High school struggle diary four

High school struggle diary four

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Date: Friday, March 14, 2019 Weather: Light rain

Mood is small: suddenly

One sentence per day: a step back, it makes sense

My plan is awkward. This is an indisputable fact.

Seeing one of the most striking tasks and indicators, I can only get into the boundless self-blame by the prevailing confidence. Another weekly plan was lost, and the task completion rate was extremely low. I have no way to proudly mark the red hook on each project. There is no way to continue the planning of the next week. There is no way to find the confidence to write down each project. When I think about making a plan, I am so confident, but looking at my performance this week, I have not entered the ideal state of efficiency. For example, my heart is like a leaky balloon, and I slammed on the ground after flying in the air.

Did you not make full use of time? Isn’t the concentration of attention always busy? Or did I really not put the plan of black and white in my heart, that is, I don’t pay enough attention to it?

Confusion is filled with thoughts with loss, just like a barge falls down the waterfall.

The same table seemed to be aware of what, and asked: "Is the acceptance plan? What happened? Didn't finish?" I handed him the book. He smiled. "I see, only Superman can do it all." Exclaimed: "What?" So he gave me a very objective evaluation and reasonable advice, so that I would like to slap the top. "People think that your goal is set to be high, and it is absolutely impossible to accomplish the task in me. I remember that I have seen in a book that there is a principle for making a plan called 'jumping, enough. ', let's try.'

Bystanders clear, the authorities are fascinated. Sometimes the plan that I have developed is suitable for myself, and I can't find a spectrum in my heart. When you are overconfident, or if you expect too much from yourself, the indicators you set yourself will far exceed your ability, and you will be discouraged and blamed;

Therefore, it is necessary to make plans and determine that the goals must be slightly higher than their own capabilities, as long as they can work hard. So I divide the tasks of different difficulty into each time according to the time of day, and carefully consider whether I can successfully complete it with my own ability before writing. Finally, considering the feasibility of the entire weekly plan, it is a matter of increasing or deleting. After this series of work, I suddenly felt: "It's really a sharpening of the firewood."

I consciously that I have gained a lot. The cracked land coincides with the rain, and the reason and power quietly recover. I wrote the six words in the title page of the plan book: a jump, enough to get.

I can't go to the sky one step at a time, but I can join the knot like a bamboo and shoulder the shoulders in a way that suits me.

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Date: Monday, March 31, 2019. Weather: hot and dry

Mood: a little anxiety

One sentence a day: the heart has a pine, a thousand hard hits, more and more strong, Ren Shi north and south wind

The night is already deep, and the last light that shines into the window is that the moon is in the ghost. Time seems to be stagnant, and the surrounding is so calm that I am somewhat difficult to adapt. I am insomnia, only I know.

The eyelids were tightly closed for a long time, but I was still tired. Even though I could not go to sleep. I don't know if I am too anxious to sleep, and I don't dare to think about this annoying problem. I seem to have fallen into a terrible vicious circle, constantly suggesting that I don't think too much, constantly urging myself to sleep with peace of mind. But it doesn't work.

I simply sat up and found myself sweating a lot. Turn on the fan and the sound of the fan blades breaks silently. I found that I was really anxious, not because of study and exams, but because at the last moment of the third year of high school, insomnia came to the door.

It is often said that long nights, everything can be easily amplified. At this time, in my heart, it may be this kind of anxiety, this psychological pressure. I don't have the feeling of time. I don't know what time it is at night. I am afraid that it will be so bright. My brain will spend the night in this night.

I started to take a deep breath. Use your strength to breathe in and breathe out a little slowly. Repeatedly, I gradually felt that my heartbeat slowed down and my muscles were relaxed. I closed my eyes and silently thought about how tired I was. After a while I began to lie down, listening to the rhythm of the fan, trying to focus on the mechanical sound. As this rhythm repeats endlessly, I gradually become more and more sleepy.

This is such a difficult process that I can hardly imagine. Fighting with your own demons is not the case, because the opponent you face at this time is an invisible restless self. What I need to do at this time is to make my heart as quiet as late at night, and to transfer my attention to other places a little bit, not to think about the things that will bring pressure to myself.

