Xiong Peiyun: Because of weakness, so persistent

Xiong Peiyun: Because of weakness, so persistent

A person, in his lifetime, the greatest misfortune is not in the hardships and frustrations he has suffered, but in his busy day, he does not know what he is best for, what he likes most, what he needs to do, only to send Passing through the life between us.
In recent years, many people who wrote poetry or wrote novels have also begun to change their careers. When they took the shot, they started to work as a commentator. All these changes are probably the grotesque reality of China, which makes those who imagined to be desperate desperate for their imagination! People often feel that nature is ingenious and infinite, giving the world countless magical landscapes. In fact, the Chinese society in transition is also legendary, and its creativity has far exceeded our imagination. Imagine, in the usual quiet afternoon, when you open the pages, how can you read "hiding cats", "suicide", "talking the body", "temporary rape", "hate" in a novel "Isn't it just like", such a strange chapter, awkward poetry?
Compared with reality, poets and novelists not only lose their imagination, but also lose their ability to rhetoric. No wonder some people say that China in the transition period does not need novels, and poetry is the same – what is needed now is comment. And I, driven by the wave of this era, and by the fun of thinking about myself, is involved in the writing of reviews.
I still remember that a decade ago, I just took part in the work of the newspaper and I had the opportunity to write a column to write a review. The first problem I encountered was the small request from the leadership of the leadership: "Comments can be written, but there can be no opinions." Fortunately, things are artificial, and this "Article 22 Military Regulations" does not completely hinder my growth. In 2002, after six or seven years of college graduation, I resigned my first job. Recalling the process of resignation, there is no shortage of jealousy and entanglement. Before that, because I hope that the newspaper can give me an opportunity to send out, plus the daily newspaper is a work unit, wake up and have to continue working, can not make a good plan for the future, for this reason a lot years. It wasn't until a cool night that I was going to work at night to get home, just as I walked down the newspaper building to drive the bicycle lock, as if I was suddenly shocked. I heard a heartfelt voice: "Hey, why are you waiting for opportunities here? You are young, there are dreams, you can make decisions for yourself. Why do you have a chance to give you a dream? Why? Why don't you let him try it? If you are not willing to give yourself a chance, who will give you a chance?"
Yes, I am the leader of my own life. I can't ruin my youth because I don't give myself a chance. At that moment, I found the clear and powerful power I had never had before, and I became the master of my own destiny, letting myself give myself a chance. In this way, within a few months, I quickly completed the formalities of studying at France at my own expense. You have to admit that this is still not an easy task for a farmer's child. How many international students are giving a lot of money to their parents, and I have to send some money to the rural parents every year when I study abroad, including the cost of my mother’s surgery. Didn't you say that, I am the "temporary government" at home. Of course, even so, the days are still ample. After a few years of work, I have done some part-time jobs and some savings. Although not a lot, at this point, I am grateful to the original unit and the Internet companies that have worked. I therefore gained a certain degree of financial freedom and realized the convenience that financial freedom brought to my life. So, when some young people express their feelings to me and don't know what to do in the future, I will give them two suggestions: If you don't want to waste time, either calm down and read some books, or earn some money. These two points will be useful to you in the future.
When you leave, there is a brother in the newspaper who told me a very interesting sentence. The general idea is that in a square, people crowd, you don’t know where the direction is, but if you stand taller and look farther, Knowing the crowds around you is meaningless to you. Although I did exactly that, this passage seems to be just to express my approval for my resignation, but I have to say that it is very inspiring to me, as if giving me a special connotation for my departure. This is the earliest opportunity for "freedom in the heights" that I am talking about now.
Jobs said, "You must find love." This problem was solved when I was a boy. I know that I love my life. Besides thinking and writing, my life has no passion. All I need to look for is a more open platform to open up my own world. All of this, after I stepped out of the country, was solved in a logical way. From now on, I can write for any Chinese media and accept their drafts. In terms of identity, I no longer belong to any unit, I feel what is "face to society, spring blossoms." More importantly, I was far away from the country in space and found myself in time.
No one's life can be copied, you don't have to copy it, you can only be the best one. The same is true of the times. No one can return to the era that has passed away. It seems that although it is also in the transitional period through the historical Three Gorges, China today will not be equivalent to the nineteenth century of France. The only thing we can do is to make a little effort to make our time, the home of this time, the best time.
In the classroom of the university, I often talked with the students about Stephen Zweig’s words in The Human Stars Shining. "The greatest fortune in a person’s life is that he is in the middle of his life, that is, he is strong in his life. When I discovered my mission, and started it; the significance of the university is not only to train personality, to develop thinking ability, but also to find or determine the interest in lifelong benefits. If you find an interest that really belongs to you, and you are willing to work hard for life, even if you have not finished college, your life must be full and hopeful. A person, in his lifetime, the greatest misfortune is not in the hardships and frustrations he has suffered, but in his busy day, he does not know what he is best for, what he likes most, what he needs to do, only to send Passing through the life between us.

Sometimes I can't help but think that life is really boring because I have to do so many things we don't want to do. I remember when I was in high school, for the college entrance examination, the school walls were full of inspiring words such as "persistence" and "perseverance". At that time, I didn't think there was anything wrong with it. However, when I go back and look at it today, it is inevitable that there will be such experience and experience. The things that I do by relying on the knowledge of the textbooks that I insist on and perseverance may be the most unnecessary in our life.
I can't be grateful for life, grateful for life, and there is some mysterious power in gratitude. I got the care of the god of destiny. When I was young, I knew that I would dedicate my life to the words, and I would like to give myself the desire to be infinitely close to the truth, and I will never be tired. No matter what you write, everything benefits from my two natures: one is the spirit of doubt, and the other is the joy of thought. And all of this is in line with the nature of my freedom. If there is a spirit of suspicion, it will rarely be blindly obscured. Therefore, life will take fewer detours; it will be able to appreciate the joy of thought, and there is no such thing as perseverance and persistence in doing things. I don't want to sleep every day, I want to know more about the world, I want to write more time. The only thing that needs perseverance to do but not done is to persuade yourself to go to bed early. Just like a man who falls in love with a beauty called "Soulmate" and is willing to spend a lifetime with her, it obviously does not require any perseverance.