Inspirational novel: My suffering, my university (12)

Inspirational novel: my suffering my university

[Under 20 days, Daphne’s heel wears off one piece. I spend two dollars to nail the skin to the shoe stall. I have to rely on them to carry me through this summer. 】

If I divide my working life after going to Shanghai into several steps, then it is undoubtedly the second step to Shanghai Tangshen Culture Communication Company. On this level, I admire the scenery that I can't see in the relatively closed garment factory.

When I first arrived at Tang, Shen Gang originally wanted to arrange for me to enter the copy department, but I thought of the business department to go to the internship. The business unit is the hardest and most challenging part of the entire advertising company. The salesman's basic salary is 800 yuan, and after taking the advertisement, he takes a 10% commission.

I never thought that pulling advertisements was so hard. Some of my colleagues have taken the Shanghai Yellow Pages phone number every day to try their luck. Some collect advertisements from various newspapers, call them to "dig the corners" according to the map, and some simply go shopping and see a product dealership. Go in and grind your lips. It is said that there is a "grandfather" in the company that has not pulled an advertisement for six consecutive months. He pulls in and out of the bag every day, and he is discouraged. Some colleagues said to me privately: "If you pull an advertisement within three months, you have already broken the company's record. The fastest speed in the company to get the advertising salesman spent three months and twenty days. Time." I turned around and I got nothing. I thought that I could not live up to the hope of Shen, so I was more anxious.

August is the hottest month of the year. I cut off my long hair, and my short hair style is very similar to that of Aaron Kwok. I spent 15 yuan to buy a transparent summer bag, spent 80 yuan to buy a pair of Daphne discount slippers, plus a digital pager equipped with the company, so armed. I will go out at 7 o'clock every morning, then take a two-hour bus to get to work at a company near Shanghai Railway Station. Even in the car, I was concentrating on the roadside billboards or various shops, copying the phone number, and then calling the company, I even didn't even let a northeast forklift factory. One month, I have been familiar with the shops on the new road of more than 2,000 meters.

In order to get the advertisement as soon as possible, I almost read the company's newspapers every day, copied the advertiser's phone one by one, and then hit the phone one by one. I said that our company's advertising price is better than other advertisements. The company is more favorable, the design concept is more perfect than other companies, which is often the customer's most concerned.

But not all advertisers are very patient and listen to me talking about advertising. Many times, it was inexplicably smashed and then hanged up. After playing for more than ten days in a row, even the cheeks were thickened.

Less than 20 days later, Daphne's heel was worn out. I spent two dollars on the shoe stall and nailed a piece of skin. I have to rely on them to carry me through this summer.

At that time, I continued to work part-time as a guest host of Shanghai People’s Broadcasting Station on weekends, and I was paid 100 yuan each time. There are still three nights a week to go to Fudan University for evening classes.

I and the time are running around. It is because of the mission, I am because of life.

I still feel proud of myself so far--on the 20th day of the company, I finally got the first advertiser. Although the target is only 15,000, Shen is still very appreciative, and will be the original March. The internal salary of 800 yuan is added to 1600 yuan. Because I broke the record of the company's salesman pulling the business in the shortest time.

During that time, my writing was also unsuccessful, and I wrote almost an article. And they are all provincial-level publications. Since July 1995, with the beautiful love story of "Flying away, my sky has been broken", the sound of the "Knongyin" has been unstoppable. In the following six months, I continued to Magazines such as "Friends", "Love, Marriage, Family", "Friends, Overseas Edition", "Life and Companion" are blooming. Among them, there is a 30,000-word novella "Towards the Abyss", published in "Shanghai Novels". This has given me a little bit of fame in the amateur writers circle in Shanghai.

Gradually, editors of national magazines took the initiative to submit drafts to me. This makes me a bit flattered! It’s easy to make a contribution from a low-pitched essay to a magazine, to an editorial draft.

In order to learn to write a documentary, I learned to interview. I first looked for news clues from the newspaper, and then contacted the map. It doesn't matter if there is no press card. The article I have published is the best evidence.

