Jin Xuliang: A 10-year review of an ordinary IT person (middle)

Jin Xuliang: A 10-year review of an ordinary IT person
Middle Part: Hard Life <br /> From this on, I have taken the road that is the hardest way for me to go, and is a purgatory of life.
First, the failure of the first postgraduate study <br /> After the postgraduate examination, I went to buy the relevant materials, took out the college textbooks that had been sold as waste paper for a long time, and started my student life.
Where is the university? This is the first question I have to consider. At that time, there was another high school student who was also preparing for postgraduate study. He was also a computer. He reported to the graduate school of Guangxi Normal University.
My parents advised me to also take a postgraduate degree at Guangxi Normal University or my alma mater, Guangxi University, saying that it is much better to test, and it is also possible to ask people to walk. But I am very embarrassed. I have been mixing in West University for 4 years. I have not learned anything. What am I going to do there? I remembered the dream of high school and decided to directly test the colleges and universities in Beijing. Of course, Peking University Tsinghua does not dare to think about it. After working in the community for a few years, I know that I have a few pounds, but there are dozens of colleges and universities in Beijing. I can't listen to my parents anymore. I have to go my own way, my own destiny is responsible, so I insisted on taking the school in Beijing.
The friends who know this thing have expressed surprise to me. After working for 4 years, the knowledge in the school has been almost forgotten. I also want to directly test the school in Beijing. It is very difficult. I believe many people think that my hope for success is very high. Hey. Facts have proved that their views are correct, but not all right, because there is no absolute thing in the world.
At this time, I was still working in a private company, so I went to work during the day and spent the night fighting at night. I didn’t rest at less than 12 o'clock every night.
After half a year of review, I participated in the National Graduate Entrance Examination in January 1997. The results came out. My professional class was no problem, but the mathematics scored 44 points. There is no doubt that the name is Luoshan.
This is a blow, but it doesn't have much impact on me.
At this time, when I was a child, my aunt who lived next door came to Guilin. She said that her daughter had graduated from the school last year, but she also did not. She used to study undergraduate at the Beijing Institute of Fashion and graduated from a state-owned enterprise in Liuzhou, Guangxi. After working for one year. After taking the exam, she gave her a job and went to the Beijing classmates' home for a year. In 1997, she graduated successfully.
It is a great encouragement to know this message. I think she can be a girl who is younger than me. Why can't I? I tried to contact her. In the later years of the postgraduate examination, she gave me great help, helped me buy the information, helped me with the results, wrote to me, encouraged me to stick to it...
The grace of dripping water, when the spring is reported.
Most people in the world will only "add icing on the cake," but only "the charcoal in the snow" is the most precious. She is my "snow in the snow" person, she graduated from Qingdao after graduation, and broke the news, but I always remember her help. I decided that from now on, if I have the ability to help others, I must help people. The world is full of too many bad things, and I should try to add something good to it, even if it seems insignificant.
Second, the "earth buns" of the trip to Beijing

1. Zhongguancun’s impression is just right. In 1997, my eldest brother studied art at the Central Academy of Fine Arts in Beijing. I decided to continue my postgraduate study next year. I resigned from working in a private computer company and came to Beijing at the end of June. Big brother's dormitory. From June to July, I studied computer maintenance in Beihang University. In July, I participated in the examination course of Chen Wendeng teacher. I stayed until mid-September and I returned to Guilin.
The Central Academy of Fine Arts moved to the West Eight Room in the northwest corner of Beijing. I lived in the student dormitory together with my eldest brother. I have met a lot of big brothers from all over the country who are engaged in art. I like to be with people who are engaged in art. They are colorful, vivid oil paintings, and some hand-crafted works with exquisite design. It is a beautiful experience. They are another way of thinking compared to our engineering people.
In July, my eldest brother will return to Guilin. Before returning to Guilin, I helped him and his classmates to buy three computers in the Zhongguancun electronics market. The most popular electronic market at that time was the Zhongguancun electronics market, which is where the Peking University Pacific Computer Store is located. At that time, the electronics market was bustling, and such a boom was something I had never seen before in Guangxi. On the street, I can see the Taiwanese printer, and the person who is carrying a scanner, sells computer accessories as cabbage. This is my first impression of the famous Zhongguancun Electronic Street.
