High four, tears into the youth of songs

High four, the tears of the song into the youth of the song <br /> text / Luo Guangtai A
I didn't expect to be so miserable in the college entrance examination. I was in good shape and thought that I had a good test, but when the score came out, I was crying. Looking at the well-tested classmates around me and looking at their bright smiles, I really hope to throw them into the Sahara Desert, or dig a hole in them to hide.
I sat on the bed sullenly, my mind was blank. I don't want to understand why I only took that point?
I didn't eat all day and night, and I didn't even have a door. I wanted to end this life in desperation. Seeing that I was so depressed, after I was persuaded to invalidate several times, my father finally became angry. He yelled at me emotionally and said that I didn't live up to expectations. I asked who I want to die to be alive. And my heart was blocked, and I quarreled with him. When I was out of the house, I threatened to never come back.
I jumped onto a bus and got off at the terminal on the other side of the city. Without a destination, I just want to leave home and not want to see people I know. After wandering for a while, I strolled into the nearby Internet cafe, where I was a quiet harbor. Until the next morning, the money in my pocket was running low, and I left the Internet cafe.
Back home, the home is locked. When I knocked on the door over and over again, the neighbor aunt came out. When I saw it, I was surprised to ask: "Child, where did you go? How come back now? Don't hurry to the People's Hospital, your father is looking for you everywhere last night. The car accident..." I didn't wait for her to finish, I went to the hospital.
Seeing the mother waiting outside the operating room, I whispered a "mother", and my mother turned to stare at me coldly, full of helplessness, tears in her face. The mother waved me and slapped me.
After 6 hours of rescue, his father’s life was back, but he lost his left calf forever. Later, Xiaogu told me that my father saw that I had not returned home in the middle of the night, and that my mobile phone was turned off again, so I looked around in confusion and worried that I could not do stupid things. He rode the locomotive to find me in the city. In the early morning, he bumped into an agricultural vehicle that had picked up vegetables in the corner of the street...
During that time, I took up the task of taking care of my father. But no matter how you do it, you can't alleviate my innermost embarrassment to my father. Growing up overnight, I said probably a child like me.
B
In August, everyone received a letter of acceptance from the university. Mother asked me to go back to repeat. I am a good student, or the director of the school's publicity department. If I go back as a "re-reading student", what is the face? I only hope that I can go out to work earlier and share some pressure for my parents. Because the driver ran away, the day was still not bright, there were no witnesses, the father did not see the license plate number when he was hit by a car, and all medical expenses had to be paid by himself. The family is financially strapped, and I don't want my parents to worry about me anymore. Even if I go to college next time, where does the large tuition come from?
Seeing my attitude is tough, my mother has been wiping tears. I used to be so proud, but in the future I have to turn into a talk of others after a meal.
When the father who was still in hospital knew that I refused to repeat, he was so angry that he had to tear off his infusion tube and said, "This is what you are paying for me?" The sad eyes pierced me. I stood in front of my father, lowered my head and looked at his empty left leg trousers with tears in his eyes.
"If you insist on not going back to repeat, I will not be cured, and the family will go back and wait for death." The father made an ultimatum.
"Xiao Lei, do you really want to kill your father? You go back to repeat, we will also supply you with the iron. You have the ability to read a famous name..." The mother choked, staring at me, father look at me. I looked up and hanged down. I became a "high school" student from the "excellent student" in the eyes of others. I really can't think about it...
"I know that you will be embarrassed, but you can't start all over again? Some people have been tested for a few years before, why can't you try again, give yourself a chance?" The father's attitude eased. Looking at the eyes of my parents, I bit my teeth and nodded heavily: "I accept your arrangements."
The college entrance examination failed, the responsibility is in me, how can my parents carry a heavy burden for me? How can I give up my college dream? The so-called "face" is all earned for themselves. What others think is ultimately something of others, and has nothing to do with my life. I made up my mind to go back to school and start my "high school" career.
C
The message I read back to school was passed out like the wind. Many old classmates sent me a newsletter to encourage me to say that they were waiting for me on the university campus.
On the familiar campus, I am already a "high school". In the face of others or enthusiasm or deliberate inquiry, I will ignore it. The once radiant student council minister, now only a "high school" student. The strange eye spurs on the back, and I try to be calm.
The school arranged me to repeat the test. When I entered the class I was re-reading on the first day, I met someone who I really didn't want to meet in this situation - Cheng Ying. She used to be the deputy director of the Propaganda Department of the Student Union. It turned out that we often cooperated with the work of the school arrangement, and it was a cooperative partner.
