Goodbye, where I buried my youth.

Goodbye, where I buried my youth.

First of all, congratulations on finally making this big and difficult decision. I have been thinking about it for a long time. During this period, of course, I have experienced countless times of human beings, pain, struggle, jealousy, confusion, frustration... I have never said this to anyone. Some things must be borne by themselves, and others can't help you. I have been "temporarily living" in Beijing for 11 years. 11 years can't be short. I am 30 years old next year. I spend more than one-third of my life in Beijing. Although I have cursed the city thousands of times 10,000 times, I can't deny that I still have a lot of affection for it. After all, my youth is always buried here, my friends are here. If a person wants to leave a place where he has been in office for 11 years, even if there is no wave of ripples in his heart, there will always be at least a few rounds. You can understand that it takes a lot of courage to make such a decision. I haven't really believed in constellation theory, but if I say that Aries is the least lacking is courage, I believe this.
I came to Beijing in 2000, when I was 18 years old. In fact, I couldn’t talk about my dreams at that time. I just went to Beijing to go to school. In the blink of an eye, 11 years old, the 18-year-old boy has now joined the ranks of "old men" in an unstoppable way. How many years can life be? Sometimes I think that life is really a wonderful process. Many things are not allowed. You never know what will happen tomorrow. At the beginning, I spent all my hard time trying to get to Beijing to go to college. Now I have to go back to Wuhan after a lap. When I was in school, I basically didn't play computer. Even QQ was rarely used. As a result, I can think of an internet editor after college graduation, and it was 7 years.
Many things we can't think of every step before we do it, but in the process of doing it we know what to do, learn to fight in battle, and cross the river by feeling the stones. I don't like the life that has been carefully planned every step of the way. It is really boring. In fact, it is impossible to carefully plan every step in life, because the plan can never keep up with changes, and the joy of life lies in unpredictability.
I often ask myself a question these years: What is good in Beijing? Is it interesting to stay in Beijing? Unfortunately, the answers I get after every rational thinking are negative. To put it bluntly, the happiness of living in Beijing is very low and there is no sense of belonging. The words happiness and destiny, although they sound very virtual, are very important. As I grow older, I feel more and more that I am not suitable to stay in Beijing. What I am pursuing is nothing more than two calms: the calm of life and the calm of the heart, and these two things I find are hard to find in Beijing. For many people, there is only survival in Beijing and no life at all. The city is very beautiful, feasting, it seems that there are opportunities everywhere, even the leaves are full of dreams, but when night falls, thousands of lights, where is there a light for you to light up? High-rise buildings are densely populated, and which ones have had their own squares to settle down?

Like many people, I am a standard "north drift", drifting for 11 years, I don't want to float, maybe because I am old. In the past few years, I have seen the world I have seen. I have not seen it before, and I am not going to see it. It is the same. Indeed, the biggest advantage of getting older is: things you can't get when you are young, now you don't want it. The ancients said that they are not confused. I don’t think that there is no confusion when people reach the age of 40. It should mean that people are at that age. The problems that confuse you in the past are no longer confused, but still confused. You don't want to understand the problem, because you have already let go, no longer lingering, or you have already talked with life. Although I have not yet reached the age of uncertainty, I feel that I have already understood some problems.
Obviously, leaving Beijing, I need to give up a lot and sacrifice a lot. My friends, the small circle of my life are all in Beijing, and my biggest disappointment is these friends in Beijing. A man has two most valuable treasures in his life, one is his friend and the other is his experience. It’s really painful to make a decision to leave friends who have been together for so many years. Of course, I am very sad in my heart, but there is no way. There are many things we can't do to achieve the best of both worlds. Fish and bear's paw can't have both. Friends, forgive me.
Here, I would like to thank everyone who has appeared in my life in the past 11 years, especially to the women I have loved in the past 11 years. Thank you for rejecting me at the beginning, because your refusal has made my departure today a lot less jealous and concerned, and I can walk relatively easily. I say this is not pretending to be a high profile, nor a cool talk. Women are men's schools, and I have learned a lot from you. Although you have made me very painful, and pain is the best nutrition for a man's growth. Of course, you have made me feel very happy and happy, thank you very much, I wish you happiness!
Goodbye, Beijing; goodbye, brothers and sisters. Where does life not meet, we will have a period! Finally, I will send a song to myself, and I will give it to all the brothers and sisters who are striving to fight in Beijing. I hope everyone will have a good time!