We are destined to be genius

I feel that my life seems to have a "genius curse."

The genius is not me, but the classmates and friends around me. Since the beginning of the country, I have surrounded some sparkling geniuses. The boy who likes Ayumi Hamasaki, when he grew up, went to the Carnegie Hall to play a concert; the seniors of the next class won the Clayburn piano competition; my younger brother, who has not yet attended high school, has already cooperated with a famous orchestra in London; The best girlfriend with me, she went to high school when she was 12 years old. She is a small expert who is good at science.

Standing next to such a genius, I am not without anxiety. The achievements they have achieved in their youth have been the high points that many people still can't touch after decades of struggle. Most people can't reach half of them in any way. And I am part of these "many people": you practice hard for a month of skill, he only needs a few hours to play smoothly and naturally; you need to spend a lot of time to play the entire concerto, he It may be possible to listen to a score of 35 to 50 percent.

Genius is the most wonderful creature in the world. They love all the talents for art and create beauty for the world. Under the radiance of genius, we are constantly reminded of how mediocre they are. They often make me feel frustrated, gradually frustrating and turning into jealousy, ignoring resources, but not creating good. Under such awkwardness, I became a person who did not dare to give up easily. For people like me, giving up means more complete failure. Fortunately and unfortunately, it seems that it happened to me at the same time. My frustration is that the source itself is in genius and cannot be one of them; my luck is that it has been given the corresponding opportunities and the teachings of the teachers, so that I can learn how to be interested in small interests. Work hard.

Sometimes, I really appreciate those kind geniuses. They can only have a higher vision than me, but they have never treated me with a condescending attitude. On the contrary, they often advise me. They deeply influenced me through their own kindness; when I saw that they were unwilling to take care of their favorite subjects and beliefs, they gradually came up with the belief of “responsibility for life”—although mediocre, but also Let yourself be free from the limitations of the times and talents and pursue as much as possible the life you desire. The reason why I chose to write is probably also derived from this. Of course, there are many more motivations for writing, the desire to record the times, the hope of bringing gentle thoughts to others, and the curiosity of trying to try new things... All in all, this happened.

When I first started practicing writing, I didn't dare to have the hope of becoming a writer or publishing a text. At that time, I didn't write articles well, and I didn't have familiar editors to ask, let alone talk about natural good writing. An author who is a little bit sympathetic is a girl who writes in FanFiction. She specializes in hard sci-fi themes, with extraordinary imagination, the logic, characters, conflicts, long and short stories that can be used to build a story through words. I have no such ability at all. For this reason, my only method is still to practice more and ponder.

As for the way of practice, it is also based solely on personal exploration. It is nothing more than reading more books, reading books on writing theory, and insisting on writing thousands of words every day. All in all, the way in which a mediocre person grows is nothing more than a high-volume exercise through high pressure to seek the possibility of quantitative change. From thinking hard about the pen point, to gradually groping a little on the subject matter and structure, the writing efficiency is gradually improved with appropriate practice. The gods did not give me the artistic talent to transcend mortals, but let me live in this world with a sense of inability to become a genius. To be specific, it is the source of persistence and diligence; it is also these complex emotions that support me to finish the Douban column and thus obtain the publication contract for the two books.

In the process of writing a book, I naturally encounter doubts about myself, and I can't write a mood like writing a manuscript. I always feel that I have not written well when I am proofreading, and then I have to delete it again. It is inevitable that people will feel guilty. Maybe there will be more talent, more talent, and the situation will get better? However, how can people give up what they love because they are not good enough? Although I am mediocre, I also have dreams that I can't bear to give up. I also want to be able to record the era in which I live. I am stupid, but through continuous practice and revision, I can get some results.

When I was a child, I had a lot of dreams. When I was a scientist, I became a musician, and eventually I was getting farther and farther. However, we will find new dreams and new paths in practice. But no matter how we choose to chase our dreams, there must be various thorns on the road. You may, like me, look at the light of genius, and shocked it. However, if you simply do nothing because you are not a genius, it is too negative. The divide cannot be surpassed, but the effort itself is meaningful to the individual. Although self-blame is the inevitable emotion of life; however, giving up too early, always giving up, or never willing to take care of the goal, is ultimately not responsible for your own life, isn't it?

Two days ago, at your station, I saw SK-II video of Japanese ballet dancer Cang Yongmeisha. In this video, she describes how she is limited by physical conditions, but still changes her destiny as a dancer. As an Asian, she is naturally destined to have slender and elegant legs, because she is too small to stand out in the crowd; but her physical limitations have also led her to become "deferred not to bow to fate." In the end, she shined on the stage and became the first Asian-born chief dancer of the Boston Ballet.

I don't know how many people can rewrite their destiny. In other words, how much luck is needed to change the fate, and how many women can go from the ordinary starting point to the world-class stage just like Cang Yong Mesha. From hard work and persistence to real change of destiny, this road will inevitably require external factors such as luck, educational resources, and guidance from seniors. However, from an individual's point of view, changing one's own destiny probably requires the love of “not madness and no survival”; it also requires a high standard of eagerness and pursuit for intellectuals, virtue, and utilitarian goals.

Those who are destined to become geniuses are also qualified to fight for destiny and ideals with ordinary talents, to work hard and desire, to open the door to intellectual knowledge. I know my mediocrity, but I can't and don't want to compromise on it. Even if I can't reach the peak in the end, it is enough to let us live a fulfilling and meaningful life.