I have a collection of magazines that have published my articles. Whenever I feel confused or tired, I will take it out and motivate myself not to slack off. Whenever I saw these words, I remembered the bitterness of those sleepless nights, remembered the tears and laughter that flowed from my heart, and remembered the words that I had carved out of the rough soil. I took me with me. The body fragrance and hope, like the pearls peeled off from my blood vessels, a little bit of the hall of my literary dream!

The reason why life is fascinating is because the front is always a corner.

My life is constantly on the corner, some corners present disasters and frustrations in front of me; some corners bring challenges and opportunities; some corners bring me unexpected surprises and good luck.

[Now, of course, I will not be as vain and inferior as I used to be. I will tell others boldly and boldly: I only graduated from a small country, I have been a quarrying woman, I have been on a plate, I have been a sewing woman... because I understand: The reason why people live a heavy weight is because they put their hearts on their hearts; the reason why they live inferiority is because they always look at the shadows of the past in the light. 】

I never thought I would travel abroad. For a rural girl who grew up from a small stone and picked up pig manure, this is a beautiful thing that can't be imagined after eight years of backwardness. But this kind of good luck has come true. At the end of 1997, I was invited by the Zhiyin magazine. In view of the fact that I wrote a certain amount and quantity of articles for the magazine, the magazine invited me to participate in the overseas pen meeting. At the moment I got the message, I was almost happy to faint.

On March 12th, at Shanghai Hongqiao Airport, a girl who was born and raised dragged a dark green suitcase, pinched the ticket and walked to the exit passage. The airport staff politely asked her to stay: "I'm sorry, miss, you haven't changed your boarding pass yet, didn't buy the airport construction fee. Change the boarding pass at the 21st window, the airport construction fee is there to buy -- "The staff waved her finger. And she has long been red-faced. She is like a criminal who is trying to get away with it and is caught in the shape. She rushes out of the team in a panic and nervous manner and drags her suitcase out.

that's me. I am flying for the first time. I am also a shameful person than Liu Weijin’s Grand View Garden. In the next few years, I flew almost all over the country's provincial capitals by plane, but I still remember the embarrassment I encountered at Hongqiao Airport for the first time. I always believe that the world is big and I am very small.

When I arrived at the designated hotel in Shenzhen, the authors invited by more than 20 "Zhiyin" magazines from all over the country had come together from all directions, and went to Hong Kong the next day and then flew to Thailand.

When I arrived in Shenzhen, another layer of self-esteem shrouded me. Among so many authors, only my identity is the humblest -- working girl. Other authors are either editors, journalists, judges, lawyers, writers, etc. Everyone has a decent career. When someone is chatting, what kind of school do you want to graduate with? What is the major? What work is done now and so on. Every question is so sharp to me.

Putting it now, working is not a humble and shameful identity. No education, no good self-esteem. But at the time, these problems were my fatal injuries. For my poor self-respect, I answered the people with a vanity: "I am a journalism major from Fudan University and now I work in an electronics company."

Let me recover a little bit of self-confidence. It is the affirmation of the writing level of the "Complete Editor" magazine. The editor-in-chief of Lei specially came to Wuhan from Wuhan to send us off. At the dinner party that night, Editor-in-Chief made a serious evaluation and sincere gratitude to each author. When it comes to me, Lei editors said in the national language with the northern dialect of the lake: "Zhao Meiping is the youngest of the author's pen meetings, but don't look at her young age. In the past few years, she has made a lot of contributions to the "Friends". The articles of large and small have been published in six or seven articles. This author is characterized by beautiful and elegant writing, romantic and touching stories, and good story writing. I hope that you will continue to support the "Friends" and continue to support Chen Qing... ..."

Sometimes, people's vanity is very easy to be satisfied. The words written by Lei are probably heard by others, but I am engraved in my heart.

Sometimes, people's self-confidence and inferiority may only come from the evaluation of others.

Of course, I am not as vain and inferior as I used to be. I will tell others boldly and boldly: I only graduated from a small country, I have been a quarrying woman, I have been on a plate, I have been a sewing woman... because I understand: People The reason why he lived heavily was because he pressed his heart to his heart; the reason why he lived inferiority was because he always looked at the shadow of the past in the light.

A long and happy holiday has begun. From Hong Kong to Thailand, what I saw and heard made me the village of Anhui from the countryside. What attracts me more than the beauty of the road is a chance to change my life.

