High four, really hurt

This year, my classmates bid farewell to the third year of high school, ushered in the university, and I, bid farewell to the third year, but ushered in the senior year. They bid farewell to the heat, and finally ushered in the spring, and I, through the heat, but have to step into the cold winter. I understand that this bitter and hard road, since I have chosen, even if it is squatting, I have to climb over.

Standing at the door of the repeating school, I looked at my classmates with big and small bags like me. I know that I will spend the next 365 days. Walking into the school gate, I looked back at my mother. In the flow of people in the shuttle, her hair was like a grass on the side of the road. She was not nutritious and did not take care of herself. She struggled in the hot and anxious hot air. She saw me looking at her and raised her hand to indicate to me. I know the strength of the hands like the old bark. She always reminds me to be diligent. I looked at my mother's eyes, there was comfort in her eyes, and I didn't dare to look too much. Looking at her thin and short figure, my nose was sore and sore, I quickly turned around, afraid that my tears could not hold back, it would fall, this is what I don’t want to happen, because the road behind It’s harder to go, the pain is inevitable, it’s just the beginning. And my mother, I have to accompany me to suffer.

I quickly stepped onto the right track of review. I was desperate and devoted all my time to learning. There was no other idea. Calculated in minutes and seconds, from morning to night, as long as it is in the classroom, the pen in my hand is not rested. Sometimes I don’t want to waste time when I go to the toilet. I go to school and go to school at a speed of 100 meters. Twenty minutes of time for cooking, eating, watering, going to the toilet, every day is a three-point line of life, in addition to learning or learning in the brain, in addition to questions or questions.

The teacher worked hard on the above, we wrote below, the weather is getting hotter and hotter, we conducted the last mock exam, the teacher said that this test can almost determine the ranking of your college entrance examination. After the exam, I became more silent, because I was very unsatisfactory in this exam. On the surface, I was calm, but in my heart I was restless. After the results came out, the students were all around, and I wanted to avoid the blasphemy and avoid it. But how to escape again is to face reality, I see my score, I know what it means. It means that, like my classmates who have worked hard for one-fifth, I feel that all my efforts are so ridiculous, so much effort is lost. Suddenly I wanted to give up. God knows how bored I am with such a life. I lived and suppressed, and I have not relaxed in one day.

I looked at the classmates in the nap. In the suffocating classroom, I felt disheartened. I sneered and saw that I was nearly deformed. One person went out silently from the back door, only thinking about escaping and rushing out to breathe. If you don’t want to suffocate yourself, you will die.

I quickly went downstairs and ran to the playground. When I ran and cried, I no longer refused. I didn’t dare to cry before. I was afraid that I couldn’t make a sigh of relief. Some emotions faded after the release, so I absolutely would not allow myself. Today, I don't want to, I just want to cry out all my grievances and unwillingness. I am thinking about why some people have to live so hard, and some people are so easy to get happiness. My family is the poorest in the village. There is no money in the relatives. There is no place in the relatives. Where the parents are standing, it seems to be a little shorter than others. I have a sister at home, I am married, and there are two younger brothers who go to school. And I, so disappointing, did not alleviate the burden of my parents, but added a year's fee. In order to make my family live a happy life, I work hard every day like a top. Why? Why do people have such superior conditions when they are born? And I have to live in this poor family. Why do other parents live in high-rises and sit in cars? My parents work hard like old cows? Heavy life is overwhelmed? And I, who wants to change everything, even when others are still thinking about learning, so hard, I still fail so? Why? Why not pay for it if you pay, God, how do you tell me how to be good?

The heart is constantly pumping, tears are falling, I really want to have a heavy rain at this time, wash my tiredness, I am tired to lie on the playground, looking at the still clear sky, finally Understand that, in the year of Gao Yi, I saw the mood of the school sister who was crying in the rain. I smiled silently. Now I only know the complaints. Where did the fighting spirit go? This rugged and hard road, Since I have chosen, no matter how much pain I have, I have to come to an end. Even if my heart is broken into pieces, I have to make up my own, and continue to finish the road I have not finished.

In the anxious wait, after listening to the last inspirational speech by the principal and other leaders, we stepped into the college entrance examination.

The college entrance examination is no stranger to me, but fear and fear are intensifying. Last year, I can still pin my hopes on the review, and this year I have no retreat. Success or failure is here.

After three days of suffering, the college entrance examination is finally over. I didn't tear the book like other classmates, yelling at the window, going to dinner at night, going to night at night. I just calmly packed my luggage, took my luggage, and stood at the door of the school, only free and relaxed.

In 365 days, I finally came over. In the third year, the teacher said that in order to take the college entrance examination, we have to lay a half life. In the fourth year of high school, I invested in the whole life. Regardless of success or not, I can smile and say to yourself, you Really hard work, you don't need to regret.

Maybe I have never been free and easy, and I have never been happy. The back of the heavy shell, from the beginning of the heavy to the last loss, and then gradually understand what, those journeys that have been through the heart, even if they do not go deep, remember the tears that are moved, then the back of the effort, even if it Not gorgeous, still the most beautiful scenery.