Corrupted life, cheap dreams

I thought for a long time and said that dreams are probably something that is not affected by reality and is not bound by life.

When I first entered the university, I fell into a deep confusion for a while. I don’t know what I can do in the future. I am not sure where my strength lies. I am not confident whether I can be in a society where competition is so great. Survival, even, I don't know what it means to be alive.

In that dark day, I always feel that life is tormenting myself all the time, there is no place to be angry, there is no place to dream, dreams are so worthless in the face of reality, and I am just so big. A particle in the world has always been the most inconspicuous one in the crowd.

I once felt that I was going to finish, because I was no doubt a walking dead, no thoughts, no ideals, and I was complaining about vomiting and cynicism everywhere. I couldn’t see where the future is, but every minute. The second is eroded by self-righteous social darkness and cruel reality.

This is a tragedy of life, this is a terrible confusion. I don't know if you have had such confusion. Anyway, I used to live in such a degenerate reality, live a life that is increasingly corrupted, and occasionally look up and find that there are cheap dreams everywhere.

So, for a long time, I closed myself up, naively thinking that as long as I don’t face reality, reality will not find the door, then I will do whatever I want in my own world, and indulge myself day and night. Endless desires.

Fortunately, during that time, I had the habit of reading and writing. In my lonely world, I read lonely books, wrote lonely words, and felt my growing loneliness. In many lonely places. In the sleepless night, I began to think about the future of life, and gradually grew step by step.

Having said that, I want to ask, what about you?

Is there a day when you walk on a familiar street and suddenly have a strange feeling, you take a closer look at what is happening around you, everything has changed, you become no longer aware, and you are no longer familiar. The daughter of the street shop owner has already gone to the middle of the country; the couple who quarreled in the house next door have already broken up, and they have their own things, and they are well-prepared. Wang Laozi, who drinks morning tea at the street snack bar every day, has been peaceful last month. The land went away; even the little gangster Amin, who often bullied the neighborhood, disappeared. I heard that he has found his job now and began to live with peace of mind.

You suddenly found out that everything was changing. The only thing that didn't change was that you still lived in the dilapidated rental house. You can live with the low wages that can barely maintain your life. Get up every day, go to work, eat, get off work, Sleeping, passing the rental house to the company two points and one line and then ordinary days.

Don't worry about the mortgage period, because you live in a rental house; don't talk about office disputes, because you are just a common grassroots; don't worry about marriage, because you haven't found a girlfriend yet; even, you don't have a family burden. Because your salary has just barely made up for yourself, and there is still money to send it home.

Yes, life has finally smoothed your edges and corners. The reality has finally exhausted your enthusiasm. You finally admit defeat, because in these years, dreams have become cheaper and cheaper in the face of reality.

You once said that you want to buy a big house, but now you can only be wronged in a tattered rental house of less than 50 square meters, and the landlord is reminded of rent every month.

You also said that you have to buy a luxury car in the future, but now you can only go to work every day to get on the bus, get off work and MRT, and the only car you buy is the broken bicycle that has been riding for three years but can't lose heart.

You even said that you have to work hard, in order to let your parents live a good life, now you can only hold the salary that you can barely maintain your life. Every month, your parents call you, you must wear it. Ok, drink well, be nice to yourself, everything is fine at home. In fact, only you know that your parents say it just to prevent you from worrying about your family, and you have promised to give your parents a good life. Days, is this the way every month your parents call to greet you to have enough? Are you warm? Are you still okay?

Once upon a time, you portrayed your dreams into the sea, but nowadays, you are staying in your own ruined rental house because of a little setback. No one wants to see, hide in their own world, The dreams and enthusiasm are wet, and the fallen reality is corrupted and becomes a walking dead. Then, when you come out one day, you discover that everything is changing, only you are still groaning in place.

There are millions of roads in this world, but you have chosen this one.

Life is sometimes ridiculous, and we are even more ridiculous, shouting in the mouth, youth, love, dreams, struggle, distance, so full of young words, but at the same time, say goodbye to these beautiful. While sighing the unfairness of reality, the other side is not willing to scream and struggle. Is this really unwilling, or has it been dismissed to reality?

Obviously, I have a good youth, but I have already recognized myself. It is only in his early 20s and 30s that he is already in the past, but he is already relishing the past and lamenting that the years are ruthless.

Just ask, what is the meaning of your life? Just ask, is your youth so used by you to ruin, used to seduce the world?

Don't talk to me about confusion. It seems that I am not confused. In fact, we are all the same, young and awkward. We always have more arrogance about reality and less hope for the future. Whenever we can't do anything, we always like to let it go. In fact, we are using these despicable excuses to escape the reality.

Many times, not life corrupts you, but you are voluntarily ruined; not reality is too cruel, but you dare not face failure; not your dreams become cheap, but you are self-destructive.

In the days when I was confused, I often think about a problem. I can't fight for the second generation of the second generation of the rich family. I can't beat the 985. I can't beat the seniors. So, what else can I do? Lost to someone else?

Yeah, what else can I lose to others? No, nothing is lost, I can lose to others, I lose, then what else do I have to fear? Then what else do I have to doubt? Can be compared, have been compared, then, only to win the dream and destiny.

So far, I am still very fortunate to have that lost day, because on those lonely days, I can finally talk to my heart face to face, then think about it, then go to the sentiment, let myself once again get out of the confusion of life, let yourself Have the courage to fight against the cruel reality before the full surrender, regardless of the outcome, at least prove that he is a warrior.

Some people may ask, if you work hard, your dreams will be realized. If you can't, then why bother yourself?

Here, what I want to tell you is that if you work hard, your dreams may not be realized, but if you don't work hard, don't think that you will succeed. If you don't work hard for your dreams now, then you can only work for the dreams of others.

So, when you have not completely lost your enthusiasm, put on your armor armor, carry your dream sword, say goodbye to corrupt life, say goodbye to the fallen reality, and then go all out to defend your dreams with fate. duel.