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The previous article, "The real thing is the mortal who still smiles in the predicament," made us know that "Bai Cheng Cheng Hao", one born in 1993, did not go down the road, the doctor had decided to live. At the age of five, young people who have never attended school but love to read, strong and optimistic, many people are shocked and moved by his "both". Unfortunately, Cheng Hao died a few days ago, hoping that he can continue to continue in another world.

On August 21, 2019, 20-year-old Cheng Hao passed away. That day, he asked his mother to buy food. He said, "Let's go, when you come back, buy me a bottle of pulsation, a box of artichokes, and a box of Want Want milk." After 20 minutes, I went back to the ward and watched Cheng Hao like I fell asleep, my eyes closed, my hand was still on the e-book, but the book has become a screensaver... Behind Niu Chenghao is the mother who accompanied her son countless times to receive the critical notice - Li Zhe.

The mother behind Niu Chenghao, my mother loves you again.

Now, Li Zhe also thinks that his son Cheng Hao is sleeping. "I went to the funeral parlor last night to dress him, it was too cold, and he was put on a down jacket. His body was already deformed and not very good. I felt that his body was soft when I picked him up. It’s stiff. It’s just like falling asleep. A few days ago he still said that we went back to Shihezi in mid-October.”

In the past 20 years, she has accompanied her son numerous times to receive critical notices. Two days ago, there was no critical notice, but it finally arrived.

"He is slow to eat, and it takes more than an hour for a meal. I teach him the use of multi-tone words while feeding."

When he was born, Li Zhe was 25 years old. When the child was 6 months old, the family found that he was not moving in bed and could not stand up. He took him to Shihezi for inspection. "At the time, Shihezi Second Hospital said it was a cerebral palsy. I didn't look like it, the children looked very clever. They let me give up, take a shot, don't want him. Go to Urumqi, the doctor said that he is up to five years old. I don't believe it. The child is also very fat, and will say that mother is going home. When the child says 'mother', I feel that I can't want him."

After taking it for eight months, Cheng Hao has been moving. But he spoke early. When he was one year old, Li Zhe took him to Beijing and Tianjin to see a doctor. The hospital in Beijing gave a test result: cerebral palsy, a question mark. "If it is cerebral palsy, language ability will be particularly bad, a bit silly, it is impossible to speak so early." Tianjin hospital gave a test result: muscle weakness, a question mark. "If it is muscle weakness, it is impossible to stand up and hold it. You can only lie down and hug it."

I saw two or three years old when I saw a doctor. There was no result. Later, I heard about Guo Zhicheng, a master of Qigong. Li Zhe went to Shijiazhuang with Cheng Hao for half a year, and every day, he did not see the effect. When he was three or four years old, taking him to the Urumqi Air Force Hospital did not work. "The child is guilty, there is no place from head to toe, and there is no place to cry." Li Zhe later did not take him to see a doctor. "At that time, he looked chubby, nothing abnormal."

Before he was 5 years old, he was a little more. After the age of 6, it is basically Li Zhe belt. When Cheng Hao was 6 years old, Li Zhe taught him Pinyin and gave him a dictionary of Guo Xiaosheng. "He was still able to sit at that time. He was sitting on the sofa. When I was cooking, he turned the dictionary. When he encountered a polyphonic word that he didn't understand, he would ask me when he was eating. He had a slow meal, a meal. For more than an hour, I taught him the use of multi-tone words while feeding." At that time, Cheng Hao love asked and loved to say that he recognized the words. Li Zhe bought him a storybook with pinyin. "As soon as I came back and put him on the couch, he started reading."

When Cheng Hao was a child, he received a lot of small car models, most of which were bought by Li Zhe. He loves toys very much and doesn't play bad. After he was older, he gave the car model to the relatives of the family. He used everything he used. "If you buy something back, he won't even throw the box. The e-book box, the box where the netizen sends the gift, he won't let it throw, and always say that one day you have to put it in."

Li Zhe also spent 220 pieces to buy a remote-controlled locomotive for Cheng Hao. Cheng Hao was in a wheelchair and could make the locomotive run very far. He could turn around automatically when he encountered obstacles. "He often plays in a wheelchair in the square, and many children are watching him. He is happy." Later, the small locomotive went out of trouble, and Cheng Hao refused to give it away, and kept it at home.

When the computer first came out, Li Zhe bought one for Cheng Hao. "At that time, he was eight or nine years old. I put him on the bed every day when I went to work, let him play the computer. I used a quilt to block it, afraid that he would get under the bed. When he was tired, he would send me a newsletter, saying Mom is coming back, I am tired. I will go back and help him to lie down, or change his position."

