Why stay in Beijing?

In the New Year, living in a small building on the second floor of the country, and being alone in a single house, I suddenly felt that my heart was much brighter. During the first half of the year in Beijing, I was cramped in a small room with a bedroom, kitchen and living room function for ten square meters per day. The field of view is no more than four meters. Often came a courier, just unpacking, I felt that the room was full, and some were out of breath. The outside is always dusty, and the idea of ​​opening the window and venting has to be smothered in shackles. It’s like courage to go out and walk. At this time, I will look at the BMW that is parked downstairs on the side of the road. It is very white, but the owner can't afford the parking space of more than 400,000. So the BMW style meal, sleeping on the dust, is now more and more old, always feel that the crow's feet are full from the window. Seeing it is so lonely, my heart will be very abnormal for a while. Now I want to come, the kind of person who has seen him much better than himself has the satisfaction of his own difficulties, which is the most accurate mindset.

Ok, I admit that I am a real silk.

In my beautiful fantasy, I have been eager to be an inspirational story. But unfortunately, the inspirational story has an inevitable requirement that the process is difficult, but the result must be successful. This is a little out of reach for me. Until now, I don't know what success is. Is it a house car in your eyes, a wife or a child, or a dream come true? Going into work, facing the society, and starting to support themselves by own income, the biggest advantage is that they have more independent choices and broader freedoms; the biggest misfortune is that success is no longer single-line and clear. Everything has changed from a simple task-style apportionment to a modular exploration. Where is the future, and how to go, the predecessors have different opinions. In fact, most people are clouded. It sounds full of truth, but it is still warm and self-aware.

So, I began to look for inspirational stories around me, and I was excited to see the resentment of the silk rebellion. I went around and asked about it. I used a gossip to polish my eyes and search. I listened to my friends and talked about his classmates, worked in the tobacco bureau, and earned money to buy a house and a car. At that time, I thought that the tobacco company did have money. It has always been a good example of harming people's self-interest by doing a lot of harmful activities while earning a lot of money. I told my friends that your classmates’ purchasing power is quite strong, and this work is considered to be fat. Friends are not envious to say, yeah, looking for this job, the family spent hundreds of thousands. It takes a lot of effort to spend hundreds of thousands of people to harm others. Later, I had dinner with another friend in the banking industry. He said that they had a new sister, and they were promoted in less than half a year. I am thinking about this. This is probably the result of this solid female theory and down-to-earth. He said that at the end of the year, the bank lacked money. The girl transferred her family's deposits to their bank name, so they paid more than 60 million personal savings, so she was promoted.

I am always looking for, is there such a person, did not rely on the family, relying on their own hard work, in the first year or two of graduation has achieved enviable achievements. Unfortunately, the answer is no, so far. The little friends around me are working hard in the heart of the country - Beijing, although some of the heart muscles are hypertrophy, and everyone is living with some cramps. But they are also working hard without day and night. A buddy working in a bank was struggling with the workload of the whole day. When he turned his relatives and friends into his own customers, he found his girlfriend working in a foreign company and hoped she could buy some wealth management products. His girlfriend was anxious, and he also managed the money. The old lady’s own money was not enough to pay the rent. Beijing is not entirely Xidan Wangfujing, nor is it an airport high-speed rail station. Beyond foreign companies and banks, behind the glamorous, the hard work and hardship of those who work hard are often difficult to detect.

Sometimes, I will inevitably ask myself why I want to go to and fro in this big city. Why can't I, like my friends, buy a house and a car in my hometown, and then arrange a blind date for my parents? A fat doll, then give it to your parents. Passing the unit is across the street, the wife and children are hot-headed. Why do you have to meet the wind and sand, get up early every day, and then thank the people behind you for constantly pushing the squad to get on the MRT, then go to work on the punctuality and thank you for the work of the organization, return home tired like a dog and then get angry . My friends and I counted friends who fled Beijing, sighed for their departure, and then persisted.

I am envious of the university's graduation, you can have all the basic material life. I also hope that I can live full of idealism without worrying about real life. Even I believe that many people have dreamed of being part of an inspirational story like me, dreaming of ultimately achieving great success. But life is never a fairy tale. Maybe we can never succeed, maybe we can't realize our dreams, even if we carry high prices, it is difficult to lift the head that once craved pride. But I always feel that this insistence is more important than the success. How can there be so many casual successes let us come and go? How can there be so many inspirational stories for us to learn?

I often have friends asking why I stayed in Beijing. I always avoid it. Like those who stay in Beijing, I am always confused about this issue. After the year, I will return to Beijing. Facing the wind and the busy, feel the cramped and uneasy. I am lazy, and I really admire the pampering and the food and clothing. But I just think that there is something missing.

Maybe we need the basic fairness that Beijing can bring, the more opportunities it needs to give, and the fact that it forces us to have the cruel reality of independence. For every foreigner who tries to live here, we are more or less eager to have a little idealism, persist and look forward to it.

A job that relies on one's own strength, a marriage that has passed through a difficult relationship through love, a flesh and blood that is raised by his own efforts, and uses his own life to work hard to pay for the child's infatuation.

Perhaps this is the reason for staying in Beijing.