The team leader of the "Zhiyin" magazine was the editor-in-chief of the editor-in-chief, Qian Qi and editor Hao Peiwen. When chatting in Hong Kong after a meal, the money director unintentionally revealed to the author who was eating at the same table: Because of the development needs, the "Friends" magazine should recruit journalists and editors nationwide, and the next issue of "Zhiyin" magazine will be Post a job posting.

My heart violently jumped, like a hammer hitting a hammer.

Editors, journalists, what a tempting career for me! But for a rural migrant girl who only graduated from a small country, it is a distant and whimsical dream! Now, this once-in-a-lifetime opportunity is in front of me. Why don't I catch it?

Looking back now, this miracle is bound to come. Because I have been ready to welcome it - if I am not born to like writing, if I did not write to "Friends", if I did not participate in the "Friends" pen meeting, if - if I am not a good at capturing opportunities People - then, even if the opportunity comes, I may not catch it in time! Everything is destined for the cause and effect in the dark!

Opportunities are only prepared for those who are prepared.

Opportunity, always looking around the corner of life, waiting for a pair of eyes to find it.

[After mailing the information, I prayed with enthusiasm and praying--the god of destiny, please pay attention to me! 】

Eight days later, I returned to Shanghai with a stack of beautiful photos and a wide open eye. When I moved back to Shanghai in Guangzhou, I couldn't wait to buy a book of the 4th issue of "The Music" in the book stalls at the airport, turning to the last page, and the exciting recruitment notice was printed. But I was discouraged as soon as I saw it. The seemingly simple three recruitment requirements, two of which are fatal to me.

Article 1: Bachelor degree or above.

Article 2: More than three years of relevant work experience.

Article 3: Published works of more than 100,000 words.

In these three requirements, the last one I can barely match. This door of hope is a threshold for me too high.

After returning to Shanghai, I spent several sleepless nights. Think about whether you should recommend yourself to the "Friends". Will the famous "Zhiyin" magazine, which is the most famous in the country, put a small national graduate in the eye? Will people see my resume, and then put it into the trash can, and at the same time sneak a sigh in the nose: What international jokes, national small culture also want to be a famous magazine editor, reporter? I want to eat swan meat...

The courage bulged and fell like a tide, falling and bulging.

Finally, I figured it out: no matter what the outcome, I have to try, I have to fight! If you don't even try to do it, what about the hope of success? Sometimes, the opportunity only gives you a glimpse of the door, the key is whether you have the courage to push it. Opportunity, sometimes it is a last bus that is no longer coming. If you don’t take it in time, you will regret it for life. Trying is simple, just courage.

So, I copied all my published works. Then the order is neatly arranged and sent to the editorial office of "Zhiyin" magazine by express mail. However, I did not write a resume. Not forgetting, but deliberately not writing. I hope that the leader of "Zhiyin" magazine will be moved by my article and ignore my academic qualifications. After the postal information, I prayed with pious prayers--the god of destiny, please pay attention to me!

Just as I silently prayed for the future destiny, I received a call from Shatin Red, the director of CCTV's "Half the Sky" program. She said that she saw the message "Working Girl Flying Out of the Country" published in "Xinmin Evening News". My, I want to ask me to do a show. It turned out that just as I flew to Hong Kong and Thailand to participate in the pen meeting, Xin Ming Evening’s correspondent Shen Mingkun wrote a newsletter to let all Shanghainese people know that there is a rural migrant girl who graduated only from a small country. Pen Teng, was invited by the famous "Zhiyin" magazine to travel abroad... After I returned to Shanghai, I realized that the word "Zhao Meiping" was almost a household name in Shanghai. I became the leader of the working group in Shanghai and became the so-called "celebrity".

Shabihong came to the door and said, she read the article I wrote in "Ziyin·Overseas Edition", "Working sisters are difficult to marry Shanghainese". She wants to use this article as the main line to shoot a group of working girls. Shanghai's hard work and emotional experience. I am the most important representative of a working girl.

On TV, and it is CCTV. Excited mood can be imagined.

When I was interviewed by Half the Sky, my destiny was also in the bland spring of 1998. Qian Wei, the director of the editorial office of "Zhiyin" magazine, called me to the interview. He said that the CEO appreciated the article I wrote. Among the thousands of applicants across the country, I am one of the few lucky ones to receive an interview notice. The money director asked me to fax my resume to the past. Among all the candidates, only I have no resume.

