Inspirational novel: My suffering, my university (3)

Inspirational novel: my suffering my university

[But I faintly understood something, that is, the mother’s pain is related to the night window, the dagger on the table, and the person who said in the mouth of the adults, "No evil, no evil." Who is that person? Why did he make his mother feel so frightened? Is it the devil? 】

After the death of his father, the mother’s physical condition is declining and she is skinny. In the first few days, in addition to tears, she stood behind the house and stared at her father's grave. I and Meihua went to school with black and white flowers. In order to give my father a filial piety, I and Meihua have to wear white shoes for three years. White shoes are very dirty. I often go to the river to wash my shoes. I often look at my father's grave and think about whether he is lonely or not.

Perhaps because my father used to be the cause of the public society, after the death of his father, the production team took care of my family. The team gave the mother a lighter job, which was the reins and the mats. I and Meihua are raised to the age of 18 by the team. In other words, the rations and tuition fees that Meihua and I spent before growing up were all solved by the production team. The death of my father also gave us great sympathy for the villagers. The discrimination against the villagers began to change. Our orphans and widows lived so hard and stunned.

The mother is the widow of the 47-year-old, and the mother has always been unaware of the remarriage. About a year after his father’s death, there were good-hearted folks who came to kiss her. The mother shook her head: "I don’t expect anything, as long as the two gimmicks will have a future." The folks kindly persuaded: "You are too bitter to take your child alone. It is better to ask someone to help you. "Mother still shakes her head: "Where to find someone who is better than the eve?"

These words are said by the mother and the kindhearted folks sitting under my kerosene lamp. I and Meihua are doing the homework under the lamp, and the mother is at the bottom of the shoe. On the wall in the middle of the hall, the father's wreath is hung. The father's spirit card and the portrait are placed in the middle of the rice cabinet. The spirit card is written in ink with the "first husband Zhao Xigui". The mother’s gaze always looked at it and refused to say one after another.

Disasters are always on the rise.

Suddenly, one night, the yellow dog of the neighboring beautiful family in the east was arrogant, and violently yelled at the bottom of my house, waking me up from my sleep. I heard a squeaking sound from the bicycle chain, and there was no movement at my home. Then there was a scorn in the window, "笃笃, 笃笃". I know that my mother is awake. She is holding me and Meihua tightly, shaking slightly, nervous like an old hen who is only a nurse.

The shit is getting more and more fierce, and the nearby dogs are echoing and smashing into one. After a while, the bicycle rang again, and the dog chased it away, and soon it was calm. I was awake in fear in my mother's arms. My mother licked my hand loose, and a drop of water fell on my face. I don't know why my mother cried.

One day after school, I was horrified to find that my mother’s eyes were swollen, and there was a stack of food stamps and oil tickets that were rare in the year. The mother was sitting at the table. I shouted "Mom" smoothly, my mother passed me, a tearful tear fell on my head, I was terrified, I don't know what painful attack on my mother. My mother does not say, I am not good to ask. Before going to sleep every day, the mother put a kitchen knife on the door latch behind the door, and put a hand under the pillow. At night, the sound of the bicycle and the shit are still fierce, and there is a window sound. My mother always stared at me and Meihua nervously, without a word.

Then there was the "decapitation incident". The dagger was inserted in the wooden table of my house, a cold knife, standing upright on the table. When I went home from school, I found that the atmosphere was wrong. There were many people in the family, mostly village cadres. My mother was red-eyed, seeing me and Meihua coming back, and rushing over and crying: "I don't care if I die, but the animal is so hot, can you say, do it, he really wants to kill me two hoes?" I am at the mother. The cries and cryings were terrified, and I don’t know what disaster will come to my house.

Just listen to the village cadres and say: "Sha Yufang, how do you let us protect you? Can you not send militia to live in your house? You said that he has no evil, he really has to do it, how can we eat it? Then you are after all Have a marriage, as the saying goes, 'The official is difficult to break the housework', how do we intervene in your affairs? According to us, he may be true this time, if you don’t give him face, he will be angry and frustrated with the dagger, you don’t want to I am afraid, now is a socialist country, killing people and paying for life. He has been sitting on prison several times. This is sure to understand. If he really treats you, it is a good thing. You will take a step back!"

The mother did not speak and cried. Later, the village cadres went one by one, and the mother kept crying until dark. I am only 10 years old at this time. Maybe my mother thinks that I am not able to share the painful age for her, so she told me nothing. I quietly suffer for the inability to know and share the pain of my mother. But I faintly understood something, that is, the mother's pain is related to the night window, the dagger on the table, and the person who said "no evil" in the mouth of the adults. Who is that person? Why did he make his mother feel so frightened? Is it the devil?

