Why do I go to Peking University?

In the year of Gao Yi, I almost turned myself into a piece of rust iron. When I was in class, I went to sleep and chatted to watch comics and snacks. I followed the boys and yelled at the back, and the young female teacher was so angry that she was so smug and smug. It was a time of unbearable look, like a colorful black hole, it looked strange and spooky, but the ghostly attraction was unconsciously pulling you to the bottomless abyss. Then it slipped, so it fell, and what is even more sad is that I know that I am falling in the fall but unable to change. The power of habit is so great that I can't help but give up the last struggle and effort. Now think about it, it’s just cowardice, it’s just laziness. It’s just a seemingly sound reason for yourself to be self-deprecating. Everything is self-deception.

But at that time, no one came to point me at the tip of my nose, saying that you want to break the jar like this, just want to finish your life like this. Maybe they have given up on me, sometimes I think. Then it is ridiculously disdainful, disdainful and self-righteous and free and easy - who is rare. In fact, at that time, there really should be someone who, like many people have experienced, points to my nose and pokes my spine. You know what you are doing and you don’t know what you want. I don't know what my future will be.

However, people who don't care anymore will have their own bottom line, just as deep valleys will have their bottom. Everything was like a slide, and I laughed down on the road. Finally I fell heavily underneath, and my head broke.

Perhaps, only when people are in pain, will they seriously reflect on which step they have taken, and they must fall to the point to learn to walk around. And this is a simple truth, but I have spent a whole year of youth to really understand. One year, 365 days, Mrs. Curie can discover radium. One year, Einstein can prove the square of E=mc. One year, a baby can learn to stumble into the arms of his mother. One year can make a vigorous period. Love begins to end. But this year, I only got that sentence. Fortunately, it is not a loss, it is not too late.

High bisection, I chose the text. You can't imagine what kind of liberal arts class I have in my middle school. What is the concept of three people on the undergraduate course? When I am now quite self-satisfied, my college classmates told me that they had dozens of Peking University's classes in the middle school. Gently smiled. The liberal arts class I am in is a liberal arts class with three undergraduate courses. What is more ironic is that all three are repeat students. I am resolutely in the eyes of everyone or helpless or ironic or unnecessary.

The name of the liberal arts registration form was written. That was the best time I ever wrote in my life.

I just suddenly woke up and felt that my life could not be like that. Afterwards, many people asked me what happened. Maybe they wanted to hear a legendary prodigal son returning to me here. The only explanation I could think of at the time was this sentence. I just thought that my life should not be like that. The past.

However, I still underestimated the impact of the past year. In the first monthly exam, I took the 12th grade. Perhaps this is a result that sounds unsatisfactory, but only conscience and reason are enough to remind me that it is a liberal arts class with three undergraduates. If you can't leave all the people behind, what is the difference between 12 and 120? I still remember the girl who took the first exam. It is an unseen girl, thin and thin, with thick pair of black-rimmed glasses, and the figure crouching on the desk is often awkward. And this impression comes because all people can only see her figure on the table. She has been the first person in the class to come last. I have always had an inexplicable rejection and feelings about that kind of student. I always think that you have something great. Isn't it a dead study? If I study hard like you, it is the first in the city. In fact, I still dismissed her until the test results came out. Then, I ushered in the most important class meeting in my life. I don't know what weight to use to thank the class teacher, because if it weren't for her, now I don't have to be anywhere. At the class meeting, she said: "This time is very telling the problem. The people who should be tested have all been tested." Then she glanced at me. I understood her subtext. That is to say, in her opinion, I belong to there is no reason to test. Ok, that bunch of people. Strange, I didn't actually blush. I don't know if it was too long, and I have already polished the original sensitive self-esteem unconsciously, or I still have no doubt about her words in the subconscious. I met her gaze with no expression. Her eyes just brushed over me calmly, and then continued: "I know that some people think they are very smart and talented. They look down on those students who study hard and hard work. They always think that it is inherently inadequate for people to fly first. But I want to say, you It’s just cowardly! You dare not try it. You just don’t dare to work hard to be as hard as they are, because you are afraid that you can’t compare with them. If you work hard, you can’t take the first place. As a result, you are ridiculed, you would rather Don't try, just because there is a risk of failure, and you can't even afford this risk, because, in your heart, you are not sure........." She said something later, I have already thought about it. It’s up, I admit that I was completely covered where I was, because of the few words she said. "You are just weak...". At that time, the feeling was that the thunder and the whole shocked the whole person. There was only one sentence in the back and forth: "You are only weak." She is correct.