"I took a small wooden stool in the hospital and squatted on his bed. I sat for three days and three nights. I didn't eat or drink. Finally he woke up. I didn't know about menstruation. When I went to the store, because Sitting for too long, fell directly from the stairs."

Cheng Hao’s first critical illness was 11 years old, and the heart failure notice was written about heart failure. After that, he was basically ill twice in one year. A cold can cause his lungs to infect and induce heart failure. One year, Cheng Hao was in the hospital for three months. In these three months, Li Zhe’s daily life line is from the office to the hospital. Going home is just changing clothes. "There was no one in the hospital. I didn't know me. The cleaners said hello to me. There are times when he seems to be no longer, but he looks at you, like he is living with you, and his mouth keeps shouting at his mother. Mom... What can you do? I can only do everything I can to save him."

Another time is critical, Cheng Hao is unconscious and can only rely on oxygen to fight liquid. "A full 9 days, do not drink water, do not eat. I took a small wooden stool in the hospital, kneeling on his bed, sitting for three days and three nights, no food, no drink, no movement. Finally he woke up, myself I don’t know about menstruation. When I go to the store, because I sit too long, I will fall directly from the stairs."

Usually, the blood vessels of Cheng Hao are not difficult to find, but as long as the body is out of condition, his blood vessels become invisible at all, and the needle is particularly difficult. "He didn't swear, he endured. I don't know how much to tie. Sometimes I can't stand it, I don't look at it. Then I can't help it. I can only get the arteries on my neck. One is good." Infusion for 24 hours a day for a few days."

When Cheng Hao was fourteen years old, Li Zhe pushed him in a wheelchair to go out on a weekend. In the winter, he also took him to ski through the snow. In the West Park, in the Recreational Plaza, and in the New Century Plaza, someone looked at him. He would turn his head and talk to Li Zhe: "You look at how handsome I am, and everyone looks at me."

In the past few years, Cheng Haolian could not sit in a wheelchair. Going out very little. The muscles in his body are shrinking and the whole person becomes thin and small.

In order not to let Cheng Hao be wronged, to go to other cities to see a doctor, Li Zhe will choose the mild climate in March and April. "Get out of the house and get on the bus and get to the airport. You will also get in touch with the hospital before you go. Get off the plane and go directly to the hospital. After you finish reading, go directly to the plane and go home." They ran all over the country's famous big hospitals, but they went There has been no definitive diagnosis. Cheng Hao often said to Li Zhe, "Mom, if I am dead, donate my cornea. Donate my body for anatomy. Anatomy of me, find out the cause, find a cure, can save many people. Otherwise, what is the difference between burying me and throwing garbage?"

"I am afraid every day. He will turn over at night. If he doesn't turn over for a long time, I will touch him quickly."

Cheng Hao loves to be clean and wears clothes that are all white. In the past two years, he likes to look at clothes online and buy a little more clothes, red, yellow, green and blue. But every time he pays, he must ask Li Zhe for approval. "Before I bought clothes for him, I wanted a round neck, a cotton T-shirt. Although he is already twenty years old, his figure is still like twelve or three years old. The clothes that others buy for him are generally not worn."

Usually, Cheng Hao pays special attention to wearing clothes and sleeping, especially for colds. Sleeping at night, Li Zhe will prepare three quilts for him at the foot, cover a thin blanket in the middle of the night, change a small towel at night, and change into a small quilt in the middle of the night. "Other people think that I am tired, but I feel used to it. He brings me a lot of happiness. Every night we are lying in bed, talking for a long time. At 10:30, we have to talk about twelve. I only go to sleep later. He is very cheerful. I have to tell him anything."

Cheng Hao's chat content is different for each age group. When he was a child, he would talk to his mother about Guo Jingming and Han Han. Now, there are fewer topics about idols between mother and child. More articles are written and articles written by Cheng Hao. Li Zhe joked with him: "Hey, you wrote it quickly, or you can't send it out one day. You can't make it too uncomfortable, you can't close your eyes." Life and death are common among mother and child. The joke theme.

Sometimes Li Zhe will also tease him after the rescue: "You see, God does not accept you, and sent you back, you will live well." Sometimes Li Zhe said to Cheng Hao: "You can not I left it, I can't stand it." Cheng Hao will answer her earlier: "You are uncomfortable in the first year, and uncomfortable in the second year. The fourth year of the third year will be slow." Later, Cheng Hao will say: "You can rest assured. I will accompany you to 80 years old."

