Passing through seemingly boring times

After moving in the past few days, I rummaged through the old things and turned them over, and turned out a thick notebook. Open and look, the top is full of words, is the work log seven years ago, there is a feeling of crossing.

I have always had the habit of writing a mood, that is, what sentiment in my heart will be handwritten. But turning the book from head to tail, I only saw one sentence: I am so tired, I want to take a vacation.

All the records in this book are work: On a certain day of the month, a joint venture with a Korean company is discussed, and a cooperation agreement is drafted; on a certain day of the month, Qingdao travels and talks about the project; on a certain day of the month, the company shoots a promotional film and writes a copy...

After reading it, I couldn’t help but laugh. My days at that time seemed to have nothing but work. I didn't even have a piece of esoteric words. It didn't fit the style of my literary art. But that was the time I spent over the years.

I remember once I went to a company to talk about cooperation and dinner with several executives. One of the CEOs said: "There are beautiful dishes today, let's drink some red wine together, and get drunk."

I said in a big picture: "I'm sorry, I won't drink, or talk about the next step."

The boss’s face couldn’t be laughed and said: “No hurry, say after dinner.”

I am chasing after me: "I have to go back after dinner, there will be something tomorrow, let's talk while eating."

The other person is well-fed and does not show the color of dissatisfaction, but the face clearly says: This person is really boring. At the end of a meal, we have talked about all the details of the cooperation.

At that time, I only had two words in my mind: work, work, work... I started from home every morning, and I thought about what to do on the bus, what phone to call, and what to draft. When I came back in the evening, I was exhausted, but when I was lying down reading, I was thinking about the daytime and seeing if there were any imperfections.

I am not a workaholic. I am so hard. Part of the reason is that I am afraid of failing the trust of the boss. In fact, it is more for myself. In order not to be chosen by life, we have the opportunity to choose a life.

In fact, which woman does not want to be quiet? Go to the sun and get up again, go shopping, drink coffee, and have a lunch with your girlfriend. But all of this requires sufficient capital to make a background.

I remember one day, my husband said with a look of resentment: "You haven't seen me for a long time." I was a little surprised, looked up and looked at him seriously, and I had a feeling of a face. I can't help but feel sour and sorrow, yeah, I forgot the time I hugged with my husband last time. As a wife, I am a bit too much; it is just a moment of guilt, I turned and put myself into work... Fortunately, in this world, there is no shortage of people who dream of rain and rain.

Last winter, I interviewed Xinjiang singer Parhati, who had just returned from the European tour. I asked: "When is this the hardest time, is it the most difficult time? Is there a time when you are lonely, lonely, lonely, helpless?"

At the end of the phone, Palhati’s voice was a little sad. He said: “I sang in the bar about ten years ago. At that time, the bar’s environment was not very good. Some of the guests were of low quality, noisy, and beaten. At that moment, I felt very sad. Every day I sang to a group of people who didn't understand music. I felt sorry for my music, sorry for myself. I ran to the supermarket, bought a bunch of food and drink, and didn't go out for more than a month. , hiding at home to paint..." On the phone, my tears burst out. His mood, I understand.

Singing in a place where no one knows art, he can only be a wall. Kesi Shishi, he has not said "no", in addition to persistence, there is not much choice.

On that day, Parghati also talked about an award he just won - the Dutch "Klaus Prince Award", he could not conceal his inner joy: "I know this award is still precious, at the awards scene - inside the Royal Palace of the Netherlands I sang three works and I am very honored."

In his voice, there is happiness, pride, and calmness - that kind of calmness is the ease of finally reaching the shore.

Yes, we are not Jia Baoyu, we have never come to this world with jade, we can’t be born. If you want to live the life you want, you have to live through those boring days.

On the way to chase your dreams, there has never been a smooth ride, not a glimpse, and even boring. But the life that has not been struggled is finally pale, and there is no dullness in the bustling after all. Many people are qualified to get the life they like after many years.

Looking back, I am very grateful. In those few years, I was an executive, an editor, and a column. Every time I did my best, every time I picked up my toes and went up...

It is those seemingly boring times that can lead to a stable and calm life. After that time, you will find that everything you have dreamed of, fate is being given to you one by one.