Normal University Student Internship Diary

Wang Shanshan

Tuesday, September 13th, sunny weather

First day of internship

Lushan wading, and finally came to Changlin School. Five or six elementary school students ran to take my big bag away. I suddenly felt like a grandson, and I was warmly welcomed by the children.

Walking into my own room, as expected, was a bit simplistic, but it was not surprising because I had participated in two summer trips to the countryside. The most impressive thing is that the principal, Mrs. Huang, cooked the bowl of noodles for me personally. There is no meat, no vegetables, but it is warm to the bottom of my heart. This teacher is also a person who has influenced me a lot later. From cooking to teaching Chinese, she taught me a lot. If you use a word to describe her, it should be virtuous.

When passing through the classroom, the children cast curious eyes. The principal told me that I taught the third grade and gave me a full class schedule, including Chinese, English, music, art, and morality... I only remember one teacher told me that the third-grade child must be fierce and embarrassed. I listened ignorantly. Some nervous, some expectation, some hope...

Friday, October 21, the weather is fine

First tear

On that day, I first shed tears in front of the students. Although, in retrospect, it is naive and somewhat unreasonable. However, as Mr. Huang said, the new teacher will.

It may have been a physiological period that day, and my mood is somewhat unstable. The first two classes were the language of my own class. I didn't drink a bit of water, and I was tired. After class, I rushed to copy the lyrics, because the last lesson was a music lesson in the third and fourth grades.

When I arrived at the music class, the children were embarrassed, okay, this is not the first time. But when I saw two students writing homework, they suddenly came up with emotions. I feel so hard that I can't change their respect. Ok, maybe I did this when I was a child. I also divided the course into a major subject, a sub-discipline, and also wrote homework in the class of the deputy teacher. However, what happened to me at that moment was full of grievances! Tears came up, I resisted, did not flow down, but some students saw it.

I know that now, if this happens again, I will never cry. Looking back, picking up my tender shells, my heart is sweet and sour...

Monday, November 7th, sunny weather

After the midterm exam

The results of the mid-term exams came out. Our language scores are very poor: the average score is 51, which is probably the worst score in the whole school. To be honest, it hurts me a lot. I am very, very self-doubt.

I used to have a lot of confidence in being a teacher. Because I have talked about some mental health classes, most of the repercussions are ok. I feel that I am humorous, creative, and loved by students. Now, the midterm exam has forced me to reflect on myself again and again.

In fact, now, judging from the situation at the time, many problems are indeed my own. From the perspective of teaching methods, my language is very immature because of lack of experience.

The basic knowledge of the students is not strictly enforced, and the texts are read less... However, the most important thing is my own attitude. Because I am fighting for the research, I am living in uncertainty, I am very anxious every day, and I cannot fully fulfill my duties as a teacher. To put it bluntly, I am a little absent-minded. However, after the mid-term exam, my own affairs are almost certain, and I have to wake up and reflect on my own problems! Wow, it’s really “re-doing”!

Constantly consult with other teachers, and try to continually correct and improve my teaching. I don't know if I am suitable for teaching. It is not suitable for teaching Chinese. However, I will do my best to do my best for this semester.

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Thursday, November 24th, the weather is fine

Confusion about the meaning of internship

Sometimes I think about my own internship, first trying to adapt, learning to cook, and learning to teach. What I think every day is, how to teach books better? This time the cooking is broken, how can I avoid the same problem next time? But after getting used to it, I started to worry about the new question: Why should I choose such an empty life?

Yes, I don’t know what other intern trainees think, but they live in the mountains, we can’t get online, and the life circle is very small. After school, we take a walk and go back to the dormitory, because the classes are ready during the empty class. I can only watch TV. I feel empty and empty to suffocate. On the other hand, I hate that I am too fallen. Because I have already researched, I don't have to worry about work. The people in the school's insurance research institutes went to Beijing to start busy, or started some projects in the Chinese division to prepare for graduation thesis. I feel that I am far away from academics and scientific research, and far away from my peers. I am alone, and I blame myself for being degraded and questioning why I chose to come here.

The roommate is very diligent every day because he is preparing for the job fair interview and some exams, which makes me more blame. I feel that I am far from good. Me, where is the meaning of coming here? If I don't teach in the future, then am I wasting my youth?

Saturday, November 26th

Talking about the Management of National Classes from Behavior Correction

Now think about it, the education of the small and medium is closely related to psychology, especially in the correction of behavior.

Behavioral correction is a field of psychology that involves the analysis and correction of human behavior. The problem behaviors exposed by students need to apply some important basic principles in behavior correction: strengthening, regressing, punishing, etc., so that bad behaviors are corrected and good conduct is shaped.

First, the problem behavior

The class was poorly disciplined, and he spoke indiscriminately.