I went to Zhongguancun and met the companies I am very familiar with: Peking University Founder, Jinshan WPS, Jiangmin Technology... I saw the bookstores with piles of books in Beijing, and I was deeply impressed that this place is a sea of ​​knowledge. I feel that I have experienced the IT industry in China. Pulse.
After my brother returned, I stayed alone in Beijing and rode a bicycle to visit the most famous universities in China: Peking University and Tsinghua University. The picturesque unnamed lake of Peking University was filled with lotus leaves everywhere. The lawn of Tsinghua Pingping exhibited a flat and open heart. . Across the wall, inside and outside the campus, there are two different atmospheres, no name, no name, but let me feel that this 20-year-old has not been out of Guangxi.
2, "crazy" exam course

I am attending a summer school Wendeng school. The fourth floor of the dilapidated school of the Central University of Finance and Economics, filled with students from all over the country, lived with me, one is Hubei, one is northeast, one is Sichuan, for the same purpose, everyone from Tiannan and the north gathered together. I really felt a feeling of "home". It turned out that there are so many fellow travelers in the world. I am just an inconspicuous "old student" among the hundreds of thousands of Chinese candidates, but it is not a "fan". Into."
The days of the postgraduate class are the days of "crazy learning."
I remember that we need to go to the auditorium of the Northern Jiaotong University to listen to the political class of the teacher of the People's University, Suo Aiqun. The auditorium of more than 1,000 people was crowded and even sat in the aisle. In front of the teacher's podium, there are more than one hundred kinds of tape recorders. There are more than one hundred students. The students from all over the country hold a bottle of mineral water. In the hottest July in Beijing, they are taking notes in the rain! During this time, I used to go to 7 notebooks! This atmosphere, I have never seen before in Guangxi. I originally thought that I had worked hard enough, and when I went to the Beijing Postgraduate School, it was nothing.
The mathematics taught by Chen Wenguang has left me with the most profound impression. He does not need to give lectures in class. All the examples are recorded in his mind. You can write them out at once, and it is not bad. It also summarizes a set of problem-solving methods. I am open-minded. I saw it. It turns out that a person can be skilled in this job to the point of this! Later, I will talk about another old professor who is worthy of respect and dedication, and is not a qualified laborer.
I stayed until I had no money to leave Beijing. These three months have spent all my savings for a few years of work, but the impact on me is huge. What is the best place for learning in China? Best for learning computers? In my opinion, only Beijing!
I am determined to go to Beijing to learn computer technology.
3, almost hit the fatal blow
In mid-September, I returned to Guilin and began preparing for the second year of postgraduate study.
But life is not sympathetic. I take it for granted that after passing the guidance of a famous teacher in Beijing, I did not have mathematics last year. This year should be no problem, but it is not the case.
The mathematics test in 1998 suddenly had a big change. This math test was particularly difficult, and the amount of questions was particularly large. The national pass rate was only 7%, with an average score of more than 30 points. I will call this test question the title of "metamorphosis". The questions that the professors who stayed in the air-conditioned room dig into the problem can make me miserable. I think that the psychological quality is strong enough, but because of the fate of this exam relationship, my hands are shaking in the examination room, almost fainting, the big questions in the road can not be done there, it is like Constantly smirking, I am not self-sufficient, and it is like a bloody mouth with a bloody face. I swallowed it in one mouth, and even the bones did not spit.
After finishing the math, I knew that I had no play this year. It turned out that there were dozens of candidates in a test center, and less than one-third of the students were left after completing mathematics. I insisted on completing the following subjects. At a time when I knew that there was no hope but only one kind of faith supported the end to the end, I really didn't know how to finish the professional examinations at the time.
