Can be slow, but can't stop

When I was a sophomore, I was assigned to a freshman class to help the counselor.

I first noticed the school girl because of the new Mid-Autumn Festival party. She went to the podium and said very hard: "My name is XX, from Huining, Gansu. I am very happy to come to college, but I am quite homesick..."

At that time, she was slightly fat, her face was yellowish, her hair was short, she was wearing glasses, and her affection was somewhat unnatural. When she finished, she voluntarily concealed into the corner.

I faintly think that she is different from other students. Seeing her look sad, could not help but stop her, let her go to the dormitory with me to talk.

On that day, the school girl told me that she had four children in her family. Her parents were honest and honest. They lived diligently for a lifetime, planting land, working, sheep, feeding pigs, and feeding them. My sister is married, my sister is in college, and my brother is rising. She is the one who is not in favor of going to college. Her parents are getting old. I want to stay with her, graduate, find a safe job, and I can always look after it. Home. But Xuemei didn't want to live like that for a lifetime. She wanted to see the world outside.

The tuition that the father could not support was an obstacle to her long-distance, but she did not compromise. In the summer before school, Xuemei has been working in the hotel to earn money. Ten hours a day, serving, withdrawing the table, greeting the guests, busy with darkness.

She pointed to the few places where the palms had just been knotted and said to me: "The end plate also grinds the palms. When I just bubbled out, I took the needle and broke it. The water inside came out, and the meat touched the air very painfully. ""

In two months, I earned 4,500 yuan. She did not have a day off, and another person took the admission notice to the Education Bureau to apply for a student loan. She took a sigh of relief and wanted to go out and see, even if she had a look.

But in the first month of school, the school girl was a little confused. She feels that she is somewhat out of touch with the world around her. She didn't know the clothing and cosmetics brands that the dormitory girl said, and she didn't know the latest hottest games and anime. She didn't know how to integrate it.

I listened to the story of the school girl, some moved, found paper and pen, and said to her: "You write what you want to do, realize them one by one. Remember, don't follow others, the most important thing is to find Your own rhythm."

She started writing on my desk and said to me: "Sister, I have to get scholarships, earn living expenses, buy computers, and insist on writing things during college." I looked at her and smiled, knowing she already A lot better.

In order to realize what I want to do, the life of Xuemei began to get busy. I went to work part-time on Saturday and Sunday, worked as a tutor, sent flyers, and worked as a salesman. Once I met her on the way to the cafeteria, she was darker and thinner than when she was enrolled, but she had a more calm face.

The time spent in college is very fast, and the midterm exam is coming soon. Her grades ranked in the top three of the grade, and she successfully applied for the national scholarship of the year.

See her before the winter vacation, she has contacted a Korean barbecue restaurant to be a waiter. She smiled and said to me: "The winter vacation is quite long. I want to make some money, buy something for my parents and my brother and sister and go home."

I know that I can never understand the life of a school girl. She comes from the poorest counties in the country. She needs to pay tuition and living expenses. After going home, she has to help her family to work, wash and cook, feed the sheep, and sprinkle the yard. But for the hard work of life, she never complains, just saying that she can finally eat her own food, she wants to make her family's life better.

Later, I went to Beijing for an internship, gradually losing the message of the school girl, and occasionally going back to school to see her again. She has become better and better, although she is thinner, but she looks good and looks good. I am happy for her.

She said: "Sister, I will go to a real estate company for an internship in the last year of the university."

I have some doubts and ask: "Do you want to be a reporter?"

Her eyes were reddish and stopped for a while, saying: "The situation at home is not very good. Some borrowers need to pay back. Brothers and sisters also need to spend money. I want to go to the real estate company to make some money and help the family. Do my duty, then Think of yourself."

My heart is slightly sour, and some hurt her. My school girl is almost the same age as me, but she can't indulge in chasing what she wants in the best years. Dreams are an expensive luxury for her.

I have no position to deny her choice and can only lend a helping hand when she needs it.

At the end of 2019, the school girl suddenly called me. She said excitedly: "Sister, I finally saved enough money, and paid off more than 30,000 foreign debts and student loans at home. I also can afford the living expenses of my younger siblings. I decided to resign and look for news related next year. Work. Sister, can you recommend me the direction of work?"

I am more happy than she heard this message. This money is not a small amount for the newly graduated school girl. How many classes did she add, how much did she fight to do it? !

We met a little girl before going home. I was surprised to see her from the station. That day, the school girl wore a milky feathered cotton coat, her hair was already tied up, very spirited, smiling, and when she got out of the station, she hugged me. We talked very late that day and only slept in the early hours of the morning. She lay beside me and slept so well. Perhaps, because she knows that she has the ability to not fear the future.

In a few days, I received a call from the school girl. She said that going to the newspaper internship had to push back. "Mother's knee is injured, strained, probably requires surgery, and needs someone to take care of it. My brother will need my counseling for a period of time next year."

I listened to her and said that she was a little uncomfortable. The school girl also has her own life to live! She said to me naturally: "Sister, I will be able to do what I want to do in half a year. Do you know how much I envy you? You want to go to Tibet and try to earn enough tolls, but I Also consider the life of the next semester; you want to go to Beijing to do magazines, even the internship recommended by the teacher can be pushed off, immediately rushed to Beijing, I have to think about the home internship. But I don't care about you at all, because I I know that as long as I work hard, I can be like you in the days to come."

She said that I was in tears, crying through time and space.

The wind and sand in the northwest blew through her dry family, but gave her a rich and tenacious spirit, and the hardships she experienced had made her strong and independent.

The background of the family will not hinder the extent of your efforts. Your own appearance cannot determine your determination to become better. As long as you are willing to work hard, there is always a way to reach the distance you want to go and become the one you want to be.

I know that school girls will get better and better.