There are a lot of bad habits in this class in the third grade. They didn't raise their hands, and if you didn't get the teacher's permission, you would like me to say a word. Although you answered the questions positively, the classroom was always chaotic, and the teacher always forced the teacher to increase the volume. Moreover, students are more dependent on teachers. When I ask them to take notes, there will always be people asking, "Which pen should I use to write?" "Where should I write the teacher?" Some naive questions. Everyone liked to complain when they were in class. Although they have supervised functions, my lectures are often disrupted. There are a few children who like to stand up for class. It may be that the bench is not comfortable. So I listened to the class and stood up unconsciously, or sitting there and looking at the legs was difficult to see.

During the lunch break, the teacher rested the students to study in the class. The discipline of our class is very poor. In the afternoon, I came over and received a long list of speeches from the squad leader and the disciplined doctor. There were more than a dozen people in the class, and three or four people were spared. Classroom discipline is my number one headache.

Do not complete the work on time and independently.

The problem of not handing over homework on time should be more common, and every teacher should face it. In addition, there are also phenomena that do not complete the work independently, such as plagiarism. The third grade is the transition from reading the composition to the proposition composition because it is the initial stage of composition. Individual students are very difficult to write, so there will be plagiarism when writing weekly notes. Although copying is also a kind of learning, which is conducive to copying, the problem of plagiarism involves honest education and cannot be ignored.

Not polite, do not respect the teacher. Fighting, bullying young, classmates are not united.

The politeness of the children in this class is not very strong. If you don’t say goodbye to the teacher, you can speak at random during the class and interrupt the teacher. When you enter the classroom or go to the teacher’s office, you don’t call the report; you can’t talk politely with the teacher. Terms and so on. Several naughty boys in the class also had fights every other day, although most of the time it was caused by jokes, sometimes it was bullying the children of the lower grades. The students are very uncooperative, often go to me to play small reports, and make fun of students with poor grades. Obviously, effective moral education is imminent.

Do not follow the rules and regulations, such as bringing toys into the classroom.

We do not allow students to bring toys into the school to prevent them from playing during class. For some children who are slightly richer at home, the parents will give them some pocket money. These students will buy snacks and buy toys to bring them to the class.

Second, the corrective strategy and effect analysis of problem behavior

Maintenance of classroom discipline: from reprimand to reward

Regarding the maintenance of classroom discipline, like all new intern teachers, I always shouted loudly and even thundered, but even though I was quiet at the time, I soon found that the time for students to calm down was shorter and shorter. The teacher is very tired and the emotions are also susceptible. The same is true of the indiscriminate speech and sitting without sitting. The teacher said that the students did not change.

Later, I began to try rewards. I chose five "discipline stars" every week. I talked indiscriminately in class, and the students who were disciplined during the lunch break were not allowed to be selected on time. The winners were small prizes. As a result, a few weeks later, the low-cost small prizes did play a certain role. The behavior of raising hands in class increased, and the "long list" finally changed from more than ten people to three or four people.

Here we apply the principles of reinforcement in psychology. Reinforcement is the process by which behavior is reinforced by the direct consequences of its emergence, that is, behavior is more likely to happen again in the future. Strengthening includes positive reinforcement and negative reinforcement [1]. For example, for students who abide by classroom discipline, the “Star of Discipline” has a positive reinforcement effect; it is not possible to be selected for the last time you obtained the “Star of Discipline” and then spoke indiscriminately or otherwise violated discipline. Increasing the discipline of these students has played a negative role.

Reduce the phenomenon of not paying homework: punishment should also "put drugs on people"

For the phenomenon of not paying the work, the teacher certainly hates the pain, and sometimes he is helpless. There is a fat boy in my class. Others are not stupid, but for a period of time, the scores have continued to decline. Later, the test language, number, and foreign subjects all stayed at 40 or 50 points, and the homework was often not completed. . He was called to the office by me and the math teacher for numerous times. Is blame an invalid punishment?

This involves a general misunderstanding of people's right and punishment. In fact, the definition of punishment in psychology is functional, that is, you can't define punishment by whether the result of the behavior is unpleasant or disgusting—only the future behavior is really reduced, you can It is concluded that this is the punishment [1]. Therefore, the punishment is based on the effect. As the boy mentioned above, the reprimand actually does not constitute punishment for him.

Later, once he did not write homework, I was very angry with the math teacher and decided to visit his home. In his home we simply understood and did not sit for too long. But he was very scared, and he never did not pay homework since then. It seems that home visits are an effective punishment for him.

The shaping of polite behavior: the decline of bad behavior

Like reinforcement and punishment, the decline of behavior is also a basic principle of behavior. The regression occurs when a previously strengthened behavior no longer leads to a reinforcing effect. For example, in the above-mentioned treatment of student disciplinary issues, there are still individual naughty students who still interrupt the teacher's speech without raising their hands. I later realized that I was not doing a good job on this issue: I always turned my attention to him, answered his questions, and then blamed it. That is to say, non-compliance with discipline can gain the attention of teachers, so it is likely that they are strengthened by another form of "reward". In order to dispel this kind of behavior that I "encourage", I did not hear the fashions and did not hear them, and asked other students who raised their hands. As a result, this behavior was gradually reduced. Of course, the polite behavior itself is related to the details of the bits and pieces. When you get along with the students, you need to pay attention to their politeness education, strengthen their respect for the teacher, and sometimes praise and punishment. Courtesy is a very important part of moral education. It is also an important part of behavioral correction used in elementary education.

