Give yourself brave happiness

Suddenly unloading the burden of many years, I actually feel that I am not used to such a relaxed, do not know what the next goal is, I do not know that I have not been qualified to have happiness. Later I learned that I should give myself brave happiness, be brave for myself, and live for myself.

When I was 18 years old, my father fell ill and needed a large treatment fee, as well as follow-up medical expenses. For the father's illness, the mother borrowed money from relatives and friends everywhere, bringing back a stack of thin banknotes and a piece of black paper. When the borrowed money is used up, no one is willing to lend us money. The mother takes care of the father while doing handmade jewelry to supplement the family, and I have to go to school while doing part-time work. When I finally found a job with a higher salary after graduation, my father died before I received my first month's salary. But I don't have much time to immerse myself in sorrow, because my mother and I have to bear the heavy burden.

Every month, except for a small portion of the salary used to eat and ride the car, I gave it to my mother. Sometimes I need to use money temporarily. I have saved it from the money to eat and ride. I don’t dare to spend money. Every time I spend a dollar, I have to think about whether it’s cost-effective. Is there any way to save money? After working for a few years, I still have no savings. There are only slightly old but neat clothes, only a light and simple meal, only one hour a month to go to work.

On that day, when my mother told me that the money owed was paid off, I was relieved, but then there was a burst of sorrow. I have lived in these years to make money and pay back the money. Now that I have lost the borrowings, what is left in my life? I spent a few days thinking about the boyfriend who broke up with my debt and thought of those who were afraid that I would borrow money. Friends who are no longer with me, I thought that I chose a profession I didn’t like in order to find a high-paying job. I thought... I thought a lot, I found that I never lived for myself, and pushed a lot of happiness and Happiness, telling yourself that debt-ridden ones are not qualified to talk about happiness. But now, I want to give myself brave happiness.

I quit my job and concentrated on planning my next life and living my life. I want to pursue a dream that was once forgotten. Although the chances of achieving it are very slim, I still want to try it bravely. I am busy again, but compared to the busy time just to pay back the money, now this busy is very fulfilling, even if tired, I feel satisfied. I don't care if I can succeed in the end. I just hope that I will live my life in this dream-seeking process, live a wonderful life, and make up for the missing happiness as much as possible.

My dream has not yet been realized, but I met someone who can give me happiness, and he will accompany me to continue to pursue my dreams. Maybe everything is destined, I want to meet the best of him at the best time, in order to get the best happiness. If I meet him earlier, maybe we will have no share, not as happy as it is now. Happiness needs to fight for it, give yourself brave happiness, let the warmth of happiness cover the darkness and pain of the past, and bravely pursue what you want. Maybe I have lost a lot, but I can't give up the opportunity to have happiness now, try my best to seize happiness and keep the hard-won happiness.