In March, the results came down. My math scores made me almost jump to the river - 13 points! I have worked hard since I was a child, and I have never taken such a low score. It’s a record! At that time, I was so discouraged that I was going to give up my postgraduate studies. I went to Guangdong to work, find a place to wander around the world, and live by myself. I really have no face to stay at home.
At this time, my older brother advised me: You have been tested twice. I think that you are poor in mathematics. You have crossed the other classes. The professional courses are still more than 80 points. Why not continue to work hard? Concentrate on getting the math done. If you give up now, you will give up!
I am stupid, and it is slow from the elementary school. This is a big weakness. But God is fair. He gives you a weakness and also provides a way for you to overcome this weakness.
I am stupid, but I am strong, but I am diligent, but I insist that people are one, I am ten, stupid birds fly first, the ancients have it, the ancients can do it, why can't I do it? Is this the end of the game? I am not satisfied, not reconciled! So, I made up my mind to fight again.
I don't have a job right now, and I don't want to go to work anymore. When I live at home, I am doing a book with mountains. At the crucial moment, the elderly parents unconditionally supported me. They silently took everything, let me have food, give me a quiet environment, let me realize my dream.
I deeply feel how unconditional my parents' love is! I am a twenty-five-six-year-old man, staying at home to have a meal, and letting my parents worry about my future. The kind of heart-wrenching, now I think I have a feeling of crying. The man has tears and does not flick, just because he is not sad! Here, I want to say to my parents affectionately: Your son will never forget your kindness. I hope that the two old people will take care of themselves and must wait until they see me live a good life.
4, reflect, take your own path!
When the postgraduate exam failed, I repeatedly thought, why did I listen to the secrets of the questions taught by Chen Wendeng, but the exam was even worse? Why did others use Chen’s method to test out good grades? It seems that the specific situation of each person is different. There is no "martial arts secret" that can make people violent. From this incident, I have learned that we must not believe in authority and superstition theory. Later, I held different views on many phenomena and trends such as CMM heat, design patterns, software engineering and other theories. I believe that it is not feasible to copy the Western things as they are, without thinking through their own brains, without practice. Test, don't believe anything!
From 98 to January 1999, I cut off all external contacts and locked myself in my home. My parents' work unit is a sanatorium. The whole hospital adds up to one or two hundred people. Houshan is a forest park. The air is fresh, the forest is lush, there is a hill in the courtyard, and a pavilion is built on the mountain. Usually there are few people coming. It is really a good place to work behind closed doors.

Every day I go to the hill pavilion to learn English and politics. The four seasons of Guilin are evergreen. I am surrounded by green hills and green bamboos. When the breeze passes, the leaves rustle and I am here to learn Su Qin in the Warring States period. From spring to summer, from summer to winter, I have studied hard for a year. In this year, my mind has been greatly exercised, and it is even more difficult to knock me down. Later, my situation turned better. Many people in life felt that the frustrations that could not be accepted were just a piece of cake in my opinion.
Guilin Duoqi Mountain, beautiful and green, the scenery is picturesque. Whenever I am tired, I always look at this beautiful scenery, admire the motherland's picturesque scenery, feel the smallness of life, and the impermanence of fate!
Big Brother brought back a computer from Beijing, Pentium 166, 4. 2G Quantum big hard disk, good configuration at the time, gave it to me. I have long been eager for something, and I can finally use my computer without restrictions! I put the computer in front of the bed and went to sleep with it.
I sometimes suddenly wake up in the middle of the night, thinking about the current predicament, I will have a cold sweat. The computer was silent and stayed with me quietly. I looked at the blue faint screen and it was very complicated.
I am saddened by the computer. I have to suppress my desire to explore software technology and force myself to focus on the postgraduate study.
The entire English textbook has more than 5,300 words. In order to carry them back, I used VB to compile a small software with back words. Each time I can display Chinese or English separately, and I can distinguish which words are not remembered. All the words I used to type in a letter and a letter on the keyboard, put the bed together every morning, and then carry it back to the computer for half an hour. By the end of the postgraduate entrance examination, I saw that there were more than 2,000 words in the database.
