I only have a back, no background

I don't know how other people's college life has passed, perhaps free and easy, perhaps casual, perhaps just to cater to the high school's "satisfaction of life must be happy, so that the golden hollow to the moon" expectations, perhaps just realized the "Chrysanthemum Under the hood, I saw the dream of Nanshan. However, my university has worked harder than high school and has to be down to earth.

When the intersection of life was forked, I took another route. Perhaps this road is not suitable for me. Perhaps it is a mistake at all. But no matter what, I saw different scenery on this road. After the 14-year college entrance examination, we were like a group of unbanned birds. We couldn't wait to find our place of belonging. However, some people chose to fly to the flowery place, but I chose to fly to the remote jungle. When they were all traveling, they were all in the space, I was in the deep courtyard, listening to the rumble of the machine, holding the hot iron. A person, no envy, no complaints, just a meager day. On the same holiday, people lived like a princess prince who lived smoothly, but I played a Cinderella role in a remote town in the distance. After the end of two months, when I came out of the factory, I got the first payroll in my life and settled the first big salary in my life. "6600" and "5800" are two numbers that I have always remembered in my life. The difference between these two numbers makes me unforgettable, because in the two months, I lived on this difference. However, after I got home, the first thing I did was to take the money out of the bag and hand it to my mom and say, "Give me the money first. I can use my own money to pay the tuition fee when I start school." The moment I put my two months of hard work into the tuition card, my heart is calm, proud, and has no guilt. At that moment, I feel that all efforts are worth it!

Come to a trip that says you can go, don't ask anyone to accompany you, but seek to see the world. Unexpectedly, this trip came too suddenly, too dull, too long. When I started school, my father said that he would send me to the school. After all my resignation, I still couldn’t beat him. I promised it seriously. However, the day before the school started, I only secretly set my own ticket. Maybe I am wrong, I should ask my dad to come to my university to see it, even if it is just a glance. However, the "invitation letter" that entered the medical profession was my father's exhaustion for several hours a day. I couldn't bear to see him arrogant. I would rather be alone, sitting on the bus, facing the trash can, silently. Spit. After leaving home that day, I have not looked back again. This is something I didn't think of, and it is something I think I can't do. But the truth is, I am so indifferent. The reason why I can stay in the field for so long, I think I probably don’t want to spend money with my mom. In Nanyang. I learned to send flyers, learned to do micro-business, and learned to try to find all the opportunities to make money. These things may not be easy for others, but I am not tired of doing it.

If you have a hard time, it will probably not be able to meet the New Year. On the day of the winter vacation, I took the bus to Guangdong. In fact, the work is not tired, but it always feels tired. When the high school squad leader called to inform me that I was going back to the party, my heart wrinkled in an instant, and I couldn’t breathe because of my sadness. Because the heart that wants to go back has to be controlled by the body and can only stay in the distance. In those few days, I almost didn't dare to take a mobile phone, and I didn't dare to enter the space. Because of the space, there are crazy gatherings of dinners and intimate talks. There was a night shift in the night shift, pick up the phone and watch the time, and found an unread message. After I opened it, the content inside made me almost collapse: "Sister, when are you coming back?" The newsletter was sent by the younger brother, because I told him that I will come back for a few days, and the Chinese New Year will go back, but the facts This is not the case, because I can't go back. I stared at the screen of the mobile phone for a long time, pressed off, then lit, then pressed off, then brighten... I don’t know how many times I repeated, I just fell asleep. When I got up at night in the evening, I carefully responded to a newsletter that "I can't go back this year." Perhaps he can be disappointed, but I am even more sad. In the early morning of the twelfth lunar month, I called my mom and asked if my dad was still working. My mom explained that there is still one day's work. I said let my dad rest, I will add one more day, which is equivalent to exchange. Even, I earn more than my dad. At the end of the phone, my mother was sobbing, saying a word: "Working hard!" With these three warm words, even if there is a big heart, how can I hang on my heart.

The days of falling asleep are ignorant, and they are flying away. However, how hard it is to wake up, if you have not experienced it, I will not know if I don’t say it. Many times, I will stand alone in the position of work, without saying a word, just think about the people I know, whether they are watching TV dramas at home, and then comparing the novels; they are not Three or five groups of people smashed the road, sharing each other's university life; whether they are fighting for a promise that is not drunk, and whether they are praying in prayer and prayer. These days, it’s just a phantom, just like a bubble, you can only look at it, and a stamp is broken, and I only have to think about it. One month later, on the day I returned from Guangdong, I spit on the running train for a night. Under the softness of the whole body, the tears flowed out without competing, but because of fear of others seeing it, at that time, even the whimper became a luxury. I ate two ham sausages for four days and drank half a bottle of water. I didn't even know how I survived. Back to the school dormitory, my friend asked me if I came home, saying that I would come to see me in advance, and the first sentence I told her was that I came directly to my dormitory and saw that I was still alive. When my friend came to me, I already felt dizzy. Later, we went to the supermarket together. She forced me to buy a bowl of noodles, but I only got two soups. When I walked to the front of the electronic scale, I measured my weight and lost six pounds. For me who is not too fat, six pounds, too much!

When all life is on the right track, I may not be embarrassing myself for the next three months of living expenses. However, I have to consider the tuition fees after three months. Therefore, after I took out 500 yuan for my brother’s living expenses for one month, I took out another part to do the micro-business. A lot of people told me that the road to Weishang is not good, but I just want to try, because I don't want to be rich and expensive, just to earn a small amount of living expenses and reduce the burden on my parents. With such great pressure, I finally dared to take the first step, but someone told me that doing so would ruin me. Because he is afraid that my friends will ban me, I am afraid that I will lose my network. In fact, at the beginning, I also moved to the idea of ​​giving up, but suddenly I remembered a sentence that Guo Jingming said: "You have come to see me with such a prejudice, how can I still want me to change for you!" Even if I If you don't do micro-business, don't take your heart to my friends, just just treat me as a living dead person, hang on the number, don't care. So, I figured it out later, you can't even let such an effort, I can still ask for anything, I can only say, you go, I don't stay, you stay, I don't go!

With so many experiences, I understand, never envy other people's riches and riches, and don't envy others' ease, because when you are sleeping, others are working hard, when you are playing, others In an effort, when you are eating and drinking, others are still working hard. And I, the best living method at the moment, is not humble.

I also have the life I want to live. I want to go to Lhasa to see the Potala Palace. I want to go to Xinjiang to see the snowfield. I want to go to Shanghai to see Guo Jingming. However, without hard work, my wish can only be a wish, and I can never shine into reality. I always believe in the phrase "The harder, the luckier" because I know that I don't have a background, so I can leave it to the world, and only the back!