Inspirational story: cerebral palsy patients grow into computer doctors, once inferiority is difficult to open

"I have depression, so I will die and die. There is no important reason. You don't have to care about my departure. Bye bye." On March 18 this year, Nanjing female college student "walking rice" issued Weibo's last words and sang in the dormitory. First anniversary. When Zhang Dakui saw her Weibo in the dormitory, he lifted his inflexible hands and knocked on four words: "Work hard."

This young man who was diagnosed with cerebral palsy since he was less than two years old was once the most desperate person. Today, he is a computer doctor.

You can't wear new shoes, take the old road.

The brown striped shirt, dark blue jeans, and Zhang Dakui opened the door slightly.

In the single dormitory, the light blue quilt cover and the blue and green sheets are laid flat. Zhang Dakui said with a smile: "I am telling me, you have to stack the quilt. When others come to see you, they will say: 'Oh, this kid is not walking well, the quilt is quite good."

In 1981, Zhang Dakui was born into a peasant family in Jiaozuo, Henan. A high fever, limited treatment conditions in the countryside led to serious sequelae. Parents took him to Beijing to seek medical treatment, but got a heartbreaking answer: "The sequela of nuclear jaundice", commonly known as cerebellum.

By the time he was 6 years old, he would only climb on the ground and could not stand alone. "The main manifestation of this disease is that the functions of exercise balance and muscle coordination have great obstacles. The doctor told my parents that there is no good treatment plan in medicine. The only way is to exercise by yourself and restore some of the body functions and self-care. ”

There is no rehabilitation training institution, and I don't know where to go for help, but Zhang did not give up.

At the beginning, Zhang Dakui’s parents tied two bamboo rafts between the two big trees. From the scorching sun to the snow in the sky, the young Zhang Dakui moved his arms with bamboo poles and moved them. Sometimes he cried and continued to "walk." After a few years, his arms were thick, and he could finally "walk" with his arms.

But the world of a young man cannot be between two trees forever. Suddenly one day, the bamboo pole was replaced by a thick rope. "The bamboo pole is hard and can be completely relied on; but the rope is different." He is very uncomfortable. He often trips over his knees when he is halfway through. "The knee doesn't know how many times it broke."

When Zhang Dakui fell, his parents rarely reached out. "Trying to stand up by yourself" is their mantra. Finally, one day, when I wrestled on the ground, the child did not feel a pain in the knee and immediately climbed up.

At the age of 9, Zhang Dakui created the first miracle: he could walk with a cane.

"To tell the truth, I hated my parents' "heartfelt feelings" at the time, but now I am very grateful to my parents for their hard work and special understanding of the struggles of their parents. Fortunately, parents did not give up my education. ”

From the beginning of the country, the child did not dare to drink more water during class, fearing that he would be troubled when he went to the bathroom; when other children chased him, he could only sit alone in his seat. "I am not smart, my body is not convenient, I rarely go out to play or play, which also gives me more free time, then I will spend more time studying."

He can afford military rubber shoes with only a dozen dollars. "The feet are dragged on the ground, so basically wear two pairs of rubber shoes every month."

Every time the father puts on his new shoes, he will say: "Kui, you can't wear new shoes and take the old road." "I didn't understand the meaning of this sentence, but after a few years, whenever I was When I have new shoes, I will learn from my father’s tone and say, 'You can’t wear new shoes, take the old road!'”

"Not as difficult as you think."

"Now many people like the problem of 'one size fits all' and think that I am very good, but I just do what I can and do, step by step, not as difficult as you think." White desk The English textbook that Zhang Dakui is learning is being spread out. There are several highlighters dedicated to the wording. He wrote a lot of words and had a book dedicated to practicing words. "If the word is too small, I can't master the architecture, and I write it."

Zhang Dakui will also add gestures when he speaks. The speed of speech will be a bit sloppy, and a thin layer of sweat will appear on his forehead. A small towel is pinched in your hand, and you need to wipe it from time to time. "Over the years, although I have matured psychologically and physically, I have participated in countless exams, but each exam is no small challenge. After all, I have to pay a lot of effort, and I don't necessarily get the same results. ”

In 2002, Zhang Dakui participated in the joint entrance exam with great pressure. "At the time, the sweat on my head continued to fall on the test paper. Most of the test papers were soaked in sweat. After an exam, the two dry towels that were brought in were just like those that had just been fished out of the water. I couldn't get up quickly. The font will be very scribbled because of the trembling of the arm. The ink is mixed and the surface is very unclear."