Li Zhe complained that he was too tired and too tired to live. Cheng Hao told her not to talk nonsense: "You are also laughing for a day, crying is also a day, don't think about those unhappy things, think more happy things, you Don't you just suffer? Let's count on others, we don't expect it. When I really can't go, I will say it again." "I am lying alone in the room, I am not tired, I can stick to it. When you really face death, Your thoughts will change immediately."

Every time Cheng Hao is in critical condition, Li Zhe will think that he can come over. "What is the happiness that Cheng Hao brought to me, I can't say it. Others think that I am tired, I don't feel it myself, I just feel very happy. I can go home every day to chat with him, joking, teasing him. He hears the door ringing. Ask who. I will return to him, me. If he comes back late, he will ask, why are you going back so late, can't you come back soon?"

Due to the shrinking of the body, Cheng Hao's heart is very close to the skin, just like a layer of skin. Sometimes Li Zhe teased him: "I said Cheng Hao, take a needle and lick it. Look at your feelings? See if you will hurt." Cheng Hao said that he had a headache, Li Zhe said: "Are you? Long brain tumors, you, you are so long, you will end up with a brain tumor, you can't live more than one day." Cheng Hao also leaned back to her: "You don't want to talk nonsense, you can't hope me a little better?" Can't you comfort me?"

Cheng Hao will imagine his death in the article, but never tell Li Zhe that she is sad. "I am afraid every day. He will turn over when he sleeps at night. If he doesn't turn over for a long time, I will touch him quickly." Due to long-term bed rest, Cheng Hao has stones on his kidneys and gallbladder. In the hospital, there is almost no inspection he can do. "Let him take a chest film, he can't shoot anything at all. It's all foggy, nothing can be seen. When you do CT, the whole left lung is not developed, just a flat strip. As long as he catches a cold, he has difficulty breathing. I only have to prepare a small oxygen cylinder for him. I am not comfortable and I will take oxygen immediately."

In the Spring Festival of 2019, Cheng Hao got a cold and couldn't do it right away. Li Zhe called 120 and sent him to Shihezi People's Hospital. After entering the ward, the patients in the two beds next door died in succession. Cheng Hao is very calm.

"I sleep next to him every day and feel practical. If I sleep in another room, I will not be practical and can't sleep. I sleep lightly, and I will hear the sound of the mouse."

Cheng Hao has set a detailed plan for himself, and he must read 100,000 words every day. This 100,000 words is basically read on the Internet and e-books. He looks very hard on the paper book and needs Li Zhe to help him turn the page. Li Zhe also joked with him: "Look at it every day, I can't move it. I look at it again someday. I see what you do when you are lying down."

Read in the morning and write in the afternoon. Because he can't sit up, Cheng Hao can only use the mouse to type on the soft keyboard. "He plays the word and you will hear the sound of sly, very fast." But when Li Zhe slept at noon, Cheng Hao did not write. "I have to take care of him at night. I can't sleep well. I slept for an hour every day at noon. I slept next to him every day and felt that I was practical. If I slept in another room, I wouldn't be practical and couldn't sleep. I slept lightly, he I will hear the sound of the mouse. So he watched the movie at noon, and waited for me to wake up and write again."

Cheng Hao thinks a lot about others. He will only ask Li Zhe to help him turn over, change his posture, and drop one. "If I am not there, others ask him if you have anything? He always answers the anecdote. He is screaming when he is tired. When I come back, he will tell me, he is exhausted."

From small to large, Cheng Hao did not go to school. The only friend of the same age who can chat face to face is his cousin. "His sister studied Chinese medicine and interned in Wuhan. Two people often closed the door to come to the film to chat. She thought much, and everything likes to talk to Cheng Hao. He is always guiding others, I asked him what to talk about. He said that you do so much."

A while ago, he asked if he could give a girl a rose; Li Zhe said, yes, you have money in Alipay, this is your right. Cheng Hao said, I will tell you about it, at least I have to pass your consent. But whether or not there is a girlfriend, he did not tell Li Zhe exactly.

Cheng Hao is much maturer than his peers, and he is not at all like 20 years old. "He basically touches adults and reads too much. He sees the problem clearly. Because of his physical condition, he especially looks at other people's faces, especially afraid to see some strange eyes. Fear of being hated. Eating When he can't let his mouth touch something, he can't have a drop of oil on his body."

