My reading career

Seeing that there are such good reading conditions now: there are a large number of books in the library and bookstores that can be selected for reading. The average family has a study, a collection of books, sitting in front of the computer without leaving the house, and free to browse a variety of books. The main thing is that people have a lot of time and can freely make full use of it. I am really envious.

The predicament of my youth reading is something that modern people can't imagine. Everywhere is an endless class struggle, no day and night "hard work", and it is very difficult to sit down and read seriously. Especially after the "Cultural Revolution", there are many books that are readable. Even so, I still sneak up and do everything possible to borrow all the readable books from my classmates, relatives and friends, like hungry wolves, hungry and hungry, and eager to read books. Now, in retrospect, bitter and sad.

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In the late 1950s, after I joined the work, in order to do more reading, the method I took was: small space, small use, big time, and the whole period of time. What is "small space use"? Like all working-class people, I also have a money clip that I carry with me, plastic rolling, although the money is small, but mainly to save a small book. Small books are idioms and words excerpted from the front.

Every other day, I will extract ten or so idioms from the Chinese Idiom Dictionary, starting with "one": one knife and two broken, one wood difficult to support, one day three autumn ------ another copy of a reading middle school The new vocabulary to the slogan: smashing the sea, smashing the red dust, peach color, and smiling. This small book is specially used in the morning, on the way to work, the mind is clear, energetic and full, I I don't want to waste this precious time, while walking and memorizing, half an hour a day, I am very productive.

This is a small space. At that time, "class struggles are spoken every day, and every month, every year," is not just a slogan. All kinds of people's movements, large and small, are full of all the work breaks. “Listening to the big report” is the most daily activity, and I have identified this time as an opportunity for “big and big use”. Why? A report is as short as an hour or two, and an extra two or three hours. The leader is rushing to make a big report on the stage. Isn’t it a good opportunity to study and study?

At this time, I always hold a magazine in my hand. I remember that the most read at that time was "Sprout" and "Literature Learning". When I was a little free, I read a paragraph. There is also the small book that I carry with me. The opposite of it is the ancient poetry and ancient essays I extracted. Although I also learned a little bit in the middle school era, because I was thinking about taking the exam, I borrowed a full set of "high school language" textbooks from my classmates.

I found that the most basic, most classic, and most worthwhile learning in the world is still in student textbooks. Beginning with the first volume, the ancient poems are copied from the first and the first paragraphs, such as "Cao Yu's Controversy" and "Afang Palace Fu", like "moving the boat and smoking the smoke, the new customers are new" and "Li Bai boating" I want to do it, and I hear the sound of singing on the shore." It was all time to learn to listen to the "big report."

This small book is so small that it is not easy to be discovered in the hands. When the leader screams on the podium and publishes "new trends in class struggle" and "one hundred days of hard work", I take a small book below and still recite it. : "Qi Shi cut me, the generals will fight. Cao Yu please see. The people in the township 曰 ------" When the time is not met, secretly look at the small books, and then continue to recite: "It is gram, publicly ask Therefore, confrontation: 'War fight, courage is also. Drum, and then decline, exhausted -----". After listening to the two-hour report, my ancient text was silently recorded in my heart. Are these abnormal, sneaky behaviors not found out? Therefore, I am very cautious, and if I am seen by my colleagues around me, I will simply pass a sentence and pass. There are also times when perfunctory. I remember once in the auditorium of the unit, I listened to the report of the party secretary, and happened to sit next to the sister of the department of finance. I know that she participated in the revolution at the age of fifteen or six, participated in the liberation war, and was a propagandist of the army. Later, the anti-US aid dynasty was a member of the cultural and art troupe. After returning to China, she went to the railway college to study. After coming to the unit, she was also the "Mao Zedong Thought Propaganda Team." Captain. Unfortunately, this time I took out a small book and peeked at it. She found it. She glanced at me and put a hand out to my eyes. The meaning was very clear: I didn’t want to see it, I had to sneak it. Handed over. She also covered her hand and sneaked it over for a while. After she finished, she handed it to me, smiled softly, and stretched out the thumb.

After many years, Zhuang’s sister was very polite to me, and because I often made small articles in corporate and local newspapers and magazines, she occasionally saw me, and she would talk bluntly about which article, which article was written well, which article The article is too sloppy, and should be developed in that direction. She is not only sharp-eyed, but also quotes classics and speaks three words and five words, which makes me profitable and flattered. When I was moved, I thought: When can I read a lot of books like Zhuangjie, and she has a level of ideological understanding, and the level of her work can certainly be improved.

In fact, I don’t understand. Zhuang’s experience with the army’s southern expedition to the North is something I can’t learn forever. I am very respectful to Zhuang Jie and have become friends since the years. As for the whole period of the whole period, it is to sleep at night every night, quiet in the night, reading under the lamp, some of the works of the big head can be smashed one by one. I remember reading dozens of Chinese and foreign famous books such as Midnight, Red and Black, and How Steel is Made. It is a pity that there was no room for choice at that time. It was mostly to find what to read, so it was very mixed and there was no system.

