Believe in yourself, the sun is always after the storm

Believe in yourself, the sun is always after the storm

I just came back from a business trip in Kunshan. After experiencing the adjustment period, let me slowly recover. In Kunshan, I feel very tired, whether it is from the mind or the body. I feel that I am changing and letting myself take on something that is difficult to accept. Looking back at 2008 as a whole, like the developing country, there have been all kinds of extraordinary things. I think that 2008 is a turning point for me, and it is also my life year. Sometimes I want to accomplish nothing in my life. Even if I have to do what I want to do, I will do what I am doing, and I am still not clear about what I am good at, and I will work out.
Sometimes when I face this society, I am very passive. I passively accept the various things that the society brings to me until I know it, or I am forced to know the society. Once upon a time, I was still a ignorant Xiaoxi. I was still doing my postgraduate dreams. But all this has passed. I will face a new life, or the work I will be doing in my life. It will change me a lot, make my ideas clear, let my thoughts begin to mature, and be divergent. . I think I found the more happy job I am doing now, no matter what happens in the future, I will do my best to do everything.
I still remember the eighth day of the year, I want to get rid of the shackles of 2007. I am going to go to Shenzhen to find a job. After I contacted a high school student, I specially chose a good day. The eighth day, regardless of the train ticket is the station ticket. No matter how many people are going to Guangdong on this day, I have no hesitation. I am going to find my own job. After a year of training in 2007, I found out that I should go there and how should I do it. After the hard squeeze on the train, I found that there were too many people going to Shenzhen to pan for gold, and I thought, what will happen when I go, I don’t dare to think, I don’t have to think about it, I don’t think it’s perfect. The road, I am full of blood to do, God will always give me an account.
After 18 hours of pain, I finally felt Shenzhen. At about 6 am, I called my classmates. I haven’t gotten up yet, so I will come over and pick me up before he goes to work. I stood next to the Baoan bus station. No one knows it. No way. I haven’t eaten since I got on the train until Shenzhen. I’m not hungry. I’m going to find the aunt who is sweeping the floor, how can I have McDonald’s, huh? . At McDonald's, I have a cup of coffee and a burger. It will be about 30 pieces. This is the first meal I have eaten in Shenzhen. Although I have not stayed in Shenzhen for a few days, the impression left in my memory is too deep. In Shenzhen talent market, in Guanlan, in Baoan, in Futian, in Huaqiang North, in the window of the world in Shenzhen, in short, I am right. The impression of Shenzhen is that it is too cold. It is a fast-consuming city. You may be eliminated if you are not careful. It is a big pressure. I still want to thank my high school classmates here. I helped when I was very upset. I am a hand. I wanted to show my skills in Shenzhen. Oh, who knows, the peaks and turns, the boss of Tianjin company gave me a call, my former master also urged me, or my heart is not strong enough, they were tempted to go back. Now think about it. On the one hand, I am looking for a job in Shenzhen for 5 days. On the other hand, I feel very lonely in Shenzhen. I admit that I can’t keep my lonely person. When I return to Tianjin, I will see familiar faces and do it. With familiar things and a step-by-step life, I lived in Tianjin for another month. There are many things happening in it. In 2008, it was destined to be an important year in my life.
Just want to write, I remembered, a famous article of Kafka, called "Transformation." The protagonist, after a day of work, found himself into a beetle, no one knew no one to take care of. When I got home from Tianjin, how do I say that as a rural person, there is always some self-confidence, feeling that no job is like a clown, and everyone who sees a low three points, I suspect that living in this world is for others. The face is alive, there is no work, and my heart seems to have no heart. Walking on the street, no one knows you, you walked away, and you saw the familiar classmates, you can't do it, ridiculous.
I remember that at the end of 2006, at the end of the New Year, I was with my relatives. A relative said that I had a fart at the university, and I was going to sell pork. At that time, I was the only useless college student. I was angry and managed. Whether he is an elder or not, argue with him. But when people asked me how much I got in a month, I said that I had 1500 and I would go up. Later I went back to Tianjin. It was going up, from 800 to a thousand, facing the eyes of my parents’ charity. Facing their expectations of me, I felt like a jumper, even though I told a Tianjin company leader that I was sorry for my parents. But I finally left the Tianjin company. Although some customers said that they can cooperate with me, I don't want to stay in a company that is not trustworthy. I think that with my strength, I still have no problem finding a job. After that, I returned home from Tianjin and moved from Xiamen to Xiamen.
The pain is still not over, waiting for me is endless expectations and disappointment. During the time spent in Xiamen, there was nothing else to do except to study international trade and English. There are job fairs every day, go to the job fair, stay in the rented room without a job fair, read a book, read the book, go back and forth, sometimes learn Zhou Xingchi to look in the mirror, see what is going on, my Is the face a blessed life, hehe! I found that my face is good, the shape of the national character face is quite righteous, and should not be a person who can't find a job. It’s 20 days, but fortunately, my good friend, the book is accompanying me, sometimes I will go to the big bookstore in Lotus, and see! I am very boring, except for reading books. From April to April 28, there are also companies looking for me to interview, some don't want to go, some don't want to go to the company, and finally I want to work in foreign trade, the dream is shattered, no one wants me, I used the smallpox in English during the interview. Get drunk, people don't want me, depressed! No way, foreign trade can't do it, just do domestic trade. Later, I met the boss in the talent center and talked a few words. I feel that this person is quite real. I told me to interview in the past.
Now think back, sometimes people will strongly deny themselves when they are extreme, feel that they are worthless, and feel that they are a fool. But in the face of life, your ideal is utopianism. Up to now, I still have a lot of problems that have caused me trouble. I always have an optimistic attitude in my life. It is finally rainy and sunny. In a promising company, you will feel very motivated. Review your life and let your ugly soul be baptized. Everyone's God is himself.