Why do you feel confused when you work so hard?

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After a certain time node, the friends around them have stepped into different life trajectories.

M, who used to take the camera and shuttle around the corner of the city, determined to be a freelance photographer, is now sitting in the civil servant’s office and boring to write a boring report;

I used to stay in the dorm to watch movies all day, determined to become a screenwriter, but now I am tired of basking in my friends and every day with my children;

I used to go to school to escape, and I decided to become a backpacker who traveled around the world, but now I started HR in an advertising company;

B, who used to hate books and wanted to leave school, is now continuing his studies far away in the United States;

Oh, and the T who used to be unrestrained and often gathered to drink and make trouble, but now he has started a Chinese teacher in Thailand;

And I, in this big Beijing city, just resigned and lost to the long road ahead.

I don't know if you are at the moment, are you dying for graduation but don't know where to go? Still feeling troubled for a certain relationship in the end should not continue? Or is it just like me, standing in the mouth of life, I don’t know how to make a choice and feel distressed?

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When I was in college, I still had a lot of energy. I could work in three jobs a day. I could save some tuition and living expenses and save some money to buy some favorite things. I felt that life was particularly easy to satisfy and I felt mentally. Very rich, I feel that compared with those of my peers who are playing online games in online cafes or dormitories, they are definitely the kind of people who are "working hard"; they think that their so-called social practice experience can be In the future work, lay a firm cornerstone.

Therefore, as soon as the university graduated, I couldn’t wait to get some good luggage and came to the emperor, who was far away from home more than 3,000 kilometers, to start a part of the North drift. I always thought that as long as I had a sincere heart, I could sway my own. Xintiandi.

At that time, I didn't seem to be as confused as a college graduate.

It’s probably because I love to watch movies and love to write film reviews on weekdays, so I’m going to invest my resumes in all kinds of big and small film and television companies. Because of my fate, I got the industry. The offer of a so-called film company with a halo.

It may not be good for a long time, and the direction of this work has not developed as expected.

First, its triviality, its glitz, gradually began to ruin my initial enthusiasm; second, this time all the work that needs to work overtime also sacrificed most of my private time and made myself feel difficult to breathe. . As a weekday who loves photography, loves writing, and is more self-righteous, it is enough to make me feel anxious, and let me begin to question the original choice.

So letting others advise, and how to say that this job can bring me any advantage in the future, I can't listen to it. At that time, I only had one idea - even if I let me go back to the previous day. The days are always better than being tormented here. As a result, I handed my resignation without hesitation, and resigned from the so-called work that made many people awkward.

Later, in the process of constantly exploring the direction and constantly encountering confusion, I turned to a full-time photographer and also worked as a text editor. Although I have experienced a variety of different workplaces, I still can't change the stink of "going away and leaving." I have not stayed in a position for a long time, and I don’t know much about a job.

I have seen such a sentence: "No matter what major you study, you must find a job you are looking for, so you are happy every morning from 6 am to 8 pm; find another person you like, so From 8:00 to 6:00 in the evening, I am happy. This is life. I used to use this sentence to make excuses for my lack of pragmatism. I also tried to cover up the uncertainty in my heart.

But now that this light has an idea, but what the fart has not been successful, I began to understand that in real life, the ideal is full, but the reality is really bone. Especially when you have neither a good family nor a great advantage, many roads can only go down to earth. You can't just measure what you want to do and don't do anything. After all, when a person's ability is not worthy of ambition, what to talk about, what to dream, is actually a fart.

Recalling the road that I have traveled, although I have worked hard to go to work, there is no clear direction behind every effort.

I want to roll home to be an ordinary teacher, live a leisurely life, teach my students; think of being a full-time writer, record every story I have seen and heard in words; think about staying in the emperor I can do my own business by proof; I want to do so much, but I calm down and think carefully, but I don’t know which way is right.

In this way, there is no directional imagination, and in the end, it is a kind of waste of life.

We always have to understand that it is awkward to find a job that you like and suits you. We are all trying to dig ourselves, but we often tend to toss for a long time, but we find ourselves still in confusion.

A person can give himself a year to two years to sort out his own ideas and explore his own direction, but if it is a long time, and it is still difficult to extricate himself in the usual state, it should be good. Conducted a self-examination and spur.

I understand that almost everyone's life goes through the stages from passion to confusion to embarrassment. When we first entered the workplace, we were always full of ambition and full of enthusiasm. We always thought that we could do a great job. But in the end, we found that our strength is so small. We are inevitably wiped out of enthusiasm by the boring work itself. Being complicated by the workplace consumes the nature, so many people choose to compromise, forget the original ambition, and instead pursue a stable life, spend their life in peace; there are also many people who are as confused as me, full of heart I want to make a lot of money, then go where I want to go, buy things I want to buy, and create a better life for my family. But when I think about it, when I am still confused, the most important thing is definitely not to make money, but Find your own direction, this way, do not ask to find what you like, but at least know what you don't like, don't want anything.

When we are young, we can give ourselves some time to try our mistakes, increase our knowledge in the process of trial and error, broaden our horizons, find the right direction, look young, find ourselves, find ourselves, don’t wait until we are no longer young, When you no longer need energy, you can talk about "finding direction."

What's more, I have always believed that everyone will experience such a period of confusion in different stages of life. From work to love, to the future, to marriage, none of them can be spared. I have always believed that this kind of thing will never be temporary. It is not only youth. It is an inseparable part of a person's life. It is unpredictable in every unpredictable moment. In life, trying to hinder the pace of our progress.

What we have to learn is not to compete with it, nor to compromise with it, but to learn to shake hands with it, and to constantly see ourselves from its body and understand what it is. It is also necessary to learn to find a precise direction, work hard for it, and not blindly consume your time and energy.

In short, I hope that I can become a person with independent thoughts, stay away from complaints, and be able to act in a down-to-earth manner. In this second, I will start to take life seriously and abandon those impetuous and down-to-earth. It is also necessary to find a clear direction, understand what you want, or do not want anything, to be able to bear the hardships and efforts of this road.

Although I always think that the "chicken soup" is an irresponsible performance, I can go to this moment and blame it. I sigh and sigh. I might as well cook this bowl of chicken soup, put it on the road, and master the works on the road. The confused bastards fight together, this time for nothing else, just for yourself.