Daughter who has no ability

"The temper is bigger than the temper. If you have the ability, you will be admitted to the civil servant. Why bother at home, you can't take the test for so many years, and it is only a few years to take a test. Since then, why should you be at home?" The opening remarks, for many years, the three words that are not the ability are the ones in my heart. Whenever I hear people talking about these three words, I always have the anger of conditional reflection, even if I know that it is not me, but in my heart. The sour scorpion immediately came up, and then it was anger. Every time I listen to my parents, I ran back to the room, closed the door hard, and then I lie in bed and cry. I hate such a weak self. I am not as good as my uncle's children. I am not as good as other children in the community. Not as good as the children of other people in the office, but my strengths? Am I nothing? In my study and life, I dare not go to any activities, because if I don’t get a good ranking, I will be ruined and stupid. The first one in my work is to encourage me, he is the leader. Every time I say, you can, your ability to work is very strong, why is it so unconfident, and you have made a mistake. If you want to be afraid, people will make mistakes. That is the first time I heard someone else will confirm me, from small to big, every time I hear you can't, you can't, come back after graduation, we will find a relationship to help you arrange a job, and then continue I have been a civil servant, so that the three most disgusting words I have now are civil servants. I have regretted it many times. Why didn’t I try to fight hard when I graduated from college, why should I go home and miss the best time, only then? Find the best time. At home for two years, I realized that the contradiction will only intensify, so I only have to work hard to take the exam, to take the postgraduate entrance examination, to test far away, no longer like the university at home, the exam is far away, the parents’ hands can’t stretch so far. .

Some people say that parents are not far away. How good is it, you already have something that others have said, why bother to work hard, less ten years of struggle? However, really good? Not to mention that you are an adult, you should be your own, be alone, have responsibility and responsibility. Are you really willing to look at the elderly parents to ask for a temporary job? The hardest thing in the world is the human condition. Most of our parents' parents are fifty and up, and their responsibilities and obligations to us have already been exhausted. Today, I read an article in "New Weekly" about criticizing China's acquaintance society. Suddenly I feel that it is right. My family is a five-tier city. In the county-level city, everything is a relationship, and people at home are also In this small city, all the units, when you go out to meet acquaintances, sometimes feel that countless pairs of eyes are staring at you, do everything know, in contrast to the big cities, at least standardization is done very well, there are many things to put Competing on a platform, each with its own skills. This year is the last time I have worked hard for a postgraduate study. I will work hard and not ask for merit, but I will never ask for it.

My daughter, who is not capable, is really quite capable. The performance in the middle school is poor. After the so-called fast class is 20, the high school is in the ordinary class and has studied liberal arts. Although the exam can be in the top three in the class, the grade one is also fifty or sixty. The university went one or two. This college, the whole university period can only be summarized by one sentence, played by me for four years. The only good thing I did during the university was to ensure that there were no four-year grades, and that the English grade four was only tested in the senior year, and the others were basically gone. Maybe they are really not wrong, it is me wrong, that is, I am wrong. The daughter who has no ability, now I have to work hard, I still have a chance, isn’t it?