I tell the money director truthfully: "I don't have any resumes, I don't have a diploma. I only read the graduation of the national junior school. I wrote articles, all of which were self-taught and self-study." The director of the money seems very surprised, he is silent. After a while, then said: "Then you dictate your resume, I will help you write one! This is the program prescribed by the magazine, even if it is a national graduation."

So, by phone, I simply introduced my "CV" to the Director of Money: born on January 1, 1970, born in Jiangsu, graduated from the National Academy in 1983, stone from 1984 to 1989, August 1989 Working in Shanghai..."

Then, I asked the money director awkwardly: I have no diploma, is there hope?

Director Qian sighed: "This is not known. All candidates are better than you. The lowest degree is also graduated from university Chinese or undergraduate. If you can be hired, it depends on your luck! April 14 At 9:00 in the interview at the Zhiyin Building, you will come on time! Yes, in this group of applicants, you are the farthest. We informed the other people in the interview that they are basically in Hubei."

The heart is hung up. Can a miracle happen?

At that time, from Shanghai to Wuhan, the train took about twenty hours. I decided to fly to apply. Moreover, I also made a bold decision - resign! My biggest dream is writing. Now I have a perfect opportunity to be in front of me. I will not give up. Now I want to come, how good my courage and determination at that time.

[There are many editors, journalists, and writers from colleges and universities in the world. However, there are several editors, journalists, and writers in the world who have only graduated from elementary school, stoned, crossed plates, and worked as sewing workers. I will do that one! Be the one that is unique! 】

On April 12, 1998, it was a light spring day. On this day, I wore a white shirt, jeans, navy blue jacket, and a white collar turned out from the inside. It was simple and elegant, clean and neat, and the meticulous short hair made me look good. I am very satisfied with my appearance.

This day is the day I went to Wuhan for a interview with the magazine. Director Sha Bihong knew that I was going to Wuhan for an interview. She encouraged me to say: "Xiao Zhao, if you apply for this time, we will shoot you to leave Shanghai and work in Wuhan. This is a perfect ending. You It is excellent and will succeed!"

I finally stood outside the famous "Friends" building. The temple in my heart, it turned out to be just a normal 15-storey building. If it wasn’t the bronze medal of the "Zhiyin Magazine" hanging on the outer wall of the gate, it would not be possible to see that it was famous at home and abroad. More than 2.8 million "Zhiyin" editorial department.

The tense moment is coming. The candidates who came to the interview have already gathered in the hall downstairs. The interview site is located in the conference room on the second floor. It is the examination room of my life. Success or failure is here!

At 9 o'clock on the morning of the 14th, the editor-in-chief of "Zhiyin" magazine, president Hu Xunzhen, deputy editor-in-chief Lei Da, deputy director Zhou Wushui, director of the editorial department Guan Guan, overseas editorial director Zhang Yizhen, editor-in-chief Director Qian Wei, and several other examiners were admitted. I usually only see their familiar names in magazines. They are all celebrities in the journal industry. Now they are face-to-face, and they are job-seeking exams with a promising future. It is inevitable that they are nervous.

About 20 people participated in the interview, the first test was taken, and each person only had 5 minutes to speak. The oral test officially began. The first person to introduce himself is a young professor at a university. The foreign language is quite good. He has written numerous manuscripts for the "People's Overseas Edition". The second is a reporter of a newspaper, with rich work experience; Is a graduate of the Chinese Department of Wuhan University...

My scalp is slowly numb. The confidence accumulated in the original, slowly leaked as the other applicants talked about. What kind of expression should I use to behave differently, so that these serious examiners can look at my working girl who graduated from a small country?

The sycamores outside the window are lush and vibrant. The sun is like a warm hand. It gently combs the leaves of the phoenix tree, and transmits its light and heat to each leaf that has just awakened, like a kind mother. At this moment, I suddenly remembered the mother who had not been in contact for a long time, remembered the poor family, remembered to look for the high school students in the village to borrow books, and remembered the days of writing under the lights in the Shanghai cabin... bit by bit, through time and space. , whistling...