If we are just such a working relationship, I will not feel embarrassed in front of her. More importantly, Cheng Ying once liked me, and even bravely confessed to me. I didn't have this meaning to her, and at the time I was facing the college entrance examination, I refused her indifferently. I said to her: "I want to go to college, come to Tsinghua to find me!" My refusal is not blunt, but it also hurt her heart. She is a small pepper-type girl who has "revenge". After I refused, I lost my face and resigned from the work of the Student Union. She also threatened to hate me for a lifetime.
When Cheng Ying saw me, she was astonished as she met a ghost in the daytime. Perhaps, seeing me again on the high school campus is tantamount to seeing her in the daytime. I don't even believe in myself. I will not go to college, I will come back to read, let alone others.
"Xiao Lei? You..." Cheng Yinglian also said that it was unfavorable. I looked at her slyly and prepared for her stormy and ironic blows. Just beyond my expectations, Cheng Ying did not sneer at me, but the eyes were full of pity and pain. At this time, I hate her eyes and make me feel pitiful and even sad.
"Xiao Lei..." Cheng Ying called me, I pretended not to hear, took out the books, and studied hard. I was not touched by her enthusiasm and friendliness. I only refused. I hope she will stop bothering me. I don’t need comfort. I just want to spend the "High School" quietly.
D
I am fully committed to learning, and only then can I calm myself down. My grades are good, and I will re-read for a year. Each exam will be ranked in the top grades. In the face of the envious eyes of others, I am not happy at all. I know that the last talent in the college entrance examination is the winner.
The days are as calm as water, I wrap myself and struggle.
I thought I could throw Cheng Shua beyond my memory and thought that there would be no intersection between us. But sometimes the more you want to escape, the more you can't escape.
When I came to the classroom that night, when I came to the classroom, Cheng Ying was quarreling with others. Anyway, it didn't matter to me. I went straight to my seat and read the book. Seeing me in, everyone turned their eyes to me. I looked up curiously and thought: Why do everyone look at me with strange eyes? I didn't think there was anything wrong with it, and I picked up the book.
"Cheng Ying, do you think he will like you? He doesn't even want to look at you even if he doesn't even look at you. I'm so passionate about it. I said what happened to him? Not a repeat student!" The girl shouted in a mean voice.
"He doesn't see me obstructing you? I won't allow you to say bad things about him." Cheng Ying is not to be outdone.
When these words were poured into my ears, I was shocked. They turned out to be because I was quarreling.
Quarreling, Cheng Yingqi, but actually rushed to the girl to slap a slap in the face. The girl also waved her arm and pulled the hair of Cheng Ying, and the two twisted into a ball. Some students began to squat on the side, and the whole classroom became a mess. When the teacher came, the girl still said: "Cheng Ying, I am not finished with you, our sister is over. For him, you actually beat me." Cheng Yinghong red face, not snoring.
I suddenly noticed that the girl turned out to be a good friend of Cheng Ying. Before, when I refused Cheng Sakura, she was there. Suddenly, my heart became a mess. I know that I can't do anything that didn't happen. I wanted to talk about Cheng Ying, but I can't speak. After hesitating for a long time, I wrote a letter to Cheng Ying.
I told her that she hopes she can put the college entrance examination first. At the same time, I am very grateful to her for her maintenance, but also reminded her that this time is enough. Her grades are good, and she can get into a good school if she plays normally. The college entrance examination lost the pain of crying, I don’t want her to experience it. This is the only thing I can do for Cheng Ying.
E
Faced with the college entrance examination again, I didn't have the initial passion and fanaticism, and I didn't have a great embarrassment. I just wanted to live a good life every day and seriously complete the review tasks arranged by the teacher. The eyes that my parents are looking forward to are like a lamp in my heart, always reminding me: I must be admitted to the ideal university.
Heavenly rewards, God still cares about my diligent "high four" students. After the college entrance examination again, I finally got the third place in the city. On the night of knowing the score of the college entrance examination, my parents were drunk and hugged me with tears. I know in my heart that this year's time is just as painful for me and my parents.
At night, I was still sitting in front of the window in the attic, looking at the bright moon outside the window, my thoughts. The moonlight is like water, the air is mixed with the fragrance of the night, and the songs from time to time come from far away. This warm moonlight night, I burst into tears.