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Every time I read a good book or a good work, I will seriously write down the "reading notes." I only remember that the reading notes at that time were particularly fine. Take Lu Xun’s Blessing as an example. I will first write out the outline of the whole work.

The first paragraph, the atmosphere of the New Year's Eve in Lu Town, the hometown, expresses the unpleasant feelings of the author; encounters Xianglin's scene and dialogue with him; hears the sudden death of Xianglin's message. The second paragraph describes the scene of Xianglin’s first visit to Lu’s family. She is young and capable and can be recognized by the host family. However, she was then taken away by her family. In the third paragraph, after Xiang Linyi was taken back to his husband's family, he was forced to marry the He Laoliu in the mountains. The husband's family made a small fortune. Xianglin gave birth to a lovely son, which seemed to be perfect. The fourth paragraph is also the main length of the full text. Xianglin, who was full of happiness, the man suddenly died, his son was eaten by the wolf in the mountain, and the house was taken back by the uncle. Xianglin, who had no livelihood, had to return to the four masters of Luzhen; but for several years The torture, Xiang Linyi became stupid, no longer welcomed by the host. Gradually, her lost husband became a slap in the face of people making fun of her. The fifth paragraph, the end. Lunzhen ushered in another year's New Year's Eve with the continuous sound of firecrackers and snow flakes.

Why should my "reading notes" tell the whole story in detail? This has several advantages: First, it can revisit and memorize the synopsis of the novel, the main characters; Second, can clearly see how the plots that make up the story are closely linked, how does the author develop the storyline step by step? Is it straightforward? Where is the narrative and flashback? Third, where is the whole story flat? Where is the bedding? Where is the climax? How does the author arrange "the literary and noble", embodying the iron law of "the text looks like the mountain is not happy". In addition, I would like to excerpt a few paragraphs of the wonderful sentences in this article, such as the description of the image, the incisive discussion, is there any reference to the text? Are there any words? ------ These are the things that should be mastered when reading each book. Or take "Blessing" as an example. I remember that I copied the different images that appeared in Xianglin's three times: ------The head is tied with white-headed rope, black skirt, blue folder, moon white vest, about twenty-six seven years old. The face is blue and yellow, but the two clips are still red. ------ Five years ago, the white hair, now that it has been completely white, is not like the people above forty; the face is thin and unbearable, the yellow is black, and the previous sad look is exhausted, as if Woodcut; only the eyeball or round, can also indicate that she is a living thing. ------The head is tied with a white-headed rope, a black skirt, a blue folder, a white vest, and the face is blue and yellow. It’s just that the cheeks have disappeared from the blood, and along the eyes, there are some tear marks on the corners of the eyes. That's the spirit.

I also copied a paragraph of "gossip", which seems to be close to the old, but it is very exciting, and it plays a role of connecting up and down: ------ In the gloomy snow, in the boring study, this uneasiness is getting stronger It is. It’s better to go, go to the city tomorrow. Fuxing House's clear stewed shark's fin, a large plate, a good price, now I do not know the price increase? Friends who traveled in the past, although they have been scattered, but shark fins are indispensable to eat, even if only one of me ------. Anyway, I will decide to leave tomorrow. My "reading notes" have not seen precedents, no one has advised them, so there is no fixed rule. Dafan is the outline of the story, the characters are divided, the understanding is understood, and the words are excerpted. All the books I have read carefully, those who have touched me, and the more excellent prose and short stories should all enter my notes. Looking back on many years later, I deeply feel that the "reading notes" for me to understand and understand literature, the ability to set foot on the threshold of the literary hall is enormous.

Not all books I have read are “notes”. For those works that do not need to be intensively read and can only be read in general, there is no need to “note”. To be honest, for the long novels, they don’t have the ability to control themselves, so they don’t have much energy and ink.

three

Speaking of the book life at that time, I can't help but say Lin girl, can't help but tell me the story of Lin and Lin. There is a “Worker Culture Palace” in the city. There is a library on the third floor of the Cultural Palace. The outside is a newspaper and magazine reading.

There is an old and a small administrator in the library, and the little one is Lin. Her skin is white, quiet and dignified, wearing a pair of short-sighted glasses, tied with two slender little scorpions, looking at her like a high school student, giving a serene, pure feeling, making people feel kind, Make it easy to get close. The reading room is always very quiet, perhaps because of the working environment, she has always been quiet and whispering very gentle. Because I often borrow books, at least once a week, so there are more and more opportunities to see her opportunities, listen to her and talk to them. After a long time, I gradually got to know each other. When I came to a new book, she would recommend it to me. Sometimes I would exchange some opinions after reading.

