Allow yourself to fail

The sun was shining high outside the window. At that moment, my mood was frustrated to the extreme!

Never, never been as frustrated as it was at that time! Students are not well tested and their children are not well tested! I am not a qualified teacher, nor a qualified mother! What am I? I am nothing! The teacher's qualified mother is not, and what good is it? Holding the student's papers, I read it over and over again; with the children's papers, I read it over and over again!

I don't know where the problem is, but I must find the reason!

Mr. patted my back and said softly: "Let's go for a walk!" He knew that my heart was uncomfortable and wanted to comfort me, but I didn't know how to comfort me! I know that what I should do at this time is to put down my hands. Everything, let go of everything in my heart, accept the advice of the gentleman, walk into nature, let yourself "look at the peaks, and sneak into the valley"! But I don't, I sit there stubbornly, letting Mr. helplessly!

The child came over and whispered, "Mom, don't be sad, I will work hard next time!" I ignored him, sat there, and kept a constant posture. I am angry with his sloppy! I want to cry and cry, but I can't cry! I don't know why, I can't cry out! Because I can't cry, I feel even more sad. I seem to be deliberately letting the child and the gentleman follow me. Because I know, I am sad, they will be more sad than me! But I still have to do that! In my subconscious, I just deliberately want to make them sad, let them be punished! Because I know that our family’s sky will Because my unhappiness is clouded.

I sat there stubbornly, deliberately letting myself fall into a sad situation infinitely. I have passed the age of being easy to be frustrated and easy to be frustrated. I am not a person who is keen on fame and fortune. I never care what others think of me, but why am I so incomprehensible? Why can't I be calm and face everything as I used to?

I asked myself: Why do you want to do this, torment yourself and torment your family? How awkward wife, how irresponsible mother!

What is it that you are uncomfortable? Is this really important for you? Yes, the students did not take the first place this time. It is a little worse than the previous semester. Is it irreparable? For two years? As for the children, although they did not get the first, but the second is not bad compared with the previous! Compared with other children, it should be considered excellent! Not to mention the end of the eighth grade, there is still one year Of course, if the child can get the first place this year, he will definitely be recruited by key schools next year. This has always been your goal. However, can such a result change because of your sadness? What's more, this is no longer a chance! Back 10,000 steps, even if you haven't been recruited, can you still take the test? For students, you can't think of it. To the parents, is it true? After so many years, you have done a good job, how many parents can really feel the hard work of being a teacher? When you go to college, it is that the children are smart; if you are not admitted to college, that is the teacher. Not good. Why care about these, just plain-minded! Perhaps, you are sad because this failure will make you faceless, because you have almost failed? You are afraid of other people's ridicule, right? Really someone will laugh at you? Yes, it’s just that you and yourself can’t go through it! In the eyes of others, today’s you are no different from yesterday’s, who cares about your failures? Who hasn’t failed? No one cares about yourself, no one cares. Allow yourself to fail, give yourself a smile and give your family a smile. If you fail yourself and pay for your family's happiness, isn't it more failure? This is not your original intention. Your greatest wish is the happiness and happiness of your family!

Ten minutes later, I stood up and took a deep breath. I said loudly to my husband and the child with a pleasant voice: "It’s sunny, let’s go out!”