The shock of sudden awakening is something that language can't describe, and I don't want to use words to express it. You can only imagine through the results, and you only need to imagine through the results. I wrote in the diary that night, try it. I don't want to ask for anything. I just want to try it. Try it if you work hard to learn for a month and it won't work. At that time, I did not dare to promise anything to myself, and I did not promise. I just hold a thought and give it a try. Then ushered in the most dramatic month of my life. The reason why it is dramatic is that it is hard to imagine that Tang Yan is no longer arrogant, that Sun Wukong is no longer aggressive, and that the Eight Precepts are no longer greedy. I can’t believe that it’s self-study from 6 am to 10 pm. I can't sit in the class after class. I can't sit still in the position. The person who is steady and steady can be myself. In fact, it is not so simple, it is really not as simple as it is said. When I went to do it little by little, I found out that it would be too difficult to change the habit of 365 days in a few days; but to create a jaw-dropping miracle in a month. It is too difficult. Habitually become natural, as the saying goes, "The heart is like a plain horse, easy to put it out." The wild habit of the heart, if you want to recover it at once, how easy is it? Sitting and sitting can not help The heart began to float, and the eyes began to drift away. However, when I sway on the most dangerous edge, I always press and tell myself, when I can't help it, I can bear it. In fact, it is a sentence: when you can't help it, you can bear it. I admit that I am a very proud person in my bones. I just don't believe that I will be worse than anyone. I just don't believe that I can't do it when I really do something. I just don't believe what is really there in this world. impossible things. I Believe that nothing is impossible.

Then, I ushered in the mid-term exam that I had been waiting for for a long time. I still remember the feeling after the test. Holding the book and walking on the way home, staring blankly at the people coming and going, did you really finish the exam? Why isn’t the heart empty? It’s really the most special exam in my life because it’s related My choice of direction and road since then, the risk is too great, how can I be at ease? In fact, the results of the exam must have been guessed. I did make everyone really stunned once. Yes, I took the first place and the city first.

You can never imagine how important the result is to me. I was unusually calm when I knew the results. At that time, I realized that the impulse to excite and scream was only calm. When the long-lost name appeared on the first line of the transcript, I silently said to myself: Remember, nothing in this world is impossible. Nothing is impossble.

Later, I have never changed that attitude and method. In fact, all methods are white, there is no way. There is only one word: hard work.

I am sticking to my method of not being a method, and sticking to my name on the transcript, until the last exam before the college entrance examination, I am always the first. However, the real challenge has not yet begun. Even if I can firmly occupy the first place, even if I can drop the second place every few dozen points, I know that Peking University is still too far away from me, so far away that I can't even see it in my dreams. All the teachers are convinced that I will be the best liberal arts student in the history of the school, and in their concept, the best liberal arts students mean that you can go up the mountain, if you are lucky, maybe You can reach out and reach the threshold of Fudan and even the National People's Congress. And as long as I am Peking University. I have never told anyone about my volunteers - if I can call them volunteers. I just want to save all my strength.

In the second semester of the third year of high school, we moved into the newly completed teaching building. On the day of the relocation, there was a lot of noise in the corridor, and the sound of pulling the table and pulling the bench was endless in the hallway. I jumped over the window without saying a word, and set foot on the big platform outside the window frame on the second floor. Opposite is the playground, the first snow is not melted, the air is cold and cold, and the bare branches are straight to the sky. The snow in the snow coolly passed through the eyelashes in the eyes, and the eyes quietly looked at the far sky. I said a word and said only one sentence. Against the sky in the distance, I silently said in my heart: "Wait, I want you to witness a miracle." I know that there is really nothing impossible in this world.

