It’s better to do it yourself than to do it yourself.

At the beginning of the year, I set three goals: to pass the national judicial examination; the draft fee exceeded the salary; not angry or angry, not once. To this end, I have developed a detailed plan. In my plan, the manuscript is not scheduled before April, because I have to go through the judicial examination materials during this time. After all, I have been doing it for many years. Have not touched the expertise. However, in February, the good news of the friends who wrote with me was overwhelming. Who took the column, who signed the contract, and who made the book... My heart suddenly surged and could not be completely silenced. Hesitate, or write a manuscript while preparing for the test.

Stop! I seem to be dying again.

After graduating from college, there are legends of great gods in the rivers and lakes.

The high school classmate who had not been in contact for a long time actually came to the door to chat and inadvertently asked about my salary. I told the truth. She looked down on her face and then began to show off that she only got the CPA certificate in three years, and now the salary is more than three times that of mine. How can I breathe this arrogance, knowing that she has been my defeat in the past. So, as soon as she left, I immediately went to buy the CPA exam materials, downloaded a lot of test preparations on the Internet, and vowed in my heart that I must pass all the test subjects in two years. .

To this end, I am free and sloppy, and when I get off work, I am sitting at the desk and squatting at the obscure books. After a few days of dark days, one day I suddenly woke up. What do I do with this test? Usually, when I have to do something related to finance, my heart is full of resistance, even if I take it. When I get this card, will I jump into the industry? I am sure, I will not. Then I take this test just to get the light from it, and then press it to the bottom of the box?

After a few months of tossing, I dared to give up.

Later, I heard that my brother opened a calligraphy training school in Guangzhou. Now I have earned a lot of money and bought a big house in Guangzhou. So, I suddenly started a dog-like comparison. Everyone went out to the same door. Why can't I open a training school? Besides, I can't really hate the current work. I feel more painful when I go to work every day. I got it on one foot.

To do it, the result of my field trip to my brother is that what I lack most is fame. I have turned over my certificate of award, mostly in college, and it is too old. I began to search for the call for calligraphy in various calligraphy competitions, as well as the conditions for joining the associations at all levels. I write a lot of words every day and send them out to participate in the competition. Soon, I found that I was not happy at all.

After some tossing, I gave up with relief.

In the past few years of graduation, I couldn’t help but put in a place where I saw other people’s radiance. So I went to the west all day, and I rushed to the north, but I didn’t occupy even small in any field. A small piece of place.

When I was very young, I saw a story. There is a sea banshee called Samuel in Greek mythology. They have beautiful and fascinating faces like mermaids. The only difference is that they have an eagle-like body below their neck. When they see a ship passing by, they will fly to sing beautiful songs. The sailors who don’t hold their ears, as long as they hear their songs, will fall into extreme madness and even jump into the sea to pursue their presence. As a result, all of them were buried on the seabed and it was no longer possible to reach their destination.

I don't know what I am suitable for? No, I always know the way I want to go. I am like a sailor who has not covered her ears, can not stand the temptation, jumped into the sea to pursue the figure of the scorpion.

Fortunately, I once again covered my ears and had the opportunity to write this "repentance book" in front of the computer. I think people in this life, the most sad thing is that they have done their best to do many times, but they have not been able to do it themselves seriously. When the light of others becomes a temptation, please do not hesitate to walk away, do not forget the way you want to go because of the light of others.