My "stupid" father

I have never liked my father all the time, and the relationship with my father is quite bleak.

I don't like my father for a reason. When I remembered it, he gave me the deepest impression that it was "stupid". The kind of "stupid" is not as simple as missing a rib. Whenever an annoyed mother talks about his father, he always can't help but lament: Dad, how many roots he lacks, mother, have you counted it?

1

After 55, my father was a full-fledged 30-year-old. In that era, it was an absolute late marriage. There is only one reason for late marriage: poor. Before the liberation, the grandfather who worked as a long-term worker in the landlord’s house married another small-door, small-headed daughter whose head was not very good, that is, my grandmother. Grandma gave birth to six children in one breath, and was full of hungry in the arduous days. Because of overwork and hunger, Grandpa was thrown away when his father was 6 years old, leaving a little bit of trouble. Grandma, crazy uncle and father who didn't wear clothes to wear barefoot in the winter.

The father is the youngest, and the one who is the most bitter. After the uncle became a family, the days were too well-off. The second assignment of the university to the university became a city man. Sanbo was transferred from a private school to a state-owned enterprise, and married to the outside world. The father and grandmother and the uncle lived together. At that time, when the young people went to the countryside to go to the countryside, the school stopped their classes. The father who had a good academic record was countless readable. He interrupted his studies and took up the burden of raising a family at home. He was barefooted in the big winter at the age of twelve or three. Into the mountains to pick coal, to feed a family of three. My father is awkward, my grandmother is dull, my uncle is mad, my family is poor, and I still suffer from the ridicule and insults of the villagers. I can imagine that no girl will marry her father.

Until the two ponytails, the handsome, seven-year-old mother, married in the distant relatives of the father's neighboring village, married from twenty or thirty miles, the father finally ended the day of playing bachelor. In the second year after marriage, I gave birth to me.

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Childhood is poor and carefree. The mother is very kind and hardworking. She uses her tenacity and hard work to pull the whole family up a little from the abyss of poverty. The father's "stupid" has become a "hard-wound" for the mother's life, and I am deeply criticized by my self-righteousness.

My father's brain is really not flexible enough. It can even be said to be rigid, stiff, and not open. He will not get along with others, he will offend people if he is not careful, and he will be "semi-canned" behind the villagers; he is confused, others will humiliate him, he can't hear the voice, even his irony is thought to Is praising him. To be alive, he always doesn't make a lot of effort, or finds the wrong way, makes a fool and makes things worse. When he is slack, he will not go out of his way to find some money, and he will not listen to more questions. He will not only listen to the questions in the field, but also make money for his children’s tuition fees. When busy, He ignored the wheat and corn that he had collected from his home, but he was stupidly called to work at home for more than a dozen miles, making his mother exhausted and tired, and the white flowers and corn were rotten in the ground. As a result, the whole family has already made it worse for the rations that are not connected. He was also deceived by the black heart to work at the construction site of her home. As a result, it was not possible to pay for the work. Year after year, he walked to discuss the money, and the rubber shoes were badly doubled.

In addition to being "stupid", his father is still "lazy." Throughout the year, unless the mother is not at home, he will not make a meal and wash the clothes. If he is too addicted to sleepiness, even if his mother is busy with his forefoot, he will not ask a distressed sentence, just paying attention to his sleep. It’s rare to eat back the meat. The mother always gives him the meat to eat and eats only vegetables. He doesn’t want to eat the meat in one bite. He doesn’t consider the feelings of the mother who has children, cooking and washing. Never give the meat to the mother to take the initiative. When the mother and her grandmother had a dispute, he not only did not protect the mother, but also raised the "family ugly" and went to the uncles to tell the mother of the situation, so that the mother who was over-nutrient and overworked was in a state of anger, and made me lack of life. Three pounds, but also with anemia, only to cure a year old. I can only describe that the father is indeed the lack of the pain of the person, to the indignation of his "sinister heart."

Not only that, but the father is also a person with a leaking ear. To give him a confession, he is always easy to remember. For example, let him go to the street to buy salt. He is likely to buy it as a vegetarian. Many things bought are not applicable. It’s a waste, or you can’t help but buy something you shouldn’t buy. Every time he made a mistake that everyone thought, he not only refused to admit it, but also rushed to "kill the cow", and there was no way to persuade him, let alone help him improve. In my family, the so-called no cure is probably the same.

As the children grow up, the father and mother will also go to the nearby construction sites to work as casual workers while reducing the amount of farm work. It is only the contrast that the mother who is willing to eat hard is always praised by the boss, and the father is inevitably working on the site, which is inevitably disappointing by the bosses and even jokes by the workers. His eyes are clumsy. When others work, he only looks at it but does not take the handle. When he is working, he can't find the head, and often struggles. As soon as the mother complained, he would have to lose his temper and only let people shake his head and sigh.

Father, he has long been known as "stupid" outside the village. His "stupid" is also accompanied by my path of growth, which makes me lack recognition and respect for him.

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I want to know, how strong I am, I am eager to have a father who has knowledge, ability, reason, and will teach, so that I can worship can rely on can be proud, but I don't. So I have been learning hard since I was a child. I want to be a leader. Without a strong father, I can only make myself stronger.