I never knew that when the pressure was so high, it could actually motivate people's potential to that point. I am a very restless person, but during that time I showed great patience and stability, and I was as steady as an old ox. In fact, countless times I have been on the verge of collapse. I have turned back and forth five times in high school five history books. When you put a book back six times, you know what it feels like at the time. I shed tears on my back. Really, if I almost can't keep going, I will throw the book away. Just, when you can't help it, take it for granted. Perseverance is indeed the greatest quality in the world. The only way I took a break during that time was to stand in the hallway and look at the distant sky. Later, I found that there is a big red letter on the opposite building wall. It is used by schools to motivate students. I am not sure. But that sentence has accompanied me through the last days of the third year of high school - the power of the will is the power to decide success or failure. I use all my experiences and experiences to practice and prove this sentence: the power of the will is the power to decide success or failure.

The whistling wind is rolling in the yellow sand of the sky. In the spring of the north, we are all hairless and rough skin. The silence and the hustle and bustle are like the ruling party of the United States. The law makes people suspect that there are two strange and magical hands in the dark. However, we are stunned in the fear and expectation, and we have sent away a model, a second model and even a N model. Each nerve is ruined by the ruthless reality, whether it is used to Yangliu’s Xiaofeng Poetry, still accustomed to the meaning of the graffiti. In this season of rushing, all the sensitive and slender are extravagant as the thick coat of Caesar the Great, and the hopes of staying countless times have been smashed in the face of countless disappointments, and countless times of slamming have fallen in countless times. The head broke blood. Everyone understands the insurmountable gap between ideals and reality more than yesterday, and struggles harder than yesterday to try to squeeze through the narrow wooden bridge, even if it is known to be in vain.

- Will it be in vain?

When the question mark of this cone heart slammed the door again and again in the night when the night was quiet, everyone could not bear the panic and confusion that surged, so they forced themselves to bury themselves, buried the books, and buried the papers. Buried into the impenetrable black scorpion - just for a day to break into a butterfly. Dark black eyes, puffy eye bands, dry fingers, anxious mouth blisters. I didn't know if it was popular in the spring, whether it was pink blue or green. The small mirror was quietly put away, because I couldn't bear to see my face and bleak eyes, because I was afraid that there would be a wide-ranging face in the long-awaited face of Wang Yang - God, I am a girl.

God is speechless. Silent smile. Smile tells me, you are willing. Yes. I am willing to not regret the original intention. I have chosen this road to be flat or rugged. I have to go. I have to go on. I will go on.

Then all the shouts were swallowed, and all the pride was taken away. I am like a February ox, silently moving forward and silently. When the struggle is replaced by desperation, Shangri-La has turned into a dream of perseverance and embarrassment in the heart, and all efforts are only to make this dream no longer "beautiful, such as flowers," even if the sky is long, even if the green water ripples .

I was calm after I stepped into the examination room. "If you can't do it, you can have no regrets." In fact, I never thought about which school I would be admitted to outside of Peking University. It is not a self-confidence, it is a premonition. I just thought that even if Peking University only recruits one place, why can't it be me? There is nothing in this world that is really impossible.

After the test, I walked on the way home, watching the crowd still in a hurry, my heart is still empty. The eyes are blurred by tears, and the things in the field of vision are more and more clear. This is explained in science, but I would rather believe that because all true perceptions are at the expense of tears and pain. Yes, we always have to learn to give up something to get something else. If the thing you care about is worth paying for everything, then all the giving up is just the pain before giving birth. There is always a trade-off. The butterfly's life is so short because its wings are too delicate. Sometimes, giving up is just for real gain, the key is to see what you want, and how much you are willing to pay for what you want. God is equal to everyone.

In fact, I miss those days and I am grateful for it forever. Not only because I completed my transition and sharp change during that time, but also because everything at that time was deeply branded in the character that I was in the plastic period and became the forever wealth of this life. That is really how much money can't be bought. There will never be any period in life that is as monolithic as it was at that time. It is simply, resolutely, stubborn and full of faith and hope, and has no choice but to be isolated from the world, fighting for a certain goal. . When you are in a leisurely afternoon a few years later, recalling your own efforts and giving up, the perseverance and endurance, the persistence and dedication, the sweat and tears of the past, what kind of moving and rejoicing, what kind of Rejoice and respect - respect yourself. Yes, in the process, please allow me to repeat it, to do what is important is yourself. I thank my parents for thanking the teacher and thanking my classmates for thanking my friends for all those who care about me, but I am most grateful to myself. Nothing is impossible. This is what I got from bit by bit of effort and experiment. And I also believe that this will also be something that will benefit me for the rest of my life. Here, I give you one of my most convincing words: Nothing is impossible.