Since this year, I have really been a life-threatening person. I don’t believe in any postgraduate research theory. I have asked people to buy a few exams from the State Education Commission. I specialize in postgraduate exam questions. I want to find a method that suits me.
Postgraduate mathematics exam analysis of more than 500 pages of books, I have turned over and over to test the test questions over the years. I have recited at least a hundred times of the report of the 15th National Congress of the Communist Party of China. I call it the "quotation". It is really called "reversing the flow." When I was in politics, I copied a large section of the 15th National Congress report. , actually got 75 points!
The yellowing undergraduate advanced mathematics and probability and mathematical statistics, as well as the linear algebra textbook of the blue cover, have been turned over by me. I feel that I am a poor foundation. On this basis, what methods to do are all in the air, and we must seize the "three basics." But I have to sorrowfully point out that my efforts have not improved my mathematics ability. Mathematics does not learn this way. Mathematical thinking is never cultivated in this way. How to learn math? Have to ask Hua Luogeng and Chen Jingrun and other math masters! I still can't do mathematics until now. I also hope that people with this experience can teach me to make up the math class.
Life finally gave me a smile. In 1999, I graduated from mathematics and scored 60 points. I finally entered the threshold of the university and can play a backpack in Beijing.
I am a stupid person who is not good at finding the best route to reach the goal, but with the strength of the cow, I hardly got a way. This road can also pass through with some lucky colors. Everyone must be smarter than me. They must find a better way to achieve their goals in a more economical and smart way. This is a great wisdom, and I have no of.
The impact of this experience on my personal quality of thought is far-reaching. Why do you say that? In order to test politics, I thoroughly and comprehensively understand the modern and contemporary history of China. I went to the pirated disc market and bought a lot of CDs with historical materials. From many aspects, I look at Chinese history. I will watch all the programs related to history on TV. . What I want to say especially here is a great book - "Selected Works of Mao Zedong"! Every family that has experienced the Cultural Revolution, which one has no hair selection? There is more than one set in my family. Mao Zedong's selection of one to four volumes, the yellowed book was read through by me during this time. The classic article was read by me over and over again, catching up with Jin Yong’s "The Legend of the Condor Heroes". The more I read, the more I feel that Mao Zedong’s people are the ones who have been out for hundreds of years. His "Hunan Agricultural and Cultural Investigation Report" and "On Protracted War" and other works reflect the profound insight and China's national conditions. In-depth grasp, its broad mind, the spirit of the country for the people really shocked me! In the end, it was the inevitable result of Chinese society. At that time, she concentrated on the best and best talents in China. Together with Mao Zedong’s unrecognized leader of the big cattle, Chiang Kai-shek is not a standard with him. The devil in the Central Plains will definitely lose! I became an admirer of Mao Zedong, but it is by no means a blind follower.
Speaking of it, everyone may not believe it. I got a lot of spiritual nutrition from Mao's election and I am more optimistic. Mao Xuan is really a huge spiritual wealth for the Chinese! In recent years, many angry youths have pointed to Mao Zedong’s mistakes in his later years and completely denied Mao Zedong. In my opinion, it is really arrogant and ignorant. How many of them really understand Mao Zedong? How many of them have actually seen Mao Xuan objectively? How many of them are qualified to evaluate Mao Zedong? Put them back to the era of Mao Zedong’s survival, and they will have so much fart? ! Maybe they are the first to be traitors. Oh, sorry, swearing.
Gossip less, return to the topic.
Looking back on this experience, I can only say that it is "the road to postgraduate studies with Chinese characteristics." I lament that the Chinese test is a thing that kills humanity, especially in the college entrance examination and postgraduate study. If I use this kind of energy to learn a computer, what technology can I learn in a year and a half? But I can't help it. The reality forces me to test this kind of test that I don't want to test. I don’t see the world’s exams. I think there are so many students in the country who want to take this kind of exam every year. A lot of manpower and material resources and the energy and time of young people are spent on the exams. The content is so far from the reality, really helps talents stand out? In my opinion, it has formed a test-oriented education that has stifled the creativity that young people have. The reason why China can't get a master figure now should reflect on China's education system.