Undoubtedly, insomnia in a very period of time is a painful thing. Anxiety will expand like a dough, but such an uneasy person can definitely overcome it. Only by firmly believing this can you get rid of such problems. This is a valuable experience in overcoming insomnia. The significance is not only to know how to get rid of it, but also to get a psychological temper.

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Date: Thursday, April 17, 2019 Weather: Rain

Mood is small: stay tired and stick to it

One sentence per day: The key to life is: as long as you do, lose and win are wonderful

There are so many people studying in the evening!

I looked up and piled up in front of two thick reference books. I looked down and recorded the sticky notes of the knowledge points on the entire desk.

The school will start to arrange the evening self-study exams next week. The teacher’s statement is that we have experienced many battles, but I think we have gone through tens of thousands of exams. Mathematics and physics are as bad as ever, and I feel annoyed when I think about it. But English has finally stabilized. For biology and chemistry, it may have been spent more time on textbooks recently, so those basic questions have become more and more convenient. It seems that the teachers said that returning to textbooks is quite useful.

The students started discussing the May Day holiday today, because it has been a long time not to relax, even a day's holiday is a luxury holiday for us. Everyone started to make plans, although I knew that I could only stay at home to read books, but I still spent the extra ten minutes with everyone.

Today, when I was eating in the cafeteria, I saw a lot of classmates eating and watching the small notebooks. Recently, such notebooks are very popular. I also bought a few, but more are used to write some words that motivate myself. Just like when I write a diary, I am always used to writing a maxim that will keep myself high-spirited. Now I have recorded so many books on my laptop that I have some unclear which sentences are copied and which ones are original.

The number on the countdown card hanging above the blackboard is getting smaller and smaller. Every time I see the "high man" in the class, I feel that my heart is nervous for a while, and my palm can't control my sweat. On the one hand, I hope that time can hurry past, and on the other hand, I am afraid that I am not ready yet. The teacher always reminds us from time to time that if you don't work hard, you won't even have the chance to turn over. Every time I heard this, my mind came up with a large piece of salted fish struggling to turn over and then I was amused by myself.

Today is the physics teacher to study in the evening, I still have a lot of questions to ask! I have to sort it out quickly. Come on!

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Date: Tuesday, May 20, 2019 Weather: Cloudy

Mood is small: very light

One sentence per day: set sail, remember to smile

"I don't think about it. Will there be cold and cold rain behind me? Since the goal is the horizon, the only thing left for the world is the back."

When the countdown days on the corner of the blackboard were written in bold red chalk for 18 days, I repeatedly thought of the inspiring verses. I don't know if it is appropriate to cheer for myself at this time. I don't mean to do this. I feel that everything is natural. They don't need me to summon, but they come up from the heart, let me feel two wonderful feelings at the same time: the heroic and accepting of the expedition.

The air in the summer is still stuffy, and the students' anxious moods "come together", everyone is busy, busy doing problems, busy reading, busy summing up, busy planning, busy worrying, busy irritability. However, I was uncharacteristically sneaking in the air, and staring at the green outside the window for ten minutes during the class that others thought was just like the water in the sponge.

At this time, I am not recalling the ups and downs of this high school year, but chewing all the tastes and experiences after experiencing these ups and downs. It is not that I lose the motivation for review or I don’t pay much attention to it. I feel that in this final preparation stage, in addition to reviewing the comprehensive and systematic study, I should also adjust my mood.

Before the evening of self-study, the class had to shout out the exit number according to the usual practice. I found that most of the students in the shouts for a few seconds, with all the confidence in their hearts, issued to the upcoming college entrance examination. A powerful declaration. But when I returned to a quiet state of study, some students showed signs of irritability or anxiety inadvertently.

The more important the moment, the more you need a normal heart. This is the most valuable experience I have gained in my mentality during the preparation process this year. I always believe in this. I feel that I can have such a light heart and this kind of conviction is inseparable. I will also take this calm and go through the college entrance examination with a natural attitude.

Just thinking about it, my understanding of the college entrance examination is a deeper level. It may not be so terrible, but its importance is emphasized by the accent of adult students, causing long-term tinnitus in our hearts, and rarely hear the low-frequency music it brings to us. It is an assessment and a ladder; it has a limited challenge on the front and an infinite opportunity on the back.

Since that has become a very natural stage in life, why not experience the past unnaturally! Perhaps the college entrance examination is not simply the production on the spot, but more of the usual efficiency.