She often refers to Maupassant, Chekhov, Lao She, Ba Jin ------ to their works, compared with them, the evaluation is short. At this time, we will have a lot of topics to talk about, her high talk often makes me secretly admire, marveling that she can hold so much knowledge in this small head. I smiled and teased her: "You are in such a big treasure house, delicious and delicious, and the stomach is naturally rich ------" She is not angry, just smiles. Once I went to borrow a book, I dared to know that she was lying on the table and saw me coming in. She got up and opened the small door next to the bookcase and said, "Come in, just come to a new book, you can pick it." I have been coming and going for many years, but I am able to go through the library and read it freely. It is not the treatment that ordinary readers can enjoy. I am really flattered.

Standing in this environment for the first time, there are tall bookcases on all sides, filled with famous works of ancient and modern China and foreign countries. I am in the sea of ​​cultural knowledge, breathing the fragrance of books, surrounded by my revered Lu Xun and Mao Dun , Ba Jin, Tolstoy, Balzac ------ all the masterpieces of these famous people, these are the giants of history, their works are supreme and eternal in the world literary world, think of here Suddenly, I was a little excited in my heart. Standing in front of these giant literary giants, I felt how small I was. I really fantasize that I can swallow their works in one's own breath, or I can not eat or drink water. Don't sleep, never stop reading all these books in one place, how good, how happy! ------Lin Lin looked at me and said, "What do you want?" I told her these thoughts, she was so happy with a grin, and I was embarrassed to laugh.

She said to me: "No one can read the books of the world, and there must be plans for reading. In the face of such a large library, there is no plan to confuse and read indiscriminately. "I asked her: "How is a plan?" She said: "I suggest that you read "History of Chinese Literature" first, have a general understanding of the history of Chinese literature for thousands of years, and then according to your own preferences and Ability, list a book, so that there are plans, steps, and purposeful selection of books, is the most reasonable and scientific reading method ------" After thinking for a while she said: "Look at you two I often borrow books from the year, knowing that you like short stories and essays. You can book a plan, first, modern and contemporary short stories, essays, such as Lu Xun, Mao Dun, Ba Jin, Bing Xin, and some foreigners. For example, Maupassant, Chekhov ------ second, 'Ming and Qing dynasty' vernacular short story, it is a peak of short stories in the history of Chinese literature, can not be read; third, "Gu Wen Guan Zhi" contains the history of China Excellent prose, you can't read it.

Book a three-year plan, focus on these books in three or more years, and you will take a big step forward ------" I listened to only the nod, and really admire Her knowledge and clarity are clear, and she feels that she can't be more acquainted with this place. It may be said that she is tired. She used her right hand to pick up the cup on the table and smashed it. One bit, hesitating a little, said to me: "You come with a bite! However, you can only use the left hand cup. "My heart will take the lead, use the left hand to end the cup, "咕咚" took a sip. I want to make a joke with her, exchange the cup to the right hand, lift it to the lips, just touch it, and let it go down. She looks in her eyes, With anger, then I will smile: "You are really bad! Soon, the "Cultural Revolution" began. This evening, I went to the Cultural Palace Library to change books. Before I came close to the door, I heard the noise of the people in the courtyard, and the loudspeakers continued to send out harsh slogans. The voice, a bunch of young men with red armbands, all in the arms and shoulders are all bundles of books. The Red Guards "broken four old" is coming, what is the Workers’ Culture Palace Library? "Four old"? All the new books were published in the 17 years after the founding of the People's Republic of China, but the "Cultural Revolution" completely negated these seventeen years. Everything became "the ghost of the gods" and "the four olds." A stack of books piled up on the Lantern Stadium, and after the fire, the raging fire rushed out. In the face of this situation, I am really a pity and indignation, can not express, only I can watch the fire from a distance and turn around behind the crowd.

At this time, in the distant row of the law tree, a familiar figure reflected in my sight, she, Lin girl! I saw that she stood alone in the darkness, and suddenly and under the blazing fire, I saw her glasses under the lens, and the two lines of tears continued to squat down.

I know that these thousands of books, each with her handwriting, her heart, watching this sly baby ruthlessly paying a torch, she can not feel bad and not resent! Slowly approaching her, I know that it is useless to say anything at this time. I can’t express my feelings when I say something. I can’t comfort her when I say something. I can’t explain this fascist atrocity. I am silent. Handed her a handkerchief, then licked her sleeve and left the Palace of Culture.

Later, I squatted downstairs in the library more than once. I also dreamed of continuing to implement the "three-year plan" that Lin girl helped me to make. However, the library is gone, I have no books to read! On the road leading to the Palace of Culture, looking at the gray black hole building, I thought to myself: This library, which is not too big, gave me a lot of spiritual nutrition! She has nurtured a lot of young students like me who are not deeply involved! But today, the lovely library is gone! The venerable Lin girl is gone!