I know how to introduce myself. I have confidence in myself. I am different. There are many editors, journalists, and writers from colleges and universities in the world. However, there are several editors, journalists, and writers in the world who have only graduated from elementary school, stoned, crossed plates, and worked as sewing workers. I will do that one! Be the one that is unique! Diploma is the wealth of others! And suffering is my wealth! It is my university!

It’s my turn to introduce myself. I stood up and took a deep breath. This is a crucial moment, so be sure to grasp it!

"I listened to other people's self-reports, a little inferiority, because I only read the national graduation..." The first sentence has an effect. All the examiners looked up from the information in front of them and looked at me with some surprise. . I was encouraged and my tongue became clear. I first told a little story about "sentimentality": "In our village, it is not easy to see a good book. There is a high school student in the village. He has collected a box of books and magazines. Every time, I can only Looking for him to borrow one, in his little wooden box, I found the "Friends"... "The beginning of the lyrics will attract the examiners tightly. Then, I turned my head and talked about my own experience--from a young age to a poor family, I only went to school after I graduated from school, and dropped out of school to support my family. When I was 19, I went to work in Shanghai, and I taught myself to work while I was working. So far, I have published more than 100,000 words of documentary works and novels...

Finally, I said: "Although I have not gone to college, but the society is also a university, my experience is a wealth that no one else can, and it will benefit me in my future work and life. I request "Friends" gave me a chance to prove my potential. Because suffering is my university!" After finishing, I found that the eyes of the examiners were concentrated on me, and I was not nervous. My eyes passed over the leaves of the phoenix tree outside the window. They swayed gently in the wind, as if they were praise and blessing to me.

Next is the written test, test our understanding or suggestion to the magazine, and edit an article on the spot. I have written more than 2,000 words on my own understanding of the style and style of "Zhiyin" over the years. The article was edited very smoothly.

The exam is over and the feedback is coming soon. The director of the money quietly told me that the leader of "Zhiyin" had a deep impression on me, and Hu always had to meet me once.

At that moment, I almost heard the sound of flowers!

At 2:30 in the afternoon, the magazine went to work. I came to the office of Hu on the fourth floor on time. Mr. Hu, who is a charity, asked me a few simple questions about my family affairs and my working experience. I answered them one by one. I seized the opportunity to assure Hu: "If "Friends" can give me this opportunity, I will not disappoint you. Although I don't have a hard diploma, the wealth of suffering is never in my life. Because of this wealth, I will know life better than others, know life better, and understand human nature and humanity... "I don't know if Hu is impressed by me. He just calmly told me that the admission or not must also be decided by the editorial board.

I have won it, I have worked hard, success or not, it is God's decision! At least, I am already at ease. On the third day after the exam, I flew back to Shanghai.

After returning to Shanghai, I contacted Sha Bihong in time. She asked me how to take the test on the phone. How confident is it. I told her with confidence: "There should be 80% confidence! Intuition." They are also waiting for me to wait for the miracle to happen.

Three days later, the good news came from "Zhiyin" magazine, I was accepted! And you can report to work at any time! An anecdote in the journal world was born - a small national graduate, a quarry girl, a working girl, and turned into an editor and journalist of a famous journal! In the Chinese journal industry, this is unprecedented.

I am not too excited. I should be successful. I believe in myself.

On April 28th, I came to Hongqiao Airport again with simple luggage. This time, I have to leave this city where I have tolerated me too much sweat and tears. Lu Lanting, a teacher from Shanghai People’s Broadcasting Station, came. The reporter of Xinmin Evening News came. Mao Mao came and the brothers and sisters who came to work came. They brought books, brought flowers, brought hugs and tears... ... obviously going to a place full of ideals and hopes, but why do I burst into tears? --I have poured too much affection on this city. I love and hate this city. I am reluctant to leave my brothers and sisters who are sick with me! Can finally leave. I shed tears and said goodbye to the scene in Shanghai, and I was taken into the scene by the "Half the Sky" program.

I left Shanghai, which has lived for 9 years, and left the city that made me love and hate. Just like when I left my hometown, I left it again and again. Looking back at Shanghai, which has been fighting for 9 years, I can’t help but tears...

At the age of 28, I began to climb another peak in my life.