[Mother's humiliation and Yang Dongqi have been through for 9 years. During this period, she has left home for many times to go to work on a very distant farm. However, Yang Dongqi, who is not smoldering, will find it and bring her mother back to the public to search for her mother. After earning a few dollars, I beat a meal afterwards...]

When I hadn’t finished the summer, I finally learned a secret that made my little heart suffocate in an instant. The mother and father were not the original. The mother was married and divorced from a man named Yang Dongqi. Then I married my father. After the death of his father, Yang Dongqi tried to occupy the mother!

At this point, I realized that there is another person in the world called Yang Dongqi. No, it should be said to be a demon! All the disasters are made by him!

Later, I grew up and learned about her past experiences from my mother’s intermittent narrative. The mother’s experience is simple, but the pain and pain hidden in it is the mother’s life. Recalling the past, there will always be tears and tears:

The mother was married because of her grandfather's fingertips. From the day of her birth, she was destined to marry the guy named Yang Dongqi in Yangzhuang Town. This father died young, his mother was blind and had a younger brother. The family can imagine the embarrassment, the mother has been desperate to die, but I was slap in the slap of my grumpy grandfather into the sedan chair, also into the abyss of nightmare! Until now, the mother still hates the outside world.

"If it weren't for him, why did I suffer so much?" The mother raised her grandfather and gnashed her teeth. I think if the grandfather can predict that his fingertips will lead to the grief of his only daughter, that is, taking the knife on his neck will not make his old man give in.

The mother at that time was a well-known little beauty in Shazhuang, and the female red house was well-versed. The mother was a protagonist in a thatched room. The walls of the thatched cottage were made of reeds. There were holes in the wall. It was removed by Yang Dongqi as a firewood. His blind mother and younger brother were all afraid of him, dare not say more. It is said that once his blind mother was thrown into the well at the door, fortunately, there was only a bucket inside, only to save the old lady's life. Yang Dongqi’s big rebellion is notorious in Yangzhuang.

After the mother got married, she became the "sandbag" under Yang Dongqi's fist. This demon is very strategic. He never makes a face. He uses his fist to rub any part of the neck below, sometimes with a cigarette. He is still a shameless chameleon. He can beat his mother in a minute before, and he has already thrown his mother into the bed after a minute...

The mother had to bear the burden of humiliation and Yang Dongqi for 9 years. During this time, she had left home for many times to go to work on a very distant farm. However, Yang Dongqi, who was not scattered, always found out, took the mother home in the eyes of the public, and searched the mother to earn After a few bucks, I beat a meal afterwards...

The mother was soaked in a fiery marriage for nine years until her grandfather died. After Yang Dongqi was jailed, the mother was given freedom. The mother made up her mind to divorce because Yang Dongqi had five poisons and no evil. He had two prisons for hooliganism and theft. The third time was because he was fighting with people and unloading one arm. The mother was divorced when Yang Dongqi was in prison for the third time. The mother was introduced to my father shortly after the divorce. I gave birth to me eight years later.

Yang Dongqi knew in prison about a woman who had made a political mistake. After they were released from prison, they got married and gave birth to a son. Later, Yang Dongqi’s wife was unfairly abused, and she was divorced from Yang Dongqi and then left Nanjing. When Yang Dongqi, who was idle, gambled on his two huts, it was just the time when my father died. So, Yang Dongqi, who was a ghost, thought of his mother. So I knocked on the door in the middle of the night, and after the mother resolutely ignored it, the villain became angry and angry, so she had a decapitation...

Later, Yang Dongqi finally entered my home in the mother's inability to resist. It was the fall of 1979, when only one sycamore tree left behind the house began to fall. At this time, the father’s grave had already been grassy. Only his spiritual position is still as bright as new, because I have to wipe the dust for him every day. My father died, but his love and thoughts grew deeper as I grew older.

In the following year or so, Yang Dongqi gradually decomposed and swallowed my home, and directly led to my mother and our escape career.

[Poor mother is scarred and wants to cry without tears. I am silent every day, I am like a silent lamb, waiting to grow up and be strong. 】

At the beginning, Yang Dongqi appeared in the face of a wolf in sheep's clothing. Every time he comes, he will give me and Meihua a few pieces of candy. I and Meihua often disdain. Because when he came, the mother’s face would obviously have a look of panic and uneasiness. I am sensitive and love-minded. Yang Dongqi, who is notorious, full of flesh and bones, is full of hatred and fear.

I often feel chilling and disgusted with his "friendly, harmonious" smile. The request for him and my sister to call him "Dad" is full of contempt and disgust. How can I recognize this demon as a father? I put my hatred of Yang Dongqi on my face. My mother once privately confessed that for the sake of safety, on the surface, Yang Dongqi should be polite, my sister did it, but I can't, life has honed my precociousness.