People in the village said that if there is not my mother, this family does not know where to be poor. This is true. Because of my mother, my family's relationship with the neighborhood has gradually become harmonious, and the family's economic power is also in the hands of the mother, so that children can have money to go to school, have food to eat. Otherwise, with his father's "stupid" strength, a few people in a family can't be bullied, and they shouldn't be struggling, let alone know how to raise their children.

Therefore, I don't like my father. Whenever he has a squabble with his mother, I also help my mother. The word "father" in my dictionary has always been blunt, cold, like a virtual word, and there is not much emotion.

In the past two years, my father went to work there, and he was also stupid. He was too stupid, and people who worked together complained. The second teacher taught him to ride a battery car. He had an accident in succession. Fortunately, people were fine, but the battery car of Eryi could suffer a lot of embarrassment. It’s hard to stumble and learn a reluctant meeting. His small courage is not going to go to a place where there are many people in big cities. When he was working there, he shouted and screamed, and he fled back to his home when he was frustrated. This is good. He is back and wants to buy a battery car with the money he earns from working. When my mother told me, I had to listen to it, and even shook my head to stop him from buying. It’s not a question of money, but a father who really worries that “stupid” really wants to ride a battery car on a country road. How can an accident happen?

Still my sister poked my heart in one sentence: Sister, Dad, he worked hard for a lifetime, and the money was spent on our study. He is also old, and you let him spend money for himself!

I am silent. For my father, I am not more reasonable than my sister. Yes, let him spend money for himself!

Dad finally bought the battery car with peace of mind, but the first time he fell on a shit, the right hand was broken, and the next day he was repaired and broken, and many small accidents occurred one after another. Once I had swollen my legs for a long time. Although his father was still "stupid", he slowly rode down after a period of cycling frustration. However, once he encountered some rugged roads, he still did not dare to ride, he could only get off and push.

4

After leaving home, I basically only went home two or three times a year. I usually contacted my family by phone, and the phone was only called to my mother. When my "stupid" father became an invisible person. Unless I think of the "major event" like birthday, I will talk to my father, and if I don't say a word or two, I can only say that I can only hang up. Even if I bought him a mobile phone with his own part-time money, I just used to look for my mother. As for my father, I don’t know what to talk to him. When the money is not enough, when I call my mother, she will always be anxious to say, "I will let your dad give you money tomorrow morning, you must not hungry yourself," and occasionally the mother does not call him on his father. But it will be slow to say, "Then you will find a classmate to borrow it. I will give you money after two days and you will return it to the classmates."

In this way, I habitually disliked him, even reprimanded him when he was dissatisfied with him, but he was always so stupid as "stupid", like an old ox holding his land silently, doing his work, Keeping the home of only two people, he and his mother.

"You let him spend money for himself." My sister's words repeated in my ear, so I can't help but recall everything in the past. God arranged for me such a "stupid" father. In fact, it is not a microcosm of thousands of peasants, honest and honest, simple and honest, no contention.

When I was young, I rode on his shoulder and asked him how big the earth was. He said that it was so big. When I was a small country, I liked to paint. I ignored the economic conditions of my family and wanted to buy a drawing board. My father really took out 36 yuan to go to the county town and bought me a drawing board and a raw paper. So I became a class. The only child with a drawing board. I was swaying on the campus with my drawing board, but in the end I did not learn to paint. I thought about the 36 yuan at that time, I was really embarrassed by my ignorance, and I finally felt the money my father had wasted for me.

My father loves to smoke, has a big cigarette addiction, and loves to go to the streets to get some white wine to go home to drink. This should also be considered a small money for him. Although he is "stupid", he has always been single-minded about the family. The money he earned was handed over to his mother for safekeeping, and he did not eat well. He has always been very stupid. He didn't have the ability to make big money. He and his mother ploughed an acre for three and a half years, and eventually raised their children to adulthood.

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Every time I go back to my hometown and pick up the baggage with a big bag, most of my father is waiting at the station, and it looks older than once. He always followed me quietly, giving me something to focus on, and I was calm and easy to walk in front of me.

Going back, I always buy something for my mother, clothes or cosmetics, but I often can't think of what I want to buy for my father. I also habitually feel that the "stupid" father should not need anything, so he will automatically ignore him. There was such a Spring Festival, I suddenly "conscience found", bought a few pairs of cotton socks back to my father, did not want his father to open his mouth, black and white Hu Wei slightly moving, old-fashioned, wrinkled face Showing a happy look, my heart was touched by the beggar.

It turned out that the "stupid" father who was disgusted by me, weak, incompetent, and lazy, the "stupid" father who silently paid no regrets, was so eager for the care of his children. A little bit of feedback can make him feel at heart. The joy. However, I habitually ignore him emotionally, and he habitually gets used to being ignored by me.

He is not a perfect father, but there is a perfect father in the world. His image is not high and not sturdy, unable to support the whole world, but he has at least supported a home and never beat his children. He lacks more roots and no shortage of love for this family. As a father, he did not fail. So, what reason do I dislike him, don't care about him, degrade him, but ask him? My "stupid" father is actually a very worthy father.

The prostitute is still there, and the child is good. From now on, in the future life, let me cherish my "stupid" father, but fortunately, still have time!