I really want to change myself, when is it not too late?

Jing Yidan: The host of CCTV's famous brand column "Focus Interview" and "Oriental Time and Space", and hosted a large number of programs with national influence, such as Hong Kong's return, Macao's return, "Touching China", and has been rated as "National" for three consecutive times. Good TV show host."

I am not a successful woman, nor a strong woman. I am only working on a TV. If I have achieved a small achievement, I will pay more sweat than others. Looking back at the road I have traveled, I feel that every footprint is full of bumps and solidity.

After graduating from the Beijing Broadcasting Institute, I returned to my hometown of Heilongjiang and worked at the Provincial People's Broadcasting Station. Because I have experienced the educated youth life going to the countryside, my culture is weak, so I applied for a postgraduate degree at the alma mater. I was 29 years old at the time and I didn't want to toss it anymore, but I gave up, and I was a little unwilling. During that time, I have been depressed. The mother is a knowledgeable woman. She said to me: "The destiny of the person is in his own hands. If you really want to change yourself, it is not too late."

"When is it not too late?" is this sentence, let me go to the examination room for the third time, and finally became a graduate student of Beiguang in the year of 30 years old. When I got the offer letter, I was filled with emotions. At the age of 30, my life has a new beginning.

Soon after I entered school, I got married and my husband was a graduate student at Tsinghua University. Although we have a home, we still live in the collective dormitory of our school. We eat three meals a day in the cafeteria, which is no different from single life. After three years of hardship, I stayed in school and taught. A woman is a teacher in college. She is both decent and relaxed, her income is good, and she has a lot of time to take care of her family. Many people envy me, but I am not satisfied with my life. I feel that I am learning news. You should go to the front line to do more challenging work.

At the age of 33, the Ministry of Economic Affairs of CCTV came to Beiguang to be a person. After an interview, written test and practical assessment, I was fortunate enough to be hired. At that time, the resistance from relatives and friends was very great. They said that I was a hot-headed person, and all of them were in their 30s. I think, if I listen to their opinions, maybe I will be a teacher in Beiguang in my life, and I will live a life of trepidation forever. It will be a regret for my whole life.

I hesitated again at the crucial moment in my life. Do I really have the ability to face this new life test? During that time, I kept thinking of my mother's words: "When people want to change themselves, it is not too late." My final decision is that, no matter what, I can't leave my life with regrets, even if I fail, I also No regrets. In this way, I entered CCTV at the age of 33 and became a moderator.

CCTV has a lot of talents and the competition is fierce. I know that I have no advantage. Only by paying more effort and sweat will I be eliminated and I will stand up. I am humbly learning from my younger colleagues, often working overtime in the office until late at night, and doing every simple job as a major mission. Paying doesn't necessarily pay off, but don't pay absolutely no return. After unremitting efforts, I not only had a place on CCTV, but also opened the column “One Dan Topic” in my own name. This is the first program in the country named after the host. The audience’s response is not bad. Give me a lot of confidence.

In a blink of an eye, I was 40 years old. I saw the fine wrinkles in my eyes in the mirror. I suddenly had a deep sense of crisis and loss. 40 years old, for a woman, it is a hurdle that can't be passed, especially for female host, it is even awkward. Getting up every morning, my first thing is to think of my age, suffering every day, and my heart is full of bitterness and melancholy.