He said: "Let's go. When you come back, buy me a bottle of pulsation, a box of artichokes, and a box of Want Want milk."

At noon on August 21, 2019, Cheng Hao looked good and waited to be discharged tomorrow.

Cheng Hao is in the hospital bed to look at e-books, take the phone to the Internet, chat with his mother. He said, "Mom, I am busy at home to write things online, I don't have time to read books, and the books are less. I am here, I have read the first part of this book these few days, can see the first The second part." Cheng Hao always wanted an e-book, but he felt that seven or eight hundred is too expensive. I am sorry to ask Li Zhe. The one in his hand was bought by him at the cost of the manuscript.

He asked Li Zhe to buy food and asked her to help get the e-book. When Li Zhe left, he still joked and said, "Mom, come back soon, don't go for a long time, wait for me to finish the bottle, and the blood will rush into the bottle." I said, "You can rest assured that it has flowed out and I gave it to me." You call in." I said, "I am leaving," he said. "Let's go. When you come back, buy me a bottle of pulsation, a box of artichokes, and a box of Want Want milk."

Li Zhe went for twenty minutes and went running when he went. As soon as I entered the ward, I saw Cheng Hao as if I was asleep, with my eyes closed. The hand is also placed on the e-book. But the book has become a screensaver, and Cheng Hao has not touched the screen for a long time.

"I said my son, I went to sleep in less than twenty minutes. What happened? I put him on the table and I went to shake him, but he didn't respond. His left chest is almost a leather bag with ribs. The beat of the heart can be seen from the skin. I opened his clothes and couldn't see the beat. I went out and called the doctor. But it was useless to rescue.

I guess he is a Leica, because I am not there, just squatting. There was an internal bleeding, and the blood from the stomach, he kept groaning, waiting for someone to take the glass to spit it out.

In the summer, I bathe him every day to change clothes. So he may also get used to it.

I really should be by his side. I shouldn't have to go at that time.

Cheng Hao does not like photography. But on the morning of August 21, Li Zhe took a mobile phone and said that he would take pictures of him. He did not refuse. "Let's take it. Take a picture on the face and take a needle on one arm. Don't take care of it." After four or five photos, Li Zhe said that he would send it to QQ to talk, and he agreed. . "Generally he is not willing. But that morning he said, you want to send it, it's okay. I didn't think it was his last photo."

Cheng Hao has a total of three computers, two notebooks, and only he uses a desktop computer. Li Zhe was afraid that he would lie down and look at his eyes and buy him the biggest display. Cheng Hao recorded all the registration information in the notebook. Li Zhe used to joke with him. "Son, can you give all your passwords to your mom? If you suddenly close your eyes, my mom doesn't even find a place."

He also has detailed information on the netizens who have a good relationship with him. His netizens came from all over the country. In the past two days, Li Zhe was constantly answering the phone. "There was a boy who said tears when he said it. 'I was pulled back from the disease, and I feel that life makes sense. I didn't expect him to walk in front of me.'"

Li Zhe found the diary that Cheng Hao wrote every day, and the last one was written on May 20. "I am constantly answering other people's questions. When others are confused, I keep guiding. I have to take care of all the problems, all the people, I am very tired. But I am also very fulfilling." And these He never told his mother. Li Zhe did not understand why, after this, Cheng Hao did not write another word.

Cheng Hao rarely uses Li Zhe's mobile phone to access the Internet. As long as I used up, I immediately let Li Zhe withdraw QQ. However, on the morning of August 21, Cheng Hao used QQ on Li Zhe's mobile phone and did not ask her to quit. At noon, Cheng Hao died, Li Zhe later saw his QQ. "At the time I went in, I saw more than 20 messages. He only replied two or three...".

On August 21, 2019, Bole City, Xinjiang, was sunny. The day is 7:27 and the sunset is at 21:10. At noon, Cheng Hao, 20, stopped breathing.

The small town he was born in is an oasis in the northwestern frontier. There are very few people here and there are many trees. The sky all year round is blue to abnormal. In the winter of half a year, there are temperatures of minus 30 degrees and heavy snow to the knees. The extravagant summer is not long, it is cool in the morning and evening, the rain is rare, and the sun shines.

In this quiet, simple, unchanging small city, the most important thing is the sun. The long sunshine gave the children here a obsession with light, and Cheng Hao is no exception.

"I will donate my body, including the cornea. Use my soul to open up another world for you. I want to let my eyes replace me and continue to illuminate this beautiful world."

"Happiness is just waking up, and the sun outside the window is still bright."