He chose a local private college, the Yellow River Institute of Technology. "When I took the entrance exam, most public universities were reluctant to accept disabled people. My choice was small. Now I want to come, I am grateful to my alma mater for accepting me."

When he graduated from college, he faced a crucial choice: Is he continuing to study, or is it over?

"I didn't see the hope of continuing to study." Zhang Dakui recalled, "Because many well-educated graduates can't find a job, let alone my physical condition? But after my parents know what I think, I guided me and forced me to continue reading. In order not to let them down, I kept myself in the dormitory for the first half of the year, and I went to the dormitory to review it day and night. The canteen is brought back."

In 2006, he was admitted to the School of Computer Science, Henan Polytechnic University, where he completed his graduate studies. “Henan Polytechnic University is the place that changed my life. They were able to accept a disabled person. When I was in Kabo, Henan Polytechnic University also gave me the counselor’s office because I had a hard time grabbing the seat.”

In 2019, Zhang Dakui decided to test. "But there is a gap between ideals and reality, especially like me."

He sent a lot of emails to the PhDs in related fields, but most of the professors chose silence or rejection after learning about Da Kui's physical condition. In the worst case, he had insomnia all night and night, and he had thought about giving up. But he once said to himself: "Despair is also a kind of awakening and sublimation."

Finally, he received the only reply, which was from Professor Fan Xiaozhong of the School of Computer Science, Beijing Institute of Technology: "You can test my doctor, but I will not give you any special preferential treatment, and will not disclose any information about the exam. Can't be admitted, it depends on you."

For the desperate Zhang Dakui, it is the last straw caught.

That winter, his figure in a wheelchair shocked the entire written test. On the day of the doctoral interview, Professor Fan Xiaozhong saw Zhang Dakui for the first time. He slipped in the corridor, and when he found out, he was already trying to get up. "It's very self-reliant. It seems to be a habit. What you can do, even if a friend can help, he has to do his best."

Finally, three students met the admission criteria, but Fan Xiaozhong had only two places. "Considering the physical condition of Zhang Dakui, I am worried that other teachers will not, so I will recommend another student to other teachers and leave him with me."

"Zhang Dakui SYTLE": I am in the world to bring different

Under the graduate school, there is a small red three-wheeled dark red, which is Zhang Dakui’s "special car." He can ride his little three rounds to the place he wants to go. Although he is strenuous, he makes his actions a lot free.

At the age of eighteen, he learned to ride a human tricycle. At that time, his evaluation of himself was: "I finally realized my dreams - walking like normal people and taking care of myself!"

"It will be very boring to stay alone for a long time. I can ride a car. The ride is to give myself a time to think. I have to face the road alone." He pointed to three rounds and raised his hand with a small towel. Wipe the sweat.

"Lonely is not lonely." The little boy with a slightly sloping shoulder said with a smile.

The calligraphy hanging on the wall of his dormitory is quite chic: "What a panic." This is what Zhang Dakui heard from TV. Ask the classmates to write and send him. "I always feel that I am flustered. I used to feel inferior. I have a much better mentality now."

"Actually, I am not as strong as you think. More often than not, life is step by step to push me to a dead end, so I can only do what I should and can do. Wait until the people who praise me. Just seeing the results, the process of helplessness only I know." He said calmly. He concluded: "When the mood is high, do things well, and get people done at low tide."

He likes the words that Jobs spoke at Stanford University: "You can't connect the future with each other in the past; only after the experience, you understand how those bits and pieces are strung together. So you have to believe, Everything you experience in front of you will be connected to your future."

"No one can guarantee your future, but what you are doing now will constitute your future. If you want to change the future, please start from now. Anxiety does not help, and action can change the status quo." Zhang Dakui said.

"To tell the truth, as a disabled child, the inferiority of the heart is hard to tell." Zhang Dakui said frankly, just a year ago, what he was most afraid of was the eyes of others. But now, he has been able to confidently say the following:

"I am born to be different. I walked especially, spoke specially, and wrote special. This is my Zhang Dakui's style. I deserve to be seen and heard. I came to this world just to bring some to the world. I want to tell people that people can live in this way without being humble; in the past, a life can touch the world's vision and hearing in such a different way."