although my mother’s comfort made my heart feel a lot better. But sitting in that classroom again, I still can't help but fall down and miss.

Finally, when I went back to the classroom to take the book, I met the teacher Chen Na. Looking at her amiable face, I finally couldn't help but tell her all about it. Teacher Chen comforted me. After seriously understanding my situation, I gave me a new seat.

There are some lively and cheerful students around this seat. This time, I cried again, but it was tears of excitement. I silently said in my heart: "Mr. Chen, thank you! I will not let you down!"

Gradually, with the help of the teacher and the influence of the students around me, I gradually became cheerful. Actively speaking in class, actively participate in various activities in the class. There was no initial sense of oppression and loss in my heart, and even my mother said that I changed like a person.

In the diary's comments, Teacher Liu told me that learning life is a process of bitterness and intertwining. When you taste the hardships in your life, you can truly appreciate the joy.

I am very happy now, and my study life has entered the stage of music. And I also understand that learning and life are bitter and intertwined. Bitterness and music are closely linked. We cannot always experience suffering, and we will not always enjoy it. Only by correctly considering the bitterness and joy in learning life can we realize the beauty of life!

Shanxi Jincheng District Ancient Mine Middle School, the first day: Han Bingyan