Confiscation of things: use their own things to make prizes

For the violations, the teacher usually takes the form of confiscation and then returns it to him at a later time. In fact, things that are confiscated can also be used as incentives. For different students, how many points he can take with his trading stage exam and mid-term exam can take his beloved yo-yo back, which may promote the improvement of performance. Pupils actually learn to be more motivated, so rewards are kings.

These are some of my thoughts on the education of primary school students since my internship from a psychological perspective. There may be some immature and idealized, inexperienced tests, but the path of reflection will not stop. "Practice is the only criterion for testing truth." I will continue to explore in practice and learn from experienced teachers.

Wednesday, November 30, sunny weather

Internship and growth

In fact, I have not stopped asking about the meaning of the internship. I think that "meaning" is not the same as "action." The latter is more utilitarian.

Soaking in the world of children all day long, sadness and joy. I believe that I will miss this place very much in the future.

Not the same as the previous countryside. There are mature teacher responsibilities here. There is a regular work schedule, not only the exercise of independent viability, but also the natural healing pool of “network, computer dependence” – we are far away from the hustle and bustle of the city, we experience loneliness strongly. Also because I am far from the Internet, I can finally read and think quietly. Because we make dinner ourselves, we can choose what to eat according to taste and physical condition, and they are all low-cost, green and healthy food...

However, despite writing so many benefits, I have still had a little bit of discomfort in the past two and a half months, and there is still a little bit of disapproval - the kind of post, internship will be The feeling of inferiority. This time, after my career is successful or even white, I remember, what will it bring to me?

I repeatedly found the answer. Ok, go back to the era of pens to write diaries, watch TV, read books; start the era of responsibility, independent living, and control of emotions.

This is growing up!

Thursday, December 22, the weather is fine

Another emotional

When the young teacher actually hurts the body, maybe he just started teaching, and today he is emotional, even in front of the students.

The English class is a workbook. Everyone is a little absent-minded. I have repeatedly found out where I am talking about students who are looking at another place. Someone interrupted. Even good students are absent-minded. I couldn't help myself because I was not feeling well.

I said, "You don't want to take classes, then? Let's all be quiet!" I closed the front and back doors. I started to talk to my heart. In fact, under normal circumstances, I am furious, or silent. Other teachers are also accustomed to my temper in class and then go back to the office and chat happily - that is the realm! But this time, I kept talking, pointing my mistakes to myself, blaming myself, sad, and finally bringing a cry.

"I am very sad. I have taught you for so long. From the beginning of the school to the present, I still haven't corrected many of your bad habits. XX, you still interrupted class. XX still stood up in class. My most failed is, XX, The teacher still didn't cultivate your interest in the language. There are also XX and XX, one semester has passed, or not to pay homework. Looking at the deadline for the final exam on the blackboard, there are no more than ten days. I don't know this time. What did I bring to you? I feel that I am failing..."

At the time, I really didn't know if they could understand the third grade, but they were quiet and quiet. Like a child who made a mistake, there is a distress in the eyes that seems to be sensible. Later, the bell rang and the lesson ended.

Of course, after the afternoon, there is still a phenomenon of poor discipline. Rescuing the disease. I also told the other teachers as an interesting thing later.

But in my heart, I am grateful to myself for being so sincerely standing in front of the children. I shunned to comment on whether such a voice is good or bad and whether it is "effective." I remember that one of my high school teachers had once screamed at us when I "rolled" out of the key class, saying that I am sorry that I did not teach us well. Now, I unconsciously passed on this sincerity, and I am moved by myself.

Good weather on Saturday, December 31

Parting

Today is the last day of 2019. I gave each of the children a church for a New Year gift. Because I and my roommate have decided to go on January 7, so I have an appointment with the children and take pictures.

However, the scene is really difficult to control. We chose to take pictures when we were out of school. The children of all grades ran over. Everyone was very excited and mischievous and did not listen to us. Give this class to others and deliberately sway in and drift over, which makes me a bit of a tantrum in my photo.

Yes, when I was writing this diary, I was already a temper, and accidentally lost the lady who yelled at the lady style, ha! So bleak. In fact, it is not these bleak, I can still forgive them, they are very cute. It was me, I started to reluctant. I started to feel sad. I started to think that I was about to leave them. At the beginning... I feel like everybody who is facing a parting, feel the time, the real tmd is fast! Rude, I really can't bear you...

The photo is a familiar, bright smile. My time with my children is really getting shorter and shorter. Reluctant. Reluctant. Reluctant.