After Yang Dongqi entered my home for more than a month, he began to expose his rogue nature. One day after school came back, I was surprised to find that there was a black-green on the mother's left cheek, my eyes were red and swollen, and I was frightened by Meihua. When the mother saw us, she caught the apron and snorted and said: "You two Debt ghosts, when will they grow up!"

Later, I realized that Yang Dongqi asked the mother to do the money to buy and sell the business, saying that selling eggs to Shanghai is very profitable. How can the mother give him money? He was furious, and his mother did not know how to be good, and toasted and did not eat and drink fine wine. Then she slammed on the mother's face and then walked away in the tears of her mother's sadness. I left a sentence when I left: "I will prepare 200 yuan for Laozi. Otherwise, I will sell the rice cabinet."

The only valuable home in my family is the three-headed rice cabinet. The mother used it to put flour in one place, one in the wheat, and one in the corn. Now there are father's portraits and spirit cards. This rice cabinet is an important family that his father set when he was alive. How can a mother be willing to let her father's relics be lost? But where can the mother go to raise 200 yuan?

Three days later, Yang Dongqi came back and brought the person who moved the cabinet. It turned out to be the American and English sisters and brother-in-law. The United States and Britain have been stunned by this rice cabinet for a long time. She was resentful to her parents because she did not have to go to this cabinet to be a dowry when she was married. I don't know how she and Yang Dongqi traded. When the cabinet was moved, the mother did not agree with the life and death, and the spirits and portraits of the father were not allowed to move. Yang Dongqi picked up his father's spiritual card and his portrait and ran to the river and threw it into the rippling river. The mother could not help but fainted.

When I came back from school, my family was empty, and the rice cabinet that once occupied one third of the hall was gone. The house immediately showed signs of desolation and tripping. My mother fell to the bed and said to me in tears: "After Ping, my mother is powerless to protect Zhao’s family business. Your uncle, aunt, and aunt will blame me for losing Zhao’s family business. When you grow up, you must have To make a profit, you must redeem the rice cabinet."

I seem to understand the meaning of "redemption", but one thing I understand again, that is, I hate Yang Dongqi's inhuman plunder, hate the United States and Britain for the fire.

I ran to the river. Where is the shadow of my father's spiritual position and portrait? The river was sparkling, and a few ducks wandered carelessly, and my tears fell. In the direction of the father's tomb, I silently recited: Lord, why don't you bless your mother? I sat in the darkness by the river and cried my eyes.

At this time, I have been in the fourth grade. My academic performance is still excellent, but my melancholy and introverts make my teachers who are fond of me worried. Everyone knows my family, and everyone is sorry for my family living in this family. The teachers are optimistic that I am a college student, but I am not sure whether I can survive as hard as the grass under the big stone. Teacher Cai, my class teacher, comforted me with hope: "Many writers and artists in the world have had an unfortunate childhood."

Many years later, I saw this sentence from a book. The shock and confidence that I gave to me was something that Teacher Cai did not understand when he said this. When I first listened to Teacher Cai saying this, I thought to myself, I don’t want to be a writer or an artist. As long as I can support my mother, I will not let her suffer. What a small request and desire! I really think so.

The process of growing up is painful, but I have never stopped growing. It is like a grass pressed under the big stone.

Soon after selling the rice cabinet, the family's Eight Immortals table was also sold by Yang Dongqi. Every time he said that he was going to sell things, in fact he went to gamble, and he also drunk and married women. Yang Dongqi’s fists on his mother are becoming more and more inhuman. Once he has a beastly episode, he shuts down the door and beats his mother. Every time as long as I go home and find that the door is closed from the inside, I have no fear of coming, and my mother must suffer from inhuman torture.

Once the mother was really scared by Yang Dongqi, she called the village cadres to come to the house to seek justice from Yang Dong. The hustle and bustle of Yang Dongqi met the village cadres and made tea and handed the cigarettes. The village cadres said that they had slipped away after the "clear official ruins of housework". Then Yang Dongqi closed the door and was a violent temper against his mother, because the mother had lost his face.

Since then, the mother has endured all the pain alone, because no one in the world can save her from the sea of ​​suffering, and no one can help her suffer. Poor mother is scarred and wants to cry without tears. I am silent every day, like a silent lamb, waiting to grow up and be strong.

One day, I occasionally saw a comic strip of "The 13 Girls of the Chivalrous Girl" from my classmates, so I had the idea of ​​killing the devil Yang Dongqi. I even thought of a specific way of revenge. It seems that it is feasible to poison and hand. Poisoning can be done without knowing it, and you can find medicines everywhere. The hand blade is not difficult, as long as the other person is asleep, like the girl and the thirteen sisters, take a sharp knife and cleanly cut his neck and you're done. During that time, I was always excited and excited about my revenge plan. I began to pay attention to every opportunity.