The most stubborn teenager in the world

A few months ago, on the “Knowing” website, I read the famous answer from the process: “Where do you think you are? Why do you think so?” He calmly described his life as less than 20 years old. : I didn't go down the road when I was born. I was judged by a doctor to be less than five years old. My family received many notices of critical illness. What shocked me was that he wrote: "Fate! It’s fair!"

This sentence Shi Tiesheng also said. Almost everyone has complained about the unfairness of fate, complained that they have taken more than others and gained less than others. However, in the face of Shi Tiesheng, facing Cheng Hao, we are not qualified to talk about fate.

"This goes down, you have to be the most tenacious 15-year-old boy in the world, no matter what. Because in addition, there is no way for you to survive in this world. For this reason, you must understand that the real tenacity is What happened?" Murakami Haruki wrote in "Kafka by the Sea".

In addition to being the strongest teenager in the world, Cheng Hao has no other choice.

I have tried to try and figure out the fate of Cheng Hao, to simulate the childhood and youth spent on the sick bed, to imagine the new pain that I have to face every once in a while. I found that I can imagine that only the pain caused by the collapse of the body, but there is no way to truly understand his psychological activities: the night before going to sleep every night to wake up the next day, wake up every morning to see the sun The joy that is still rising, his gratitude and apology to his mother, and the sensitive feelings of his mother's grateful reaction.

- So many tiny flaws are completely unimaginable to others. The saddest thing is that even the closest relatives can't feel it.

The closest relative to Cheng Hao is probably his mother. He pushed the doctor's predicted death time back 15 years, and his mother often referred to this as a miracle.

Cheng Hao said: "Mom especially likes to put these prophecies that have not become reality in my mouth. It is as if the miracle is much more, and there will be miracles.

Many people will use "positive" and "optimistic" to describe Cheng Hao, but I think this is a thought that others take for granted, and the rashness is almost rude. Miracles, hopes, these are all analgesics with little effect, sensitive, such as Cheng Hao, how can it be easily convinced by these words?

Half an hour before the elephant dies, he realizes that death has been found, and then faces and walks toward it with loneliness and calmness. This is the animal's life instinct.

Death, fear, when we talk about these words, we are talking about something beyond the distant time and space. For Cheng Hao, that is every detail that comes to life.

Some netizens saw Cheng Hao’s article and replied: “It’s the most important thing to live!”

There are two levels of living, one is the continuation of simple life, one more round of heartbeat and breathing, another more meal, more sleep, and wake up; another level of living is like alive People live the same.

This is the difference between the movie "1942" and the novel "Alive". The former is only to survive, and to live with insults. The latter is not only alive, but also a smile to survive - even if it is a bitter smile, not only alive, but also from time to time to make a rude joke with fate.

To live, there is nothing in itself, but it is to ask for a place of fate. Cheng Hao is a rare person who lives like a living person. He can realize that he is alive every minute.

Cheng Hao has set himself a plan to read 100,000 words a day. He reads in the morning and writes in the afternoon. Reading is on the Internet and reading e-books, writing is to click on the soft keyboard on the screen. He has a 12-hour reading record of 210,000 words.

Cheng Hao answered a lot of questions about reading in "Knowledge". When answering questions, he has a kind of rigor and lack of age. He criticized people who have a low attitude in life and who can't read books.

This kind of sternness, I always feel that it is beyond teaching, and there is a deeper level of resentment. He sees everyone, not just the person's time, but the cross-section of his life, every second that the life clock has experienced. He sees every second before the end of human life.

“Why don’t you make every second meaningful?” I seem to see Cheng Hao’s questioning behind the words.

Our lives may be longer than him. Every minute and every second that he dare not waste is easily abandoned and abandoned. He is grateful for the rising sun every day, hitting the warmth of the sun, but we are complaining and cursing. Cheng Hao is not flat, but also wronged.

Cheng Hao’s diary wrote: “I’m constantly answering other people’s questions. When others are confused, I’m constantly pointing my way. I have to worry about all the problems, all people, I’m so tired, but I Very fulfilling."

After writing this sentence, Cheng Hao never wrote a word. Three months later, he passed away.

After the death, many netizens began to browse Cheng Hao's articles, questions and answers, and began to leave emotional words in his Weibo comments.

Prior to this, there was a netizen named “Going Rice” on Weibo, a female college student who committed suicide because of depression. Her Weibo is cute, interesting, and witty. Every word is faint and sorrowful, like a kind of helplessness from the deep sea.

After the meal was gone, many people began to read through her Weibo, nostalgia, and regret. For Cheng Hao too, the deceased has passed away, and the living began to read their lives.

I am thinking, what is death?

For the dead, death is only the end of meaning. But because of death, the existence of the deceased was discovered again, their words seemed so rich, the moments they lived were so vivid, their meaning became important, even hundreds of times more than they were before.

Death only makes sense to the living.

Cheng Hao said: "The word "inspirational" is now largely ruined." He probably does not like the conclusion that others have drawn the word "inspirational" from their 20 years of life experience. If "Zhi" needs to be "encouraged" to exist, then this "Zhi" may be hypocritical.

Death is one of the few things that must be treated seriously in human life. If someone else's death can only bring a "positive energy" similar to that of the fifth battery, then we will marry him.

The best way to miss is to live full of